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Zombi3
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My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. 28
#21752039 - 06/02/15 10:10 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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This will be a recap of the events as I remember them.
Thursday May 14th: Throughout the day while skateboarding I dosed;
- unknown amounts of etizolam - roughly 200mg allylescaline - roughly 100mg methallylescaline
Friday May 15th: Throughout the day in multiple doses I totalled roughly these amounts while skateboarding and hanging around the house;
- unknown amounts of etizolam - roughly 150mg allylescaline - 30mg 2C-C - roughly 32mg DOC (in 3 doses (8mg, 8mg, and 16mg))
Saturday May 16th: Throughout the day I dosed the following while spending time in the garden and hanging around the house;
- unknown amounts of etizolam - nearly 200mg 2C-C in multiple redoses - roughly 70mg DOC in multiple redoses, averaging 10-15mg per redose
Im not willing to speak of the trip(s) itself because honestly due to massive tolerance and copious intake of benzos it was not an outstanding trip. All of the substances I dosed are very mentally forgiving and no ego death type experience was had. It was very very visually captivating and I had a hell of a good body high for the 3 days. Not once did it feel unsafe and during the 3 days I never noted any uncomfortable body effects. I was having a blast and remember enjoying myself near every minute of it.
Then the worst happened.
Sunday May 17th: I awoke at 9am with extremely cold feet. Not thinking much of it I went about my day. I had all my feeling and no pain in my feet.
By the time 12pm had rolled around I went to make some lunch and noted my feet were still very cold and my toes were starting to hurt a little. After making lunch I sat down to soak my feet in a warm bucket of epsom salt water. This made my feet feel more comfortable yet after nearly an hour of soaking my feet were still very cold and my toes were losing feeling. I had some things to do so I had a nice hot shower during which my feet never warmed up and the pain in my toes had spread to my feet, my toes had also started becoming numb by this point...
At around 2pm I became very worried for my feet as I could not feel my toes except for the insane cold. My feet up to the ankle had pains, and my calfs were becoming sore. I hurried myself to the ER and told them I had probably overdosed the night before and needed to see a doctor immediately. They looked at me funny but sent me through triage pretty quick and I was in to see a doctor by around 4pm.
Now by this point my feet were tingling and very painful, still very cold also. The doctors had failed to find any pulse or blood flow from my knees to my toes. My feet were turning black, blue, and green.
The doctors had never seen anything like this they told me... I was rushed via ambulance to a hospital 1 hour from my home town where a specialist would look at me. Once I arrived I was placed in the intensive care unit because my feet were almost all purple/black by this point and my breathing had become very shallow...
I was hooked immediatly to IV lines and an oxygen mask. I do not know what was in the IV lines.
This was no later than 7pm when a specialist doctor came in to see me. By this point I was in a hospital gown, with a catheter in, hooked up to roughly 5 IV lines, and breathing with assistance of an oxygen mask. I told the doctor I had likely overdosed on a research chmical which caused tremendous vasoconstriction. I directed them to my jeans I had worn in to the ER in which I had written down the chemical formula of the drug I feared caused the bulk of the damage.
DOC - 2,5-dimethoxy-4-chloroamphetamine
They had never heard of this before ever. They literally printed out the wikipedia page...
I was informed that my arteries and veins in my feet had collapsed on themselves. There was absolutely no detectable blood flow from my ankle down and very very little bloodflow from the knee to the ankle.
They werent sure what to do and it was becoming late so I was left in ICU overnight.
Between monday may 18th and tuesday may 19th my feet became exceedingly black from the toe to the ankle and the doctors feared the worst. I was finally convinced to notify my family by this point. After 48 hours of being in the intensive care unit.
My family is very religious and very much against drugs so I was much too embarrassed to call them prior...
By tuesday, I had nearly 15 IV lines in my arms pumping me full of every vasodilator, blood thinner, and whatever else they thought might save my feet. I was in incredible pain. Really starting to fear the worst now the specialist came in and told me nothing in the IV's was working, my veins and arteries were too far collapsed, and it was very unlikely my feet could be saved. By this point my calfs had become very swollen and bruised looking. I was developing compartment syndrome. My legs were filling with blood meant to go to my feet.
On Thursday May 21st, an emergency faschiotomy was performed on both legs to release the pressure and blood buildup. The surgery left me with 4 faschiotomy wounds, 1 on either side of my calf, on both legs. I was put back into ICU and was kept alive via 15 IV lines and an oxygen mask. I was continuously dosed with IV fentanyl for the pain for many days, closer to a week.
On Saturday May 23rd, I awoke in ICU to find my surgeon looking at my legs... He informed me the fashiotomy had not released enough pressure, the blood was continuing to build up, and I was scheduled for amputation of both legs from the knee down. The amputation would take place Monday May 25th at 11am. I cried all day the next two days..
Awaking from my fentanyl induced coma on monday, the day of my amputation. I was more than plesently surprised my the surgeon with good news. Sometime over the previous two days, my veins and arteries had shown improvement, and my amputation was cacelled in favour of increased drug intake to try and once again save my feet.
A miracle too place that night. The next morning I awoke with feeling in my feet and ability to wiggle my toes. The doctors were no word of a lie astounded and told me it didnt seem possible. They could not pinpoint what drug was doing the trick because they had given me over 55 different drugs via IV... They said they literally through the book at me. Dumbfounded how I had managed to improve, they told me my calfs had regained bloodflow almost overnight, and a small pulse was noted in my feet.
Over the next few day I continued to recover at rapid speed, regaining all feeling and perfect bloodflow in my calfs as well as acceptable bloodflow in my feet by Friday May 29th. The doctors literlly told me it was impossible. No amputation would be necessary at this point and I was looking at possible discharge to heal from home. Wow I thought.
I was released on June 1st after having spent 15 days in intensive care. I have months of ongoing physio therapy to help me learn to walk again and also home health care to redress my faschiotomy wounds.
Today, June 2nd, I am walking without asistance or support, though painful to do so. My surgeon said my bloodflow returned so rapidly and so strong that there is a possibility I will not require any amputation, but depending on how I heal, I may lose a few toes on my left foot. A very small price to pay when a week earlier I was scheduled to lose both legs at the knee.
I am very worried I will lose my toes on my left foot, they do not look good. But like I said small price to pay.
The last thing i was told before leaving the hospital was to ount my blessings. The surgeon and doctors had no way to explain my fast recovery, they told me this very very easily could have been fatal and I was truly lucky to be alive. Even more lucky to not be losing my legs.
Now what I didnt mention throughout the report was this; I had 3 full churches praying for me, and I myself had begun praying again. With every indication from the doctors this was indeed a miracle case, because they can not eplain how I kept my body parts let alone survived, my faith in god was restored. I was brought up christian and fell out of faith. I know a lot of us across the boards have little respect for religion, but there is no doubt in my mind this was gods handy work. I should have died, I should have lost my legs, I should have lost my feet. And yet I may walk away from this with nothing but some missing toes.
Modern medicine is great, but the doctors told me, they cant explain how I got better. They themselves called this a mirracle of god.
I should have died, the same size vessels that were effected in my feet, exist in your heart and brain. If they were affected. I would be dead.
Let this be a warning. Irresponsible dosing of research chemicals is very dangerous.
And for those of you wondering, no I do not blame the drug. I blame myself and my heinously shitty self control. This could have been avoided %100.
Thanks for reading shroomery brothers and sisters. Feel free to ask questions and Ill answer as best i can. Sorry for the quality of the report, Im not the best writer.

Heres some fucked up pics,,,
   
Like 6 weeks after discharge:


Like 8 weeks after discharge, fell off by itself lol:


Fashiotomy progress, 6 weeks: This
 To this

8 weeks after accident, just had my toes amputated: Only the two needed to come off, the other 3 will scab off on their own and I won't lose any of those toes! The hole will fill in and create a bit of a new toe pad for me:
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Edited by Zombi3 (07/25/15 01:03 PM)
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Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3] 1
#21752049 - 06/02/15 10:12 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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dude glad to see you back. hopefully you take care of yourself better now, don't wanna see this type of shit happening to such a smart individual.
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#21752054 - 06/02/15 10:14 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3] 1
#21752062 - 06/02/15 10:17 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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i read the whole thing
HXC story
u should make that feet pic ur avatar
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Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Sheekle] 2
#21752070 - 06/02/15 10:20 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I have some feet pics, and some pics of the faschiotomy wounds ill update the op with soon. You guys might find it cool. Hella big wounds. Ill have 4 huge scars for life at very least. Praying daily I can keep my toes...
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Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Sheekle] 2
#21752075 - 06/02/15 10:21 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Holy shit man what a wild ride. I couldn't even fathom going through something that emotionally intense. As far as the religion thing goes, I feel ya. There are a lot of strange events and coincidences that happen to me that make me wonder if someone/something is looking out for me. Glad you're okay though man. Hopefully you'll lay off the drugs for awhile?
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Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3] 4
#21752077 - 06/02/15 10:21 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Was prob all the good shroomey vibes that saved ur feets. Jesus doesnt take drugs
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Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3] 1
#21752081 - 06/02/15 10:22 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Great read, and thanks for sharing.
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#21752100 - 06/02/15 10:26 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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And i just looked up what a fasciotomy wound is.. GODDAMN.
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Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: daytripper05] 1
#21752107 - 06/02/15 10:28 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I literally felt like I could feel god fixing my feet. In less than a week I went from amputation at the knee down to walking without assistance and possibility of not even losing any toes..
Thats a fucking miracle.
The doctors dont even know what did it.
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#21752117 - 06/02/15 10:30 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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yeah man that really is a miracle. you got some shit to do while you're around and it wasn't your time.
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Re: My near death experience - Almost killed myself with irresponsible research chemical dosing. [Re: Zombi3] 3
#21752120 - 06/02/15 10:31 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Was it the etiz that made you dose so irresponsibly? I know that once you start dosing that shit all good decisions take a vacation for the day.
Never taken it but it seems from the reports that smart people go full retard on a benzo binge.
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#21752131 - 06/02/15 10:36 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Glad you're back Zombie. I do believe God not only wants you around for a while....he wants you walking. Don't forget this gift you have received....many people on these boards will try to convince you otherwise. They will say..."It was the Doctors that saved you" And...this is very true, but, they had some divine guidance.God works through people.
LOL...anyway, that's it for me.Off my stump...
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#21752139 - 06/02/15 10:38 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Glad you're OK but I wouldn't go getting all religious.
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#21752146 - 06/02/15 10:40 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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That's why only lab rats should take RCs. You can't even really call that luck since nobody has any idea about how all that shit works by itself, let alone how it all interacts in the body. Somebody is definitely going to get a publication out of this.
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#21752154 - 06/02/15 10:43 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Wow. I'm glad you pulled through bro. I'm sure that was scary as fuck. I wish you the best man.
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#21752157 - 06/02/15 10:44 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Zombi3... I haven't interacted with you too much on here but know that I too have been following your story closely. It always affects me when a member here goes through something physically or mentally challenging. It feels like you pretty much get a live report from being here. It feels somewhat close to home. So, I have been thinking about you and while I do not pray, I did wish for your good recovery.
All in all, very glad to hear that miracles do still exist and that you were on the receiving end of one!
Your story raises two questions for me... I hope you don't mind me being direct and just throwing them at you.
First, I am amazed to read that the ridiculous amounts of DOC didn't do much in terms of mental effects. Or affecting the ego, like you said. Do you think that would be because of the Etizolam? Tolerance from prior use? Both?
Secondly, if it didn't have the ego affecting effects, what did you get out of the use? Something must have driven you to push it like you did? How did it make you feel?
I'll keep thinking of you and hope you can have another small miracle regarding the potential toe loss. Take care of yourself and thanks for sharing!
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#21752167 - 06/02/15 10:48 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Praise God, Zombie! From a fellow believer.
He's in the business of forgiveness.
Glad to hear you're well. Hope you spreads the word on why people shouldn't you with such a strong benzo.
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#21752182 - 06/02/15 10:53 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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very happy to hear you're doing so well after such a potentially awful situation zombi3! i wish you all the best with your recovery, and i hope you don't lose any toes!
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