|
YelloManSoldier
Psychonaut



Registered: 04/02/15
Posts: 1,132
Loc: Lil Pakistan
Last seen: 5 years, 11 months
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Mr.GuessWork]
#21752186 - 06/02/15 10:54 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
I didn't know they told you they were gonna chop shit off! I would of freaked! Glad you've still got all your extremities.
Belief is what saved your legs. The mind is a powerful thing. You knew all those people were praying for you. You believed it would help so it did. Keep your head straight about those ties you are worried about. My Mom's mind is what help the cancer she died from.
Believe hard enough your toes will survive and they just might.
-------------------- ----------------------------------------- Jack Ü --------------------------------------------
       
Edited by YelloManSoldier (06/02/15 10:55 AM)
|
psychodelia
Not a cop


Registered: 11/29/12
Posts: 2,284
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752197 - 06/02/15 10:59 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Wow... Glad you're okay OP. Honestly I've been sciming the pub and looking at your other thread 'my feet are fucking freezing' and have wondered why it blew up, too lazy to read it. Now it makes sense. Glad you're alive
-------------------- don't be nervous
|
Herbologist
Grrratata



Registered: 05/09/10
Posts: 7,471
Loc: Casa Bonita
Last seen: 3 years, 1 month
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: psychodelia]
#21752233 - 06/02/15 11:08 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Take it easy, dont just be walking around. Let your feet heal before youre trying to do daily activities.
honestly id get some crutches or a temporary wheel chair
-------------------- Shroomery Law: Don't piss off the leftist mods & their friends!
|
TopPmz
<No Title>


Registered: 01/13/13
Posts: 2,615
Loc: FL
Last seen: 1 year, 5 months
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752266 - 06/02/15 11:13 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Wow man, heavy shit. Glad you're alive, and that you still have your legs and feet! I hope you get to keep your toes too.
I'm also glad to read that you're smart enough not to blame the drug(s). Many people in your situation would be like, "fuck DOC/2C-C/Etizolam!", when it should be "be careful with DOC/2C-C/Etizolam or this could happen."
-------------------- "Freedom Isn't Free" is only half correct. True freedom doesn't exist in the society we exist in. What the saying really means is "The Illusion of Freedom Isn't Free"
|
Sham87
mashAllah


Registered: 05/16/11
Posts: 9,818
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752289 - 06/02/15 11:20 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Hey man glad you're ok.
A question or two for you: are you done with your drug use for good or are you going to take a break.
How did this experience affect your relationship with your family?
Glad you're ok.
--------------------
   ...once in a while you get shown the light in the strangest places if you look at it right...
|
passifloracaerulea



Registered: 11/13/10
Posts: 10,485
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752314 - 06/02/15 11:26 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
You had a lot of people praying for you dude! I didn't feel the need to speculate on here until I knew if you lost your feet or not. It's my belief that it was the etizolam that led you to dose so high on DOC. It diminishes the psychological effects of psychedelics, but not the physical side effects. You're one lucky chinchilla!
|
Zombi3
Bella Ciao!!




Registered: 01/11/13
Posts: 27,086
Loc: Bat Country
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: passifloracaerulea] 1
#21752353 - 06/02/15 11:36 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Updated OP with some pics of my feet, faschiotomy wound, and some bruising from IV line after I got most of them out.
To answer a few questions I saw in here.
I do believe it was the etizolam that led me to keep on dosing, all rational thought goes out the window after 5mg or so ime.
I did not have an ego death experience because of the etizolam, I was aiming for a long time of good fun outside skateboarding with friends and seeing fireworks, I wasnt aiming for a lot of mental effects. Thus I used the etizolam to reduce mental effects while keeping the visuals and shit.
This experience has only strenghtened my relationship with my family, especially since I will be living with them at home for the next few months.
-------------------- You’ve Met With A Terrible Fate, Haven’t You?
Click here to enter this weeks Ban Lottery!! In Crust We Trust
|
passifloracaerulea



Registered: 11/13/10
Posts: 10,485
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752374 - 06/02/15 11:44 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Good to hear! My relationship with my mother got to a point of understanding when I almost died(did legally die) from etizolam/alcohol seizures. We get along great now and I don't get the condescending looks and remarks from her anymore. I think she sees that I've been through a shit ton of more hell than she ever expected.
|
Herbologist
Grrratata



Registered: 05/09/10
Posts: 7,471
Loc: Casa Bonita
Last seen: 3 years, 1 month
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: passifloracaerulea]
#21752384 - 06/02/15 11:46 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Fuck thats gnarly.
Its like Mr. Deed's black foot from frost bite. Glad you're doing good now
-------------------- Shroomery Law: Don't piss off the leftist mods & their friends!
|
Zombi3
Bella Ciao!!




Registered: 01/11/13
Posts: 27,086
Loc: Bat Country
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: passifloracaerulea] 1
#21752393 - 06/02/15 11:46 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
My family is just glad im alive and regained faith. Nobody should have to see a loved one in the condition I was in during the first week. I literally had 5-8 IV lines in each arm and couldnt breath without help. I cant imagine what that did to them to see me like that.
-------------------- You’ve Met With A Terrible Fate, Haven’t You?
Click here to enter this weeks Ban Lottery!! In Crust We Trust
|
passifloracaerulea



Registered: 11/13/10
Posts: 10,485
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752399 - 06/02/15 11:48 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Did you have THC in your system?
|
memes
Blessed



Registered: 01/11/05
Posts: 27,785
Loc: In a Tree
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: passifloracaerulea]
#21752419 - 06/02/15 11:53 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
intense story zombi3. glad you're on the uptrend. congrats on rediscovering your fait
~reach out your hand, if your cup is empty if your cup is full, may it be again~
|
Zombi3
Bella Ciao!!




Registered: 01/11/13
Posts: 27,086
Loc: Bat Country
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: passifloracaerulea] 1
#21752426 - 06/02/15 11:55 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Oh ya I smoke weed everyday.
-------------------- You’ve Met With A Terrible Fate, Haven’t You?
Click here to enter this weeks Ban Lottery!! In Crust We Trust
|
Sham87
mashAllah


Registered: 05/16/11
Posts: 9,818
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752438 - 06/02/15 11:58 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Weed helps
--------------------
   ...once in a while you get shown the light in the strangest places if you look at it right...
|
passifloracaerulea



Registered: 11/13/10
Posts: 10,485
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752440 - 06/02/15 11:58 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
My hospital neurologist said that it was most likely(she couldn't say for sure for legal reasons) THC that kept me alive and even from receiving absolutely no brain damage. Gave me a medical card for it too.
|
Zombi3
Bella Ciao!!




Registered: 01/11/13
Posts: 27,086
Loc: Bat Country
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Sham87] 5
#21752444 - 06/02/15 11:59 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
I had my friend bring in drinks spiked with thc tincture for me during the last 5-7 or so days in the hospital to help me sleep lol They were doing daily bloodwork, im sure thatll show up somewhere eventually
-------------------- You’ve Met With A Terrible Fate, Haven’t You?
Click here to enter this weeks Ban Lottery!! In Crust We Trust
|
Asante
Mage


Registered: 02/06/02
Posts: 86,797
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: passifloracaerulea] 5
#21752465 - 06/02/15 12:05 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
I literally exclaimed "Oh God" and "Noooo!" out loud reading this, I was cringing and grimacing the whole time.
What a terrible ordeal to be going through.
You pulled a Ripper and lived. The benzos put you on autopilot and you started gobbling assorted drugs like they were M&Ms, not fully in charge of your faculties. Thats not to get you off the hook for your own actions, but benzos in excess are like that.
If I were you I'd be thinking up a way to repay God for this big favor he did you. You might still lose several toes but you were up to losing both your lower legs. Think of something God would like and do it for him 
I am so very happy to have you back with us, I and I'm sure many others sent you all sorts of good vibes when you went AWOL.
We got you back damn you
Please don't do this again 
...so people don't blame the drugs, of DOC the recommended dosage is roughly 2mg. took 100mg. At some point, something's gotta give. But you know all that, you were just on a benzout at the time.
Good to have you back! CLOSE call.
-------------------- Omnicyclion.org higher knowledge starts here
|
passifloracaerulea



Registered: 11/13/10
Posts: 10,485
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752473 - 06/02/15 12:06 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Awesome! My mother brought me some herb candies I had made the last time I was admitted in icu for valley fever mycosis.
|
Asante
Mage


Registered: 02/06/02
Posts: 86,797
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3]
#21752479 - 06/02/15 12:07 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
Quote:
Zombi3 said: I had my friend bring in drinks spiked with thc tincture for me during the last 5-7 or so days in the hospital to help me sleep lol They were doing daily bloodwork, im sure thatll show up somewhere eventually 
THC is a vasodilator.
-------------------- Omnicyclion.org higher knowledge starts here
|
passifloracaerulea



Registered: 11/13/10
Posts: 10,485
|
Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Asante] 2
#21752500 - 06/02/15 12:11 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
|
|
And probably more beneficial than any of the drugs they were pumping him full of. I'm convinced THC saved his legs.
|
|