Story of my first mushroom trip yesterday. Was..weird.
Ive been waiting to eat psilocybin mushrooms for about 4 years so the excitement within me welled when i picked about 15 mushrooms from the cake and weighed them. 20.3g fresh, what i thought would be a mild trip. To give some background about me, i like to see how deep rabbit the hole goes with psychs and originally i was going to eat 4g of shrooms my first time, but i thought 20g fresh would be a bubbly psychadelic high to start me off slow, and it was, but it wasnt.
I ate the mushroom clusters at 12pm, washed down with lemonade and laid down. I could feel the effects within 10min, i was already high from weed but mushrooms had a very distinct, lethargic, electric body buzz for me. The next hour not much happening except some random waves of feel good until i go to the bathroom.
I step in the bathroom and it was the funniest thing ever. I began laughing at nothing and overall just having a good time looking at my reflection. At some point here i decidedtrutside, it had already been in my mind before but for some reason I needed to go, now. I started getting dressed and i must have ran up and down the stairs literally 20 times because i was so disorganized. By the point i was ready to leave at 2pm i was already in a crazy zone. At some point here i was talking to people who werent there thanking them for the water i had. I KNEW they werent there, but they were there.
I leave the house sweating profusely walking faster than i ever have. Im usually a very fast walker in general but this was just, wtf. I could tell i looked insane, people were staring me down the entire time i walked, giving me double looks and moving to the other side of the street. I dont know why i was doing this and at some points i would consciously try to calm my body/mind but couldnt.
I finally make it to the woods and by now everything is just a psychadelic blur. Everything blended in with one another by being connected by hundreds of multicolored, although mostly blue and yellow, lines and waves. The sweating, with no food, and my heart beat going crazy from moving so fast, made me disoriented. Bugs were flying around me like mad and i thought they were bees, it felt like i was getting stung EVERYWHERE (no actual stings). I run and at this point i see a gate (i dont think a real gate now but i dont know..) and it was very weird, imagine a shimmering chain link fence with huge honeycomb shaped openings instead of the usual chain link ones.
I kept seeing what looked like signs on the fence that said "toxic" and "danger", i didnt actually read any signs word, they were blurry to say the least.. but the feelings i got from the signs were of toxic and danger if that makes sense. I just needed to get out of there asap. I felt lost even though i was ~100ft from where i came in.
I made it out the woods and begin to calm down, i begin walking home and got lost every 30 seconds. Frequently turning around only to turn back around to the original way a few seconds later. I saw a lady, obviously strung out with her kids playing nearby and it made me incredibly sad. I had millions of thoughts of helping different kids all around the world in these situations in what felt like 3 seconds.
I get home and am relieved, i go to hop in the shower and begin to calm down. Its about 3pm and at this point i no longer felt "crazy", just tripping. I hopped in the shower and everything looked yellow while i felt like i shrunk down 2 ft. I also felt like i had literally no body hair for some reason. I knew it was there but my skin was so smooth it was like my hair wasnt. It was actually very weird.
After the shower i went upstairs and things started to calm down. Still going fairly strong but very manageable and enjoyable. The difficult hour or so left me in a state of blissful trance where i examined the crevices of my life. At about 5pm i was feeling semi normal and i went to a buddies house to smoke and chill and end the night.
Overall, i liked it. I dont think that difficult hour is what full blown schitzophrenia would be like, but i sure did not look/feel/act like i was sane in anyway. But like i said, it was very enjoyable and i will for sure experience again in the future. Maybe next time laying in my hammock cloud watching instead of running outside lol
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