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Webster10
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21740029 - 05/30/15 07:43 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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It's nice having someone to talk to all of the time and to share memories and experiences with. The sex part is great too. The drama though,
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: Webster10] 1
#21740194 - 05/30/15 08:52 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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No offense...but you sound like you're not ready for a longterm relationship. You're not happy with yourself
Trust me, i'm not happy with myself and my longterm girlfriend has to suffer for it. Same with me from her monotonous life. Love sucks, don't bother yet. Improve yourself, be happy,
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: Webster10]
#21740204 - 05/30/15 08:55 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Bah i jus dont want to be alone anymore, and i just have terrible memories from my psychosis that haunt me because i guess i hallucinated that i got sent messages that someone i really liked was interested in me and i acted on these hallucinations and then this person said awful things to me and treated me like shit and those memories just keep replaying in my mind. It really ruins my self confidence.
The problem is this person baited me by sending text validating my delusions like "i love you" then said i didnt send that.
I was just trying to figure out what was going on and i was scared then this person called me a "horrible creepy stalker".
I cant convince this person that that wasnt me because some unfortunate stuff was happening to me and i couldnt tell reality apart from my delusions. I was having facebook conversations with people that didnt exist. It was like a datura trip or something.
Now these memories just haunt me, and this persons hatred towards me really ruins my self confidence. Im a very sensitive person and im not equipt to have that level of negativity directed towards me.
I tried to explain that i wasnt experiencing reality properly and that was not a normal thing for me to do but this person doesnt want to hear it.
I just wish this person didnt validate my delusions to make a fool of me.
I just want these memories and traumas to go away. I just want someone to hold on to so im not constantly raped by these thoughts and i can jusr have a moment of peace being loved by someone
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21740331 - 05/30/15 09:40 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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I just need someones company to help keep these memories away because it is constantly replaying in my mind because im always just alone with my thoughts. I keep praying to a god to give an opportunuty to find someone and instead i get a big fuck you and am placed in solitady confinment where its only these bad memories that replay. This is torture, i just need someones help 
I dont want to feel like killing myself just to escape this constant and sharp pain, its hurting so badly, honestly the isolation wouldnt be so bad if i didnt have these memories raping my mind. I just want it to stop, i just want to hug someone.
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ModestMouse
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21740512 - 05/30/15 10:29 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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It's great but only in the small chance she's worth a damn.
Anyone can have a "significant other", but finding the right one is a serious challenge for most people
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21740515 - 05/30/15 10:29 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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i just had a mental breakdown, ended up punching my door on in my room and now the hinge is broken and there is a hole in the wall and im bleeding.
I think im going to call me work and tell them i quit. i cant handle one more moment of isolation, I cant stop crying. i just want a hug from someone.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21740544 - 05/30/15 10:38 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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It's really not healthy to sit in isolation for long periods of time. Idle time with crazy thoughts will make things worse.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: Astral Pain]
#21740561 - 05/30/15 10:41 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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From what I've experienced, it's unconditional trust for another person. This gives a feeling of peace, security, etc.
What I'm starting to think is, this might be easily replaced with a notebook, and I might enjoy that more tbh.
Edited by Ganga Lova (05/30/15 10:44 AM)
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ModestMouse
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: Ganga Lova] 1
#21740569 - 05/30/15 10:44 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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A significant other doesnt imply unconditional love, just a romantic and meaningful relationship of some sort.
There's a gap between those two things.
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: ModestMouse]
#21740621 - 05/30/15 11:00 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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my mom called my work and told them i cant make it in,
i cant work this job anymore, i have a job interview at 2 with i place that may or may not give me a better shedule
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21740636 - 05/30/15 11:04 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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i get today off, hopefully i can go out tonight and fix my isolation.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21740647 - 05/30/15 11:07 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
SleepyE said: I just want it to stop, i just want to hug someone.
What shroomerites live near this man?! someone give this man a hug!
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The Doobie Dude


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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21740649 - 05/30/15 11:08 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Go to a bar, get hammered and just keep talking to women.
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: memes]
#21740657 - 05/30/15 11:11 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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i think the universe doesnt feel i deserve such a blessing.
its sucks though because im trying extremely hard to improve myself and made great progress, in crazy good shape now and trying to focus on my hobbies and going to college (hopefully if my loans are sufficient ) but i just feel like no matter what i do its just not good enough and i still deserve loneliness and isolation.
its getting to a boiling point where if it is not fixed i just wont be able to hold myself up anymore.
Im in a crisis.
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The Doobie Dude


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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21740662 - 05/30/15 11:13 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Take the advice we are giving you. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and go talk to women. Do you expect to just have them fall into your lap?
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE] 1
#21740671 - 05/30/15 11:16 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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well get off of the fucking computer and go do something about it. walk to the grocery store, right now.
buy three unrelated things (shaving cream, tortillas, and a lightbulb) and when you get to the checkout counter (doesnt matter what the person looks like or their gender), as them "hey, can you guess what i'm making?"
It'll spark a quick, fun little banter. Then, leave.
Go to another store. talk to someone else.
if you do this daily, throughout your life, you'll start to see patterns. "oh, that's Ray, he's the manager of my corner 7-11" "oh, that's tanisha, she's the manager of my local metro station" "oh, that's tiffany, she's the OTHER metro station manager". the interaction becomes standard, they become 'checkpionts' throughout your day, to help keep you grounded in social interaction.
I even get AMAZING hugs from tanisha, my neighborhood metro lady. she calls me her boyfriend (even though she's older, and married, and 3x my weight).
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ModestMouse
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: The Doobie Dude] 1
#21740672 - 05/30/15 11:17 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Nah, start with men and women. Make friends first. You're not emotionally ready for a relationship unless you're emotionally capable of maintaining friendships.
Plus man, relationships are overrated
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: The Doobie Dude]
#21740673 - 05/30/15 11:17 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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thats not the issue.. i can talk to women fine, its just i have a lot of messed up shit in my head that fucks with my perception of things.
its hard to really explain and not many of you will understand that.
its more i have mental issues that causes me to isolate myself against my will. and i wish i didnt have this issues.
i cant explain to you how traumatic the shits was that happened to me and it effects me in a way that keeps me lonely.
its just on top of this shit i have no opportunity to go out because i have to work, and if i dont work then i cant go out cuz im broke.
ehh nevermind.
I suppose im just panicking because this shits getting overwhelming for me.
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: SleepyE]
#21740679 - 05/30/15 11:18 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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take small doses of ecastasy before you go out
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SleepyE
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Re: Whats it like having a significant other? [Re: ModestMouse]
#21740681 - 05/30/15 11:19 AM (8 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
ModestMouse said: Nah, start with men and women. Make friends first. You're not emotionally ready for a relationship unless you're emotionally capable of maintaining friendships.
Plus man, relationships are overrated
i have friendships but no time for them because of work.
its just this fucking job thats really fucking with me guys, sorry if im complaining.
i dont really have an issue except slavery.
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