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Astral Pain
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Envix]
#21708971 - 05/22/15 02:23 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Envix]
#21708991 - 05/22/15 02:32 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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I once took a massive dose of salvia and discovered I am actually hollow, like a clay pot full of different colored light and various echoes of sound.
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Soulidarity
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Envix]
#21709025 - 05/22/15 02:54 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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I've kind of come to some grim realizations about running in the rat race myself... its pretty lame... there's pretty much no shortcuts and for regular middle class people it entails probably between 20-30 years of work before you can live on easy street and have everything in life...
like I've been saving for about two years now to get a house deposit, will probably be ready in about another year. and that's just to get a 20% deposit on a place so i can secure lower interest rates with flexibility to shop around, and avoid having to pay lenders insurance and other crap.
then i still have to pay back the other remaining 80% plus interest, which by the same projections will probably take about 10-15 years minimum without any hiccups along the way, which there surely will be. my saving grace is that hopefully the property doubles in value over that time period and i make some $$$ out of it.
but that's all just to own my own house.
then add into the mix having kids, raising a family...
it never stops man
prepare your anus because life is going to fuck you right up one way or another
save your money bros. save your money. you may not realise it now, but sooner or later a day is going to come where you aren't going to have enough money to do the shit you need. and you're going to want to rob a bank or something to make ends meet, and wish you hadn't blown god knows how much on all kinds of frivolous shit that does nothing to benefit you in the long term.
s a v e y o u r m o n e y
my life is fake as shit though. i lead some kind of double life: snobby self indulgent arrogant professional by day, word up thug try hard bikie drug addict by night. and i try not to let the two ends meet. i hate pretty much everyone i know and have ruined just about all the relationships in my life. and lately have just been pushed to the limits with stress and anxiety between working and studying. basically resigning myself to the fact that i have to eat shit for most of the week, to come home and rest and regenerate over the weekend to get raped again. and then go eat more shit in the world. for about 15 years minimum.... yay...
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Soulidarity]
#21709045 - 05/22/15 03:06 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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And by the time you get all that resolved, Lord willing, it's time to experience body failure and death 
And that's just if everything goes according to plan, which it won't..
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Soulidarity
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Amanita86]
#21709054 - 05/22/15 03:14 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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fuck it, dude. lets go bowling.
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Astral Pain
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Soulidarity]
#21709094 - 05/22/15 03:41 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Once your thug life night time life starts bleeding into your daytime character, it's the beginning of the end.
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Soulidarity
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Astral Pain]
#21709098 - 05/22/15 03:44 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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it already is/has. there isn't really much of a life in that regard at all i just like to pretend like im some kind of hardass when really it's all tryhard bs
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Astral Pain
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Astral Pain]
#21709102 - 05/22/15 03:52 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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I couldn't imagine having to put on a show during the day for work. I would snap. Construction work will save you from evolving that way. Patience is a must to work with people every day.
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Soulidarity
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Astral Pain]
#21709104 - 05/22/15 03:56 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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physical work would be less strenuous cos i could release my frustrations out in my work. but dude i want to severely injure some of the people i work with no shit. and the shit thing is i can't do anything or i'll be fired instantly. i'm unstoppable though. No Retreat, No Surrender
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Astral Pain]
#21709109 - 05/22/15 04:04 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Astral Pain said: Once your thug life night time life starts bleeding into your daytime character, it's the beginning of the end.
The same can be said for when your daytime persona bleeds into your night time character.
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Astral Pain
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Soulidarity]
#21709116 - 05/22/15 04:12 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Unstoppable....knock on wood.
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Astral Pain]
#21709166 - 05/22/15 05:06 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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I'm happy that its fake. Fuck real shit.
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: OhMrJohnson]
#21711818 - 05/22/15 07:27 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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OhMrJohnson said: Starfire's post reminds me of the last time I took LSD and became extremely confused and egomaniacal
I was literally convinced the Shroomery was just a huge conspiracy which revolved around exposing my hidden secrets and ultimately sealing my fate
i had this experience my first dmt trip and made a thread about it. everyone seemed to agree that it was true
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Envix]
#21712013 - 05/22/15 08:27 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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I have a life plan written down. Several crucial checkpoints. Many minor things along the way.
Of course, up to now, only half has come true and the other half are thing I should have planned for but haven't.
I have my 30s figured out too, I'm 29. Hopefully 25% of it will go according to plan and the other 75% will go better than planned.
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Patlal]
#21712052 - 05/22/15 08:37 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Salomon]
#21712310 - 05/22/15 10:04 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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i tried being real and i tried being fake, of the two i prefer neither.
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Envix]
#21712903 - 05/23/15 02:42 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Envix said: if i were to ask you the question "who are you", you'd run through a list similar to your resume, maybe throw in some personal "experiences", or throw out some labels.
that's not who you are. who you are is a living breathing biological entity programmed specifically to survive in its current environment and conditions.
your "life's story" is a series of mechanisms inching your life one bit further towards oblivion.
to find a satisfactory reason for your existence, your organism programs itself to seek recreation and fulfillment. the search for meaning and all that... is simply a byproduct of knowing of your inevitable demise
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Envix said: if only i could forget this narrative my brain keeps telling me is real.
everything that's needed is right here and now. why is so much time and energy invested in this fantasy that only exists in my head
past and future - swirling like a merry-go-round through my mind day-in and day-out dreams built upon wishful expectations, anxious fears, nostalgic memories and remorseful mistakes
these are all just stories we tell ourselves to give our lives meaning. everything that's real is right here in this moment.
plans are good, goals are good, and learning from the past is good. but why do we invest so much emotion and concentration on these imaginary stories that we make up?
and no, your life is not fake. it is in fact your life's story that is fake.
you as an organism are real. and your interactions with the environment are real. physical and emotional and social dynamics and all that. the meaning you give to things which so influence your emotional dynamics is just built upon language and syntax, which is just a bunch of symbols we made up
fuckin a, righteous!
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: tyrannicalrex]
#21713050 - 05/23/15 05:18 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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if we didn't have the story, we wouldn't have anything. i knew this a long time ago.
the meaning of life: the closest approximation to an actual meaning of life: the story.
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: Envix]
#21713409 - 05/23/15 08:24 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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It used to bother me a lot years ago when I was back in high school now I find it to be something I use to my advantage
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Malcolm_Xtasy
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Re: anyone bothered by the fact that your life is fake? [Re: HalluciNate]
#21713420 - 05/23/15 08:30 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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HalluciNate said:
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Envix said: if i were to ask you the question "who are you", you'd run through a list similar to your resume, maybe throw in some personal "experiences", or throw out some labels.
that's not who you are. who you are is a living breathing biological entity programmed specifically to survive in its current environment and conditions.
your "life's story" is a series of mechanisms inching your life one bit further towards oblivion.
to find a satisfactory reason for your existence, your organism programs itself to seek recreation and fulfillment. the search for meaning and all that... is simply a byproduct of knowing of your inevitable demise
Envix, brother....
Maybe you could learn some practical knowledge of something.
I've had the feeling of learning too much at once before as-well, and from my perspective you could use some experiential knowledge of whatever it is you want.
I moved out of my parent's home and drove 2300 miles to Mt. Shasta alone....
I'm not tooting my own horn, but I'm for sure living it now.
Hahaha....
Life....

 
What are you talking about? He's 100% correct
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