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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: memes]
#21740684 - 05/30/15 11:19 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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memes said: take small doses of ecastasy before you go out 
ahah yeah it does make you more frisky.
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21740703 - 05/30/15 11:29 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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sorry guys i didnt mean to waste anyones time, i just have been isolated for months cuz of this job and now its fucking with my head and making me feel like i have problems with myself that i dont actually have.
Im naturally an introverted person but i get to talk to women usually because i am introduced by a friend.
I dont see how interacting with strangers by yourself can go well at all.
i just need to have access to my friends and its been very very long since ive had any contact with them so im basically fucking delusional right now.
sorry guys.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21740729 - 05/30/15 11:39 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quit making excuses and fix your issue.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21740738 - 05/30/15 11:44 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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SleepyE said: This is probably my biggest dream ever, having someone to hold on to especially when you feel alone.
I think a lot people take for granted what a blessing it is to have access to something like that.
personally i have no clue what that must be like, the idea is completely alien to me. I have only ever experienced myself. I guess i must have some mental problems or something because my ability to connect with people is almost non existent so i have spent the majority of my life in isolation pretty much. Which is fine i guess, gave me time to develop hobbies and whatnot but unfortunately it becomes damaging on the mind i think after a certain point.
I feel my isolation slowly deteriorating me mentally and there is not much i can do about it (shitty work hours, very limited access to people and my friends are only available when im working) I find my completely snapping at the must minor shit, and weeping to myself multiple times a day.
Its odd, i was able to get by on this isolation when i was younger and it didnt really affect my ability to function but now its making the most mundane tasks such a burden and struggle.
I guess this i could handle but i also have a lot of traumatic memories from my psychosis that replay in my head while im at work and its just horrible.
I keep hope that the experience of not feeling alone will come into my life but i just kinda think that im not capable of obtaining and maintaining something like that partly because of the damage this intense isolation and how its pretty much made my unstable and i just dont have the energy to try to keep this shit stable anymore.
i wish i wasnt alone all the time really hurts... a lot.
like really bad.
I'm in the same situation as you my friend. Though I haven't broken down about it, only recently have I been noticing by subconscious is in pain, it's struggling. I'm losing motivation and beginning to have a hard time doing things.
I'm also young and good looking. It's so hard to find people very unique, with in depth hobbies, beliefs, ways. I'm trying to find someone now, only since a week or two. Start trying. Change your habits to allow the possibility for someone to enter your life, and hopefully someone will.
Hold onto your sanity. And try and change what's wrong.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: MajickMuffin] 1
#21740814 - 05/30/15 12:04 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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All jokes aside, when I see somebody like you, I recommend you get yourself a therapist and begin to do real, hard work. For years if necessary. You aren't going to "get up off the computer" to go solve this. Good luck. If you ever have questions about therapy you can PM me I've been in it for 8 years and while I'm not fixed, it's made a world of difference.
My REAL advice.
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: MajickMuffin]
#21741008 - 05/30/15 01:01 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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MajickMuffin said:
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SleepyE said: This is probably my biggest dream ever, having someone to hold on to especially when you feel alone.
I think a lot people take for granted what a blessing it is to have access to something like that.
personally i have no clue what that must be like, the idea is completely alien to me. I have only ever experienced myself. I guess i must have some mental problems or something because my ability to connect with people is almost non existent so i have spent the majority of my life in isolation pretty much. Which is fine i guess, gave me time to develop hobbies and whatnot but unfortunately it becomes damaging on the mind i think after a certain point.
I feel my isolation slowly deteriorating me mentally and there is not much i can do about it (shitty work hours, very limited access to people and my friends are only available when im working) I find my completely snapping at the must minor shit, and weeping to myself multiple times a day.
Its odd, i was able to get by on this isolation when i was younger and it didnt really affect my ability to function but now its making the most mundane tasks such a burden and struggle.
I guess this i could handle but i also have a lot of traumatic memories from my psychosis that replay in my head while im at work and its just horrible.
I keep hope that the experience of not feeling alone will come into my life but i just kinda think that im not capable of obtaining and maintaining something like that partly because of the damage this intense isolation and how its pretty much made my unstable and i just dont have the energy to try to keep this shit stable anymore.
i wish i wasnt alone all the time really hurts... a lot.
like really bad.
I'm in the same situation as you my friend. Though I haven't broken down about it, only recently have I been noticing by subconscious is in pain, it's struggling. I'm losing motivation and beginning to have a hard time doing things.
I'm also young and good looking. It's so hard to find people very unique, with in depth hobbies, beliefs, ways. I'm trying to find someone now, only since a week or two. Start trying. Change your habits to allow the possibility for someone to enter your life, and hopefully someone will.
Hold onto your sanity. And try and change what's wrong.
Thank you for your advice, glad to see im not the only one.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21741126 - 05/30/15 01:37 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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SleepyE said: This is probably my biggest dream ever, having someone to hold on to especially when you feel alone.
I think a lot people take for granted what a blessing it is to have access to something like that.
personally i have no clue what that must be like, the idea is completely alien to me. I have only ever experienced myself. I guess i must have some mental problems or something because my ability to connect with people is almost non existent so i have spent the majority of my life in isolation pretty much. Which is fine i guess, gave me time to develop hobbies and whatnot but unfortunately it becomes damaging on the mind i think after a certain point.
I feel my isolation slowly deteriorating me mentally and there is not much i can do about it (shitty work hours, very limited access to people and my friends are only available when im working) I find my completely snapping at the must minor shit, and weeping to myself multiple times a day.
Its odd, i was able to get by on this isolation when i was younger and it didnt really affect my ability to function but now its making the most mundane tasks such a burden and struggle.
I guess this i could handle but i also have a lot of traumatic memories from my psychosis that replay in my head while im at work and its just horrible.
I keep hope that the experience of not feeling alone will come into my life but i just kinda think that im not capable of obtaining and maintaining something like that partly because of the damage this intense isolation and how its pretty much made my unstable and i just dont have the energy to try to keep this shit stable anymore.
i wish i wasnt alone all the time really hurts... a lot.
like really bad.
I guess I'm pretty much like you in some way. I've only had one serious girlfriend for like 14 months. The first 4 were date nights/see each other 3 or 4 times a week. The next 7 she was off to school so it was long distance and the last 3 she lived with me and I flipped the fuck out and broke up with her. I could only tolerate her in small doses. I thought that I could "fall in love". Never happened.
Since then its been sex only. I can't deal with the constant presence. I can't deal with the fact that if I get a girlfriend its an ongoing, thing with no 2 weeks vacation or whatever. It's a 24 hours thing. I can't do it.
Basically, at the rate I'm going, it's been 6 years since the girlfriend and odds are its gonna be another 60 before the next...
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: Patlal]
#21741134 - 05/30/15 01:41 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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That's not that weird Pat. To a lot of guys, getting girls is a young man's game. I couldn't count how many guys I know who have been there, done that, and aren't looking back. I love my girlfriend and plan on spending the rest of my life with her, more than happily. That being said though, if the unthinkable were to happen and it ended, I probably wouldn't actively look for a relationship again.
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: larry.fisherman]
#21741180 - 05/30/15 01:54 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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i might be able to go out tonight to a bar where there is this amateur rap show, a friend was hosting it and another buddy told me it was live so who knows. im just going to go and start talking to women. Im at the point where rejection probably wouldnt add too much to my anxiety.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21741241 - 05/30/15 02:13 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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SleepyE said: i just had a mental breakdown, ended up punching my door on in my room and now the hinge is broken and there is a hole in the wall and im bleeding.
I think im going to call me work and tell them i quit. i cant handle one more moment of isolation, I cant stop crying. i just want a hug from someone.
Dude, ive been living I na rural area with no car for about 4 years
Only a handful of days I hung out with anyone I actually cared about, and now they all lefted my life over BS reasons,
I am very alone, I never punched walls though, sometimes felt like it though I finally will be getting out of my shitty situation sometime this summer, I have money saved up etc
Having a friend, who really deep down is your friend, and it connected to you at the soul is one of the best feelings ever
I truly love bonding with someone in such a intimate way, mentally and physiccly
Rarely youlle get someone who speakes to you and makes ya happy
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SunnyD]
#21741250 - 05/30/15 02:16 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Whenever I get the feelings of utter hopelessness and loneliness, and I don't have any friends to hang out with in reality, I just hop onto an online game, plug in my microphone and make a new friend.
I have multiple friends I met online that I've flew/drove out to hang out with.
I've known one kid for like 6 or 7 years, too, and we met playing counterstrike together, and I'd definitely consider him one of my best friends.
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SunnyD
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: Psychonautica]
#21741259 - 05/30/15 02:19 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Psychonautica said: Whenever I get the feelings of utter hopelessness and loneliness, and I don't have any friends to hang out with in reality, I just hop onto an online game, plug in my microphone and make a new friend.
I have multiple friends I met online that I've flew/drove out to hang out with.
I've known one kid for like 6 or 7 years, too, and we met playing counterstrike together, and I'd definitely consider him one of my best friends.
I got some xbox live friends, they were the only people I talked to years ago
there is still this kid around 13ish Hes much more mature than most kids that age, so hes kinda like a son I never had  but hes a cool kid
And virtual communication only helps so much
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SunnyD]
#21741280 - 05/30/15 02:25 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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i just want to be around real people, none of my friends are available today WTF.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21741291 - 05/30/15 02:29 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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SleepyE said: i just want to be around real people, none of my friends are available today WTF.
Yo uwanna hear about a BS story about my friend
Doesn't surprise nor do I really care about this guy even tho hes been my only rl friend for years
He said he was coming to my bb sis graduation He called me in the middle of it, telling me where it is, hes lost? LOL why would you go to it if you didn't know where it was
then I get a text 15mins later saying he cant come, cause his mom said come home for lunch

Then we was talking like a hr ago, hes hanging out with his gf
Now this stuff don't bother me anymore, I learn yo ugotta depend on yourself
even when your surround by idiots atm
 theylle cum one day
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21741316 - 05/30/15 02:38 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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SleepyE said:
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memes said: take small doses of ecastasy before you go out 
ahah yeah it does make you more frisky.
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SunnyD
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: luvdemboomers]
#21741352 - 05/30/15 02:49 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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luvdemboomers said:
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SleepyE said:
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memes said: take small doses of ecastasy before you go out 
ahah yeah it does make you more frisky.

I aint never been so frisky in my lifffe..
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SunnyD]
#21741665 - 05/30/15 04:12 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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One of my friends called me back, sweet okay this is going down, same bar but bands are playing, perfect
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21742156 - 05/30/15 06:37 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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yeeeaayy im going out soon, my buddy is picking me up.
seems like the universe is answering my call for help, although it cost my job but fuck it, those jobs are a dime a dozen, il just pound the pavement like crazy and find a new gig as fast as i did this one
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21742185 - 05/30/15 06:43 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Hey buddy check your PMs. Go chug a few beers to get loose, no one likes a sober sally
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: The Doobie Dude]
#21742208 - 05/30/15 06:50 PM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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u kno it, thanks!
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