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TrippieHunter
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A good bye letter to Mary Jane 1
#21763903 - 06/04/15 11:14 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Mary,
We have known each other and been intimate for some time now and that is why it is so hard to say goodbye. We've had a lot of great times and a lot of
not so great times. You've made me laugh a lot, you've made me cry more than I would have without you. You've given me light and insight in so many
things, big and small. You've kept me calm when no one else could. We've spent more time together than most people ever will. You've seen me grown
from a boy into a man. I feel now though that you are holding me back. Mary whenever we are together you no longer give me pleasure except for on seldom
occasions. You make me anxious and unbearably miserable all the time now. But it's not your fault it's mine for I have abused you. I have taken
advantage of you too many times and it has to stop. I'm not saying we can never see each other again but it has to be so much more seldom Mary. My
love for you has grown stronger than my love for every day life, you have made me forget who I am. It is time that I learn how to live life without
needing you in every part of it. Like oxygen I have become dependant on you to live and I am tired of feeling that way. A love this strong is so costly
and unforgiving. But I will be better and you will be fine without me. There is always a place in my heart for you Mary but for now I must close the door
to open others. A love like this will not be forgotten, it will be missed dearly. But like all great love affairs the feelings will fade after a
while, but I will not forget.
With much love and gratitude,
Trip
-------------------- Just remember keep the camera rolling and FILM THE POLICE!!! CLICK ME WHO'S SIDE ARE YOU ON? CLICK ME TOO! Let it go and you will trip into wonderland!
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TrippieHunter
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I have placed this here in this forum because it is one of the hardest things I have done of late. I am doing this for my mental health and well being and
could really use the support and kind words of those that read. I can accept bad words too but don't be too overbearingly negative. Thanks in advance to
those that read. Trip.
-------------------- Just remember keep the camera rolling and FILM THE POLICE!!! CLICK ME WHO'S SIDE ARE YOU ON? CLICK ME TOO! Let it go and you will trip into wonderland!
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Boooo!
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BayerPhi
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I once saw a man pour out the alcohol before he drank it. A reminder to himself that he doesn't allow the substance to control him but that he has enough control of himself to partake in it. After I quit my addictions I saw this man in me. The one who chooses. Cannabis, in a related understanding, is no different. I've used it as a tool for meditation. After it had shown me all it had to give, I've said farewell too. Everything ends and begins again, wouldn't you agree?
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TrippieHunter
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Re: A good bye letter to Mary Jane [Re: BayerPhi]
#21764059 - 06/04/15 11:58 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
BayerPhi said: I once saw a man pour out the alcohol before he drank it. A reminder to himself that he doesn't allow the substance to control him but that he has enough control of himself to partake in it. After I quit my addictions I saw this man in me. The one who chooses. Cannabis, in a related understanding, is no different. I've used it as a tool for meditation. After it had shown me all it had to give, I've said farewell too. Everything ends and begins again, wouldn't you agree?
Very well said my friend. I quit drinking years ago, still have one every once in a great while. But yeah when I look at like this you are absolutely correct.
-------------------- Just remember keep the camera rolling and FILM THE POLICE!!! CLICK ME WHO'S SIDE ARE YOU ON? CLICK ME TOO! Let it go and you will trip into wonderland!
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LunarEclipse
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Mary tells me you made her anxious too. She's happier with me, and doesn't want you back.
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TrippieHunter
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Re: A good bye letter to Mary Jane [Re: LunarEclipse] 1
#21765628 - 06/05/15 12:04 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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You know posting in this section I would of thought there would be more people accepting to what I am doing, ehh guess not.
-------------------- Just remember keep the camera rolling and FILM THE POLICE!!! CLICK ME WHO'S SIDE ARE YOU ON? CLICK ME TOO! Let it go and you will trip into wonderland!
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Bigjonbrews
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I feel you brotha I'm on the same direct path as you are trying to reach. It's a tough fight to go through with after being a heavy smoker for such a long time. But it's just about pushing through and trying to reach your goals in life. The herb has made me very complacent most of the time and it's the reason I'm really trying to give it up. It's the problem and the solution. Keep up the good fight and stick to your guns. Good vibes. Cheers brotha
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Re: A good bye letter to Mary Jane [Re: Bigjonbrews]
#21765795 - 06/05/15 12:46 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Major props Keanu. It is very hard to be honest with yourself, and don't let the haters bring you down. You are stronger than your addictions.
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Re: A good bye letter to Mary Jane [Re: ikku]
#21766498 - 06/05/15 03:58 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Way to go. It ain't that easy to part ways with Maryjane. I feel personally that Cannabis does not have much use in one's life if one is not using it as medication - and when used in that manner it is best juiced or applied topically anyway ... I stopped using this year because it was messing with my discipline - but I was disciplined enough to stop. I even didn't get a joke about weed arleady because it seems to be far removed from my mind. The last time I didn't want to smoke this much was before I ever started. It was useful. I can see the appeal of meditating with it - but even that ran out. Besides , tryptamines and other things seem to work much stronger in that regard. There is some kind of inhibiting limit to cannabinoids as trip and meditation aids for me - took me a while to discover that aspect.
I think She loves you and will miss you as well . Probably wishes you a fun journey
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LunarEclipse
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Quote:
TrippieHunter said: You know posting in this section I would of thought there would be more people accepting to what I am doing, ehh guess not.
Maybe your love letter threw me off.
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TrippieHunter
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Re: A good bye letter to Mary Jane [Re: LunarEclipse]
#21767345 - 06/05/15 07:35 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I was trying a new approach to quitting a substance. Never have I quit something that I felt so dear about.
-------------------- Just remember keep the camera rolling and FILM THE POLICE!!! CLICK ME WHO'S SIDE ARE YOU ON? CLICK ME TOO! Let it go and you will trip into wonderland!
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Re: A good bye letter to Mary Jane [Re: TrippieHunter] 1
#21770401 - 06/06/15 12:55 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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LunarEclipse
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Re: A good bye letter to Mary Jane [Re: Asante]
#21772988 - 06/07/15 06:38 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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"There's more than one way to drown your sorrows..." - TP
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