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Coincidentiaoppositorum
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In 2012 I smoked DMT for the first time, so by pure coincidence, at least for me, it appeared that the Mayan calender was leading up to my own personal transformation, I experianced death, and had to come to terms with it, I was lost at the foot of a foggy mountian and overcome with an intense feeling of dejavu, there was no time, I'm not sure if I had a body, I had what I perceived as arms, I felt like a lost child....then a giant mantoid plunged its claws into my guts and chest, he removed all my inner organs, I was going into shock....then he showed me this beautiful geometrically morphing coloured jewel like object, I felt this object was alive, then the mantiod replaced all my inner organs with billions of these objects....then white light.....I was being pushed through a membrane, (I interpreted this as being born) and came out back in my old life, but still knowing I experianced death, dismemberment, resurection and rebirth.....
In reality I took 250mgs DMT crystals on top of high grade marijuana in a single hit, the people there said I curled up in a ball and began to cry for 15 minutes....
As far as I was concerned the entire universe was destroyed with me....
I listened to the 2012 folks say we were going to hit a singulairity and be transformed on this date....well for me that's exactly what happened....what a fucked up piece of singularity to put into my existance, that for my life-stream the mayans and mckenna were right....this calender and new age movement was predicting my departure from earth and rebirth....my birthday is 12/12 so I saw the new age movement hold celebrations starting on my birthday and ending with my DMT experiance 12/12/12.....for me it all fit together so perfectly...
Please spare me the deleusions of granduer diagnosis, I'm aware how this must sound to other people, but it was the single most signifigant experiance of my life....
I know for the rest of the world 2012 was a disappointment, be for me everything happened exactly as it was suposed to....
Plus 3 days before that experiance I had a UFO experiance, I saw two copper/golden coloured spheres hoovering over a valley a few miles in the distance, I was on a balcony on the 6th floor of an appartment building, and had a beautiful view for miles across the landscape, it was 7am or around 7 am and the sun was just comming up in the east, the reflection off the metal these things were made of was what first caught my eye, I sat there and watched them for 20 minutes or so trying to decide what they were l...were they balloons? At 7am near Denver? I doubt it...they were way too big anyway....they were spheres so that rules out planes, they were metallic, copper coloured like a shiney penny, so that rules out animals such as geese or birds, they just hoovered there motionless, side by side, they were an equal distance from one another, about the distance that the ships were wide....I went in to get my phone to take pictures...when I returned they were gone.....I don't know what they were, but they put me in a strange headspace for the 3 days until the DMT experiance....
Ive smoked DMT several times since, but nothing can compare to what happened to me in 2012....
-E. Borodin
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Khancious
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What do you see these days, geometric pacifiers and spongebobs?
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Re: Shmita About To Hit The Fan [Re: Khancious]
#21740008 - 05/30/15 07:27 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Shmita 2015. Coming to a town near you this September.
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Coincidentiaoppositorum
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Khancious said: What do you see these days, geometric pacifiers and spongebobs?
I see a world in the process of change, our capitalist industrialist ways are no longer sustainable, I see the end of the old world already in decay.
I know its impossible for the younger generation to understand what I'm talking about, give it some time, its only with advanced understanding of human history that you will be able to see what I see, the rosey dawn is already cracking on the horizon....they say those who forget history are doomed to repeat it, even those who do not forget history are doomed to repeat it, time is cyclical.
When you listen to what I'm telling you, keep in mind that you have no idea, none better than mine, everything you accept as reality is just as false if not more than my subjective experiances explaining my reality.....and it is my reality, your oppinions of my personal experiance mean nothing, you could have looked for wisdom in the experiances of others, instead of letting your egotistical tendencies over-ride your ability to learn.
Shamanic initiation, that's what happened, my curandero friend tells me something similar happened to him on his first journey, only he was dismembered by jaguars before rebirth, my experiance is not crazy or abnormal in any way, it happens to all of the selected.
I listen to others psychedelic and synchoronistic experiances with an open mind, who are you to tell them their personal experiances are invalid? How arrogant can you be? Had I never shared these experiances with my curandero he never would have initiated me into the practice.
....if you read a persons DMT experiances and are unable to get anything out of it, its best just to understand that what we are experiancing is beyond your cognitive sphere, and to simply ignore them, if you don't get it, than it was not meant for you.
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Khancious
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Kool, I appreciate your dedication to understanding what is.
How have you implemented your visions in your daily life? How do you prolong survival and longevity and maintain self-suficiency? How do you enlighten others besides advocating substance use to expand into higher neural dimensions, or is this the only way?
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Ive smoked DMT several times since, but nothing can compare to what happened to me in 2012....
yeah first experiences will do that. They will tend to be more powerful and memorable than the rest, and I'm not even sure there's anything physiological to that. How can someone have a new experience again, and how can we be blank slate? The first trips often imprint us with so the speak with what the drug will be like to some degree as an experiencefor the rest of use, and in the cases that it is a really good trip it often subconsciously waste energy on future trips trying to recreate the previous experience.
Stuff happened in 2012, the year before and year after. I used to think certain years seemed important, but then so did the next, and so did the next. It eventually occurs that if one simply framed the picture differently then it will be a different experience. Perspective is powerful and malleable. Mold wisely.
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Khancious
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Last seen 1.5 hours ago and totally avoided my questions (2 posts up)
Must be just an ego feed thread
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Khancious said: Last seen 1.5 hours ago and totally avoided my questions (2 posts up)
Must be just an ego feed thread
OP please address this. I feel these are important questions.
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I remember a few years ago there was this whole event, I think the 11/11/11 thing? Where someone's hidden secret was supposed to be opened like a vault and change reality. By happenstance I took some acid then, and it was after a night at work where, you know those tenth anniversary Tickle Me Elmos? Well a case of them quietly came in and I was instructed to make a spot on the shelf and put them there, and after my shift I went and bought one for my girlfriend and one for a co-worker who had a kid... so I took the acid and the combination of the mysterious Tickle Me Elmo sneaking in like that, coupled with everything on the Shroomery about the date, it all turned into this epic thing where reality actually broke, that something which had been hidden for 11,000 years or something finally released and completely changed everything.
Personally I wonder if our being is actually like fifteen feet tall, insomuch that everything we know about this life is just the base of the pyramid, and concurrently we're walking around with our spiritual heads bouncing around in higher dimensions, with all kinds of energy loops that spiral around between these levels. But these are all just my subjective musings, but acid certainly does seem to put me in touch with some sort of cosmic alien intelligence which grinds away at my bones and promises to lay out the plastic sheets on my desk and vivisect me in some form of quest for the reality of life.
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We are wrenched into this existence without explaination or answers, we don't remember our birth, the stream of consciousness seems to "turn on" around 3 years of age, the whole time everything seems to be focused on you, your the center of what ever is going on here, you have your own ability to precieve the world as an individual, you feel, see, hear, smell the world as an individual, you have a never ending stream of thoughts running through your stream of consciousness, you are the first hand observer.
Without observers existance becomes very tricky, there's been a balance between the creator, whats been created, and the observer.
The ultra-synchronistic forces that govern existance for those exploring the mercurial edge of reality will let themselves be known to those in their grasp, they cause the impossible to occor right before your eyes to leave you standing there dumbstruck with your jaw hanging open, your human mind in a struggle to piece it all together....
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Coincidentiaoppositorum
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First I saw the UFOs, two copper coloured spheres, I was sober, it was morning, Quote:
Khancious said: Kool, I appreciate your dedication to understanding what is.
How have you implemented your visions in your daily life? How do you prolong survival and longevity and maintain self-suficiency? How do you enlighten others besides advocating substance use to expand into higher neural dimensions, or is this the only way?
I find waves of novelty (waves of novel Tao), and let them guide me, and don't know enough about this situation to even begin to think I could enlighten another, I'm trying to understand the situation the best that I can, and I react accordingly, though I promote selflessness, peace, love, and compassion for all sentient beings, I understand the limits of my control over existance, I understand that there are very few things that are in your control, and the things that are in your control are all related to mind. I only react to the situations existence presents me with, because this is all you can really control, how you react to the situations pressed on you by the outter world. I don't act or try to make things happen, I simply flow along my wave of Tao, and react in the proper manor.
Buddha once said "1000 people, 1000 paths" so I don't tell others "this is the only way" though should another ask "what can you show me?" I would gladly initiate them to entheogenic shamanic traditions of inner-space exploration.
When it comes to my daily life I exist on the mercurial edge of reality, and being a private and reclusive person id rather not get into it...but I can tell you that I am genuinely happy, and so are those that I allow into my existance. Its not a supperficial happieness such that comes from obtaining possessions or money or getting a promotion at a 9 to 5, its timeless, genuine, and true happiness.
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I approve of this thread, great read.
Having had those experiences it can be easy to look at people around you and feel above them in conciseness understanding. I try not to encourage these thoughts and instead display myself as the person those experiences have shaped me as.
Though haven't blasted off like OP yet
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Coincidentiaoppositorum
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The outter world was just as disturbing as the inner world leading up to my experiance, there were many strings of impossible coincidences that nobody could explain, there's was the appearence of the UFO's 3 days before I smoked DMT, EVERYTHING in the outter world reflected what was about to happen to the inner-world, the outter world had been throwing it in my face in glorious fashion....
I'm aware of delusions of granduer and other mental disorders which place you in the center of all existance, this however, was something of another class, its not that i feel superior to other conscious beings, its just that my veiws are being generated from a much more exalted position, my range of consciousness has been vastly expanded....time to put on my scientist hat: the brain takes in something like 14 billion signals per second, all signals entering the brain do so via the thalamus (except smell), the thalamus then filters out the majority of the signals as they are not essential for survival and sends the most important signals to the cortex regions to be processed, the link between this lower informational brain (thalamus) and the higher processing brain (cortex regions) are the 5ht2c and 5ht2c receptors, when you agonize these receptors with certain psychedelics it shuts-down the filtering mechanisms of the thalamus, so you go from getting a very small slice of consciousness, to getting it all, its almost just as Huxley had said when talking about his consciousness valve.....for these reasons my reality is MUCH larger than some of these other beings, I'm not "better" than them, I just feel I'm aware of more of existance than they are thus giving me a larger picture and understanding of what existance actually is.
-E. Borodin
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