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1234go
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#21697391 - 05/19/15 07:25 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Apologize for being such a shit poster in these forums. It's not a representation of who I am as a person. I'm just at kind of a low point and I'm bored. So I usually just end up replying to the nonsense threads, in a nonsensical fashion.

As time's gone by here, I think back on a lot of my posts and it's kinda embarrassing. I kinda just popped in here one day, with snarky comments and an abrasive attitude. I never took the time to get to know anyone.
I suppose if I really wanna dig deep..my shit posting is a reflection of my inner workings. A shitty mood makes for shitty interaction.
So I'm doing this for a humbling experience. I hope my ass-shit style doesn't linger with anyone too long, I'd like to try and put it behind me. I'm tired of projecting my down and out-ness onto the internet, it's super gay and lame.
Not looking for forgiving acceptance or anything. Just saying....sorry. I was never rude or hostile, that I can think of...just a boring try hard out for +1's. (as much as i hate to admit it) I gotta get a grip.
This goes out to OTD as well, although I won't post it there. I already know how that will go...
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go] 1
#21697395 - 05/19/15 07:26 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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+1
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Beanhead
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go]
#21697416 - 05/19/15 07:35 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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okay then
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: Beanhead]
#21697421 - 05/19/15 07:37 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Can't tell of trolling or..
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1234go
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Not trolling, my post was sincere.
I wouldn't display vulnerable insecurities to strangers for kicks. Serious, I truly feel lame for the way I've acted here.
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go]
#21697437 - 05/19/15 07:48 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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For what it's worth that picture of Han and Lando makes up for all of it.
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1234go
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It's possible I've been subconsciously seeking the embrace displayed by Han & Lando all along.
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go] 1
#21697479 - 05/19/15 08:02 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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You seem pretty cool in the E.G. for what it's worth
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go] 1
#21697483 - 05/19/15 08:02 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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If I could completely erase my account, I would. Right now.
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TheGreenArrow
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go]
#21697489 - 05/19/15 08:04 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Don't we all friend? I figure that's what life is truly all about. That separation simply for the act of reuniting once again.
-------------------- A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, design a building, conn a ship, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve an equation, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.- Robert A. Heinlein Saint RedBow of the Shroomey Loomey-Patron Saint of Sandbaggin Sumbitchs
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1234go
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Quote:
BigHeart said: You seem pretty cool in the E.G. for what it's worth 
Thanks. It's easy to keep cool in there. Here, I succumb to the butthurt and fall into a downward spiral.
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Amanita86 said: If I could completely erase my account, I would. Right now.
"That's a big 10-4"
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go] 3
#21697730 - 05/19/15 10:00 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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1234go said:I kinda just popped in here one day, with snarky comments and an abrasive attitude.
Dude, thats what the internet is for, you show up and become slowly what you alwase were. Make no apologies for who you are, be a totem of static persona - looking back with shame means positive changes are being had, rejoice in your growth, celebrate your enlightenment and love who you are at the moment it occurs to you. Regret makes life worthless and kind of shabby.
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: drege]
#21697742 - 05/19/15 10:03 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Profound shit right there homie..
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go]
#21697807 - 05/19/15 10:13 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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It takes a big man to admit his wrong doings.
jk
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Imagine how great this place would be if all the shitty posters woke up one day and had this revelation (not saying you're a shitty poster, just noting the "I want to treat you guys better" attitude)
welcome back friend
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Amanita86
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*Mark 15:34  Gam zeh ya’avor...
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1234go
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: drege] 1
#21697891 - 05/19/15 10:30 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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drege said:
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1234go said:I kinda just popped in here one day, with snarky comments and an abrasive attitude.
Dude, thats what the internet is for, you show up and become slowly what you alwase were. Make no apologies for who you are, be a totem of static persona - looking back with shame means positive changes are being had, rejoice in your growth, celebrate your enlightenment and love who you are at the moment it occurs to you. Regret makes life worthless and kind of shabby.
Thanks man, a solid statement.  I did take the word "regret" out of there for that very reason. heh I still needed to humble myself though.
I'm not so much apologizing for being me. But a lot of my posts were rooted in malice and self loathing, only meant to push buttons...which I can't embrace and accept...that's not me. I've had some bad juju in my head the last year or so. Expressing humility is a big part of growing, and that "static persona, and loving who you are" that you mentioned....in my opinion.
I've noticed I've unintentionally & intentionally rubbed some people the wrong way. I took a step back to analyze my habits, and I didn't like what I saw. I just troll for confrontation sometimes...it's petty...makes me realize how bored I am.
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1234go
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go] 1
#21697920 - 05/19/15 10:39 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Thanks everyone. It's a real relief to see all the positive reaction. Feels good.
I'm glad I didn't put this off any longer and slide further down the shit-hole than I already had.
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Re: I'd like to.. [Re: 1234go] 1
#21697921 - 05/19/15 10:39 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Your mom just got bore'd..
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