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Mdmazing



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Crystal G]
#21699616 - 05/19/15 06:51 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Crystal G said: I don't have kids. Not any live ones anyway. sorry that was a bad joke lol. No children.
not cool bro
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zappaisgod
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#21699624 - 05/19/15 06:53 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Malcolm_Xtasy said:
If crystal g was a dude they'd all be bitching him the fuck out and telling him how irresponsible he is

We had a chat but you won't see it here. It is none of your business.
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Bodhi of Ankou
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: zappaisgod]
#21699638 - 05/19/15 06:56 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Thats cool you talk to girls Zappa, its not like any of us do it
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Crystal G



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: jsncrs]
#21699640 - 05/19/15 06:57 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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jsncrs said: Ever considered trying Ibogaine?
Yes, I'm actually thinking about doing it, problem is suboxone withdrawal can last weeks, so the ibogaine treatment would be too expensive unless I were to take stay on a shorter-acting opiate like Oxy for 3 weeks or so.
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Mescalean
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: zappaisgod]
#21699663 - 05/19/15 07:02 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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zappaisgod said:
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Malcolm_Xtasy said:
If crystal g was a dude they'd all be bitching him the fuck out and telling him how irresponsible he is

We had a chat but you won't see it here. It is none of your business.
I'm glad im not the only one who sees it holy shit. And after reading what you did to the company car and laptop crystal dude... You've always atleast tried to come off as a responsible adult and i believed it for a bit when you posted about getting the new job and everything. But dude. This thread is full of retarded shit I wouldn't even do. I'm 23 have barely experienced life thus far and I am even playing it ultra safe and conservative since starting in the MMJ industry. I won't even pick up for friends anymore because of risk. Act like an adult dude this is how I'd expect some college girl to act whos rebelling against daddy.
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zappaisgod
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Bodhi of Ankou]
#21699664 - 05/19/15 07:02 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Bodhi of Ankou said: Thats cool you talk to girls Zappa, its not like any of us do it 
I talk to more guys and you won't hear about them here either.
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Crystal G



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Mescalean]
#21699701 - 05/19/15 07:09 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Mescalean said:
I'm glad im not the only one who sees it holy shit. And after reading what you did to the company car and laptop crystal dude... You've always atleast tried to come off as a responsible adult and i believed it for a bit when you posted about getting the new job and everything. But dude. This thread is full of retarded shit I wouldn't even do. I'm 23 have barely experienced life thus far and I am even playing it ultra safe and conservative since starting in the MMJ industry. I won't even pick up for friends anymore because of risk. Act like an adult dude this is how I'd expect some college girl to act whos rebelling against daddy.
Well it's not like I was intentionally trying to damage the car. Do you know how difficult it is to drive in cities like Philadelphia and Manhattan? Coming from California 'burbs I wasn't used to heavily congested city driving. The streets are super tiny and narrow, there's potholes everywhere, and there's a million pedestrians jaywalking in front of your car. And I had never driven in snow or ice prior to that either, so that added to the experience.
I'm a very clumsy person naturally, and I drop my phone and computer sober all the time. The drugs just made it worse.
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Malcolm_Xtasy
Oh baby what Is you doin??



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: zappaisgod]
#21699703 - 05/19/15 07:10 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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zappaisgod said:
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Malcolm_Xtasy said:
If crystal g was a dude they'd all be bitching him the fuck out and telling him how irresponsible he is

We had a chat but you won't see it here. It is none of your business.
That's nice
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Malcolm_Xtasy
Oh baby what Is you doin??



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Crystal G]
#21699710 - 05/19/15 07:12 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Crystal G said:
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Mescalean said:
I'm glad im not the only one who sees it holy shit. And after reading what you did to the company car and laptop crystal dude... You've always atleast tried to come off as a responsible adult and i believed it for a bit when you posted about getting the new job and everything. But dude. This thread is full of retarded shit I wouldn't even do. I'm 23 have barely experienced life thus far and I am even playing it ultra safe and conservative since starting in the MMJ industry. I won't even pick up for friends anymore because of risk. Act like an adult dude this is how I'd expect some college girl to act whos rebelling against daddy.
Well it's not like I was intentionally trying to damage the car. Do you know how difficult it is to drive in cities like Philadelphia and Manhattan? Coming from California 'burbs I wasn't used to heavily congested city driving. The streets are super tiny and narrow, there's potholes everywhere, and there's a million pedestrians jaywalking in front of your car. And I had never driven in snow or ice prior to that either, so that added to the experience.
I'm a very clumsy person naturally, and I drop my phone and computer sober all the time. The drugs just made it worse.
Admits to being a Clumsy and shitty driver. Smokes crack while driving in NY traffic.. Brilliant
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Mescalean
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Crystal G]
#21699715 - 05/19/15 07:13 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Crystal G said:
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Mescalean said:
I'm glad im not the only one who sees it holy shit. And after reading what you did to the company car and laptop crystal dude... You've always atleast tried to come off as a responsible adult and i believed it for a bit when you posted about getting the new job and everything. But dude. This thread is full of retarded shit I wouldn't even do. I'm 23 have barely experienced life thus far and I am even playing it ultra safe and conservative since starting in the MMJ industry. I won't even pick up for friends anymore because of risk. Act like an adult dude this is how I'd expect some college girl to act whos rebelling against daddy.
Well it's not like I was intentionally trying to damage the car. Do you know how difficult it is to drive in cities like Philadelphia and Manhattan? Coming from California 'burbs I wasn't used to heavily congested city driving. The streets are super tiny and narrow, and there's a million pedestrians ever. And I had never driven in snow or ice prior to that either, so that added to the experience.
I'm a very clumsy person naturally, and I drop my phone and computer sober all the time. The drugs just made it worse.
Dude you know what I'm getting at, your at that point in life literally where you can choose to keep doing what you are doing. When was the last time you have actually tripped and had and introspective experience that makes you think "fuck..." about some of the shit in your life?
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Crystal G



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Mescalean]
#21699723 - 05/19/15 07:15 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Mescalean said: Dude you know what I'm getting at, your at that point in life literally where you can choose to keep doing what you are doing. When was the last time you have actually tripped and had and introspective experience that makes you think "fuck..." about some of the shit in your life?
Never. Any time I've tripped I've had severe panic attacks and anxiety attacks and it always turns into a really bad trip. So I haven't tripped in years. And even when I used to trip, I never had any regrets about my life.
NO REGRETS MAN. That's how it should be. Unless you killed or raped somebody or something. Then you should totally have regrets.
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Crystal G



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#21699729 - 05/19/15 07:16 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: Admits to being a Clumsy and shitty driver. Smokes crack while driving in NY traffic.. Brilliant
Well in California I was never clumsy or shitty at driving. I have never been in an accident ever, in all my decades of driving in California. People on the East Coast drive completely differently than people in Cali. I'm not used to East Coast driving.
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Mescalean
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Crystal G]
#21699751 - 05/19/15 07:22 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Crystal G said:
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Mescalean said: Dude you know what I'm getting at, your at that point in life literally where you can choose to keep doing what you are doing. When was the last time you have actually tripped and had and introspective experience that makes you think "fuck..." about some of the shit in your life?
Never. Any time I've tripped I've had severe panic attacks and anxiety attacks and it always turns into a really bad trip. So I haven't tripped in years. And even when I used to trip, I never had any regrets about my life.
NO REGRETS MAN. That's how it should be. Unless you killed or raped somebody or something. Then you should totally have regrets.
Maybe you should try paying attention to that anxiety. The anxiety is whats wrong most of the time, not anxiety itself but what is causing the anxiety. Don't try to push it aside which I guarantee the ego does when you trip it's normal, I have an ego and doing that shit sucks, but you always get to a root problem in your life, it's the trip trying to show you what's up. Maybe Ibogaine would benefit you dude... Idk if mark emery or whatever his name is still does it, but canadia ain't bad. This behaviour for a mature but still younger woman who has/had a budding career isn't normal nor is it beneficial to your future dude
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Detached
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Mescalean]
#21699765 - 05/19/15 07:25 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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This has all been an interesting story.
I really hope the NA goes well for you.
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Oldgregg
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Crystal G]
#21699874 - 05/19/15 07:45 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Oldgregg said: by clean you mean taking subs everyday and the occasional shoot up right?
I am taking subs, yes. But there is no occasional shoot up. I said I WANT a shot of oxy so fucking bad, I never said I actually went out and scored any. I'm actually on a taper and am down to 0.25mg subs 3 times a day now.
The use of subs is very controversial among many people within N/A, and even high-ranking people will disagree and argue with each other over whether subs are truly considered being "sober" or not.
I would say it depends on how you use them. If you're using it like as a maintenance dose, then no you are still on the path to sobriety. If you shooting 8mg doses, you are using it as a drug to get high on.
Frankly, sometimes the NA/AA people can be hypocrites. The people who insist "you must be 100% sober" are also the same people who are getting prescribed shit like trazodone and Seroquel, which are other mind-altering drugs. Saying you aren't "100% sober because you're on suboxone" is like saying "You aren't 100% sober because you drink Red Bull and smoke cigs."
cool, was just wondering what you're definition of 'clean' was.
good luck to you
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teamkiller
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Oldgregg]
#21699907 - 05/19/15 07:53 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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If you were going to get fired anyway, you should have taken the drug test. Imagine the look on their face when they're like "heroin: yes, cocaine: yes, pcp... : yes"
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Crystal G



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: teamkiller]
#21699980 - 05/19/15 08:21 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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teamkiller said: If you were going to get fired anyway, you should have taken the drug test. Imagine the look on their face when they're like "heroin: yes, cocaine: yes, pcp... : yes"
I totally thought about that and how funny that would be, but I also don't know how confidential these drug tests are, and I didn't want shit like that following me around.
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moonrockmushy
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Crystal G]
#21700017 - 05/19/15 08:34 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Was it gonna be a bloodtest, or did the catch you on the spot? I'm sure somewhere in that city you could find some clean urine. In any case it is probably a good thing to get out.
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Crystal G



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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: moonrockmushy]
#21700201 - 05/19/15 09:27 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: Was it gonna be a bloodtest, or did the catch you on the spot? I'm sure somewhere in that city you could find some clean urine. In any case it is probably a good thing to get out.
They surprised me with it man, they claimed we were just going to meet at 8AM in a hotel lobby just for a meeting, and they fucking blew this bombshell news onto me as soon as I got there. They blindsided me and I had no idea it was coming. If I knew about it I could have prepped in advance. They said that if I agreed to submit to drug testing, then they were going to drive me right then and there to the clinic, on the spot. I had no time or anything to prep.
They weren't joking about how the drug test either. They said they were planning on doing an EXTENDED drug test on me. They were probably going to test for shit like suboxone, methadone, salvia, shit that isn't on a standard panel test. So they must have suspected I was REALLY fucked up and they were trying REALLY hard to catch me.
Instead of going through the whole hassle already knowing I was going to test positive for at least 4 different drugs, I decided it was better to just dip out and spend that entire day smoking crack and PCP all day instead. Moar precious hours doing drugs!
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moonrockmushy
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Re: PCP Made Me Delusional and I Almost Murdered My Boyfriend (A Long Story) [Re: Crystal G]
#21700399 - 05/19/15 10:33 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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That's crazy, but something must have been up. I'm surprised I never crashed my car nodding off. I woke up many times from a nod on the road I suffer from chronic restlessness as well, and sometimes it feels like it hurts to stop, but it's just too easy to run yourself ragged and end up miserable all the time. You don't need to abandon your eyes open head first stance towards life, you just need to find a balance so you don't tip over. To me it seems like you are doing that. Stick with the taper and be patient for once
Edited by moonrockmushy (05/19/15 10:33 PM)
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