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OfflineJustForToday
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Step 10 * 1
    #21754210 - 06/02/15 06:41 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

Hi shroomery. My name is Shane, and i'm a grateful recovery alcoholic.

Well.. I'm looking over my actions this past 14 months since I been sober. And I never thought I would have made as many poor choices as I have without picking up once.

When I came to treatment April 8th of last year. My life completely changed and I was brought up out of a dark place. I never in life thought I would be living here, right now in Southern Florida next to the beach.

I heard this throughout all my journey down here.. Do the right thing, good things will happen. I stayed sober yes, but I caused resentments and wreckage along the way. I'm done putting on this front of who I want you guys to think I am. I want you to know the real me.

I am not selfish. I am not egotistical. I am not inconsiderate. I do things in my daily life that I tell nobody else. Things like doing charity for the homeless. Going to meetings i've never been before to meet newcomers and try to show them a new way of life. Leaving my phone on 24/7 with people calling me in the middle of night needing help out of bad situations.

I am not the guy I portray myself on here to be. And I'M VERY sorry for the things i've said on here. I can't KEEP fucking pissing people off because I don't want my step 9 list to grow any bigger. Shroomery is on my 4th step. Which means it will be on my 9th step.

I'm going to be honest. I was humiliated here a while back. People in OTD posted my picture all over the place when I was already so insecure about myself I wanted to commit suicide. I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror back then. I lived with my parents. I had no money and I lived in a fucking trailer all my life. It hurt me alot.. more than anyone will ever know. I had my sister beating the fuck out of me everyday and my parents telling me if I hit here back, they would kick me out and I would be homeless. Drugs was my escape. I'm still so traumatize by back home that I have nightmares that i'm still there.. I think I cried myself to sleep at least once a week this year.

And I figured if I rubbed how well I doing in, it would hurt you all. Well. It just hurt me. And I've also rubbed it in to people in my real life.. And that messed up more relationships. Money does not fucking matter. I am not happy with money. I am not happy with any woman. And I am not happy because I work out. I'm trying to find happiness from within. I want that peace everyone in the program has. Lord willing I will see those days.

I don't even know what else to say. I'm just tired of fucking being fake. I'm taking everyone off ignore. Again, I'm very sorry and amends will be made. I promise..

(I just sat here for 10 minutes deciding if I should post this. Here goes nothing..)


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InvisibleSheekle
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Re: Step 10 [Re: JustForToday] * 1
    #21754259 - 06/02/15 06:50 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

shrmryhrt


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Offlinezappaisgod
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Re: Step 10 [Re: JustForToday] * 2
    #21754311 - 06/02/15 07:02 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

How about you just stop with the self aggrandizement and confessionals and get on with being a normal human being living his life without making explanations or excuses.  That is my advice to you, Shane.


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Invisiblelarry.fisherman
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Re: Step 10 [Re: JustForToday]
    #21754314 - 06/02/15 07:02 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

I've never held anything against you. I have no idea who people are on here, regardless of whether their presence is positive or not. Just be honest with me and I won't give a shit if you're trolling, if you're having a bad day, whatever. If people are on here they should either be real or be having a laugh. I try for both.

If you want honesty, I appreciate more the posters who are harsh assholes or straight up trolling because I see so much fake shit in life that it's easy to not take positivity for face value. Anyone who comes in here on a regular basis and is always a ball of sunshine is trying too hard or they're putting up a front. Not that anyone can't be nice all the time, but we're all just human.

Anyway, don't take life so seriously.


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InvisibleBodhi of Ankou
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Re: Step 10 [Re: larry.fisherman]
    #21754340 - 06/02/15 07:09 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

*cough* sheekle *cough*


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OfflineJustForToday
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Re: Step 10 [Re: Bodhi of Ankou]
    #21754508 - 06/02/15 07:43 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

Quote:

zappaisgod said:
How about you just stop with the self aggrandizement and confessionals and get on with being a normal human being living his life without making explanations or excuses.  That is my advice to you, Shane.




I've been making excuses all my life.


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Offlinezappaisgod
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Re: Step 10 [Re: JustForToday]
    #21754516 - 06/02/15 07:44 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

Step 11.  Take it


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InvisibleAdden
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Re: Step 10 [Re: zappaisgod] * 1
    #21754715 - 06/02/15 08:30 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

Quote:

zappaisgod said:
How about you just stop with the self aggrandizement and confessionals and get on with being a normal human being living his life without making explanations or excuses.  That is my advice to you, Shane.




Same thing I told him the other day.

Honestly Shane, just do your thing, stay sober and continue to improve your mind and body.

I've got ten years on you and things from my childhood haven't gone away and I doubt they will. That's just life. Some people may be able to exit a situation and think nothing of it, others exit horrifying situations and are tormented. The things bothering you likely won't plague you forever but just remember that things will at least get softer.

I liked you as a person here when OTD humiliated you. It wasn't right. You could see it was damaging you. I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I was a victim of both bullying and child abuse growing up and it hurts to see that stuff.

Just be the man you want to be. You've already come so far. And for that, again, many congratulations.

Coming back here and raging probably wasn't the best idea, but by virtue of making this post it's apparent you have the capacity to feel bad for doing bad things.

Keep trucking dude, you know how to reach me.


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Offlineenjoi-more
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Re: Step 10 [Re: zappaisgod]
    #21754731 - 06/02/15 08:34 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

Yeah! Dude, you're awesome.

Stay aware of what's important to you and keep on keeping on


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Re: Step 10 [Re: enjoi-more]
    #21754791 - 06/02/15 08:48 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

Lol at providing a list of the things you don't tell people you do.


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OfflineBitter Cactus
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Re: Step 10 [Re: koods]
    #21754914 - 06/02/15 09:14 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

Haters gonna hate hate hate hate,

shake it off, shake it off!


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OfflineReposadoXochipilli
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Re: Step 10 [Re: JustForToday]
    #21754978 - 06/02/15 09:29 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

after 10 minutes you made the wrong choice


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InvisibleAdden
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Re: Step 10 [Re: ReposadoXochipilli]
    #21755288 - 06/02/15 10:33 PM (8 years, 7 months ago)

LOL


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