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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: vandago] 1
#21681130 - 05/14/15 10:45 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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vandago said: Ya I probably deserved that cancer I was born with too.
Everyone in my life doesn't hate me. My drunk family does because I eat acid.
Thanks though. You helped me remind myself that there are way more miserable people then myself.
It has to really suck to be you. You don't even have an excuse to suck.
so what are your plans after jail? do you see yourself leaving ohio eventually?
I'm not going to jail. I'm going to run or blow my brains out.
screw that man, why? over 6 months in jail and one year prob?? Van listen to yourself, thats ridiculous. 1 year is a drop in the bucket over the long term view of things, someone who has used psychadelics should be able to understand that. if it were a life sentence i could understand your opinion, but your time is a drop in the bucket.
do your time, stop using, own your herp, be confident, and cut your ties with toxic people. start reading some self help books man. your life isnt even close to over.
how old are you? i swear if you say anything under 40 and youre talking pistols to heads i just wanna come over there and slap some sense into you. theres no age where thats ok in my opinion. go out swinging dude. you are down in the dumps but life is a rollercoaster, own your lows dude. own your life and whatever mistakes have lead you to this point; but understand its not over. focus on changing your life for the better, starting now.
i love you bro but no more suicide talk dude. pick your ass up by your bootstraps, stop using those fucking shit drugs, get your head straight and clean, and start fixing your life. you got a year and a half jail and probabtion. you can use that time to turn your life into the opposite of how you feel it is now.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: vandago]
#21681137 - 05/14/15 10:47 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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All of those things are within your power. You're the one to needs to take action and get all those things back for you. Start walking a new path. You'll meet new people there and you can love them to your hearts content. Aya dude
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: vandago]
#21681164 - 05/14/15 10:54 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Im sorry to hear that and I hope you find love somewhere out there, who knows? Do not condense your lifespam of misery in one single day. Just live one day each time and leave the past where it should be. Every second is chance of a new start and tomorrow is a sea of possibilities. I will have my thoughtd towards you hoping you feel it. Also accept my hug! One day each time!
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Thaj]
#21681230 - 05/14/15 11:14 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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I am not sure why Mick said earlier that herpes was curable. if that is what he is talking about. I am sure you have done the research, certain medications can help prevent a breakout, and so on. Who knows, they might be able to treat it later on. Honestly, there are woman out there who are hot as fuck that have been given a much worse hand regarding family along with having herpes. I hope you can see that perspective. You really aren't alone. My cousin has herpes and has been to jail throughout his life, im talking 4-5 years in total.. Life is a struggle. anyone who tells you otherwise is lying to themselves.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: vandago] 1
#21681236 - 05/14/15 11:16 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Your mom and therapist sound fucking retarded
I hope things get better soon man
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Sheekle]
#21681253 - 05/14/15 11:23 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Sheekle said: Your mom and therapist sound fucking retarded
I hope things get better soon man
Yeah, uhm, if your therapist told you that.. maybe sue his ass? or get him in trouble at the very least.
Isn't that sort of encouraging someone both from the mom and therapist to commit suicide? isn't that illegal?
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Suspector] 1
#21681268 - 05/14/15 11:27 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Why would a therapist do that. What's more likely was she was asking a question to make him think about it and come up with reasons what's stopping him. The therapist isn't instigating a suicide..... that's ridiculous
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: ManianFH]
#21681272 - 05/14/15 11:28 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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vandago said: Ya I probably deserved that cancer I was born with too.
Everyone in my life doesn't hate me. My drunk family does because I eat acid.
Thanks though. You helped me remind myself that there are way more miserable people then myself.
It has to really suck to be you. You don't even have an excuse to suck.
so what are your plans after jail? do you see yourself leaving ohio eventually?
I'm not going to jail. I'm going to run or blow my brains out.
screw that man, why? over 6 months in jail and one year prob?? Van listen to yourself, thats ridiculous. 1 year is a drop in the bucket over the long term view of things, someone who has used psychadelics should be able to understand that. if it were a life sentence i could understand your opinion, but your time is a drop in the bucket.
do your time, stop using, own your herp, be confident, and cut your ties with toxic people. start reading some self help books man. your life isnt even close to over.
how old are you? i swear if you say anything under 40 and youre talking pistols to heads i just wanna come over there and slap some sense into you. theres no age where thats ok in my opinion. go out swinging dude. you are down in the dumps but life is a rollercoaster, own your lows dude. own your life and whatever mistakes have lead you to this point; but understand its not over. focus on changing your life for the better, starting now.
i love you bro but no more suicide talk dude. pick your ass up by your bootstraps, stop using those fucking shit drugs, get your head straight and clean, and start fixing your life. you got a year and a half jail and probabtion. you can use that time to turn your life into the opposite of how you feel it is now.
You are right to a certain degree, but age is just a number. I talk to 60 year olds that are still more in the dark then I am. I feel at this point, what's left? helping people.....that's it....loving animals.....giving.
Maybe I need someone to smack the shit outta me.
Suicide is not an option. It's a great thought to me right now though. I could never kill myself.
My grandfather was a hunchback who couldnt open his hands. He was in so much pain the last 6 month of his life.....screamed in pain in his sleep.....then woke up with a huge bloody smile " Good morning!!!!" quivering in pain.....always gave me noggies with his crippled hands " calm down knucklehead ".....he sat with a loaded pistol next to him the day he died, far from peacefully.....so much pain....but he did it....he made it....he toughed it out.....never ever could I ever watch what happened with that strong ass hell of a man and go, aw fuck it. He is my inspiration to at least endure the pain.
I talk about suicide a lot. But I would never do it. I hope so bad there is an after life.....i'd get to see my gma and gpa...my brother....my friends from this site that died....I want to embrace that....I want to actually move on, not fall back.
I have been saying things like "Im gonna just bathe with a toaster" m whole life.....my way of cheering myself up is so morbid.....but I am a knucklehead.
Thank you.....for real......I wish you could smack me right now...so I could say " thank you ".....I'm 29
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Suspector]
#21681278 - 05/14/15 11:31 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Sheekle said: Your mom and therapist sound fucking retarded
I hope things get better soon man
Yeah, uhm, if your therapist told you that.. maybe sue his ass? or get him in trouble at the very least.
Isn't that sort of encouraging someone both from the mom and therapist to commit suicide? isn't that illegal?
I think it was cognitive therapy style....like "Why don't you just kill yourself" immediatly set up defenses in my brain to think " WTF ASSHOLE...Because...." the way some therapists work is weird.
My mom on the other hand actually told me suicide is a good option.....tice actually.....she's also mentioned to me several times the abortion clinic may have been a better option.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: vandago] 1
#21681283 - 05/14/15 11:31 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Geeze, Van, sorry to hear that. For starters, your family sounds toxic. GTF away from them. And as for that so-called therapist, I'd be doing my best to get his ass fired.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Le_Canard]
#21681293 - 05/14/15 11:37 PM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Really doubt the therapist was insinuating that van should kill himself; not only would that be unethical, it would jeopardize the doctor's practice as well. If not for simple decency, self-interest is a pretty strong motivator to not tell patients to kill themselves. More than likely the doctor was just asking in a matter-of-fact way "why have you not yet killed yourself". If you're still alive, you have to have some decent answer to that.
Either way, no reason to act like a huge pussy about it all. Yeah, life can blow sometimes. Moping about it is pretty retarded though. Hence, lol.
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sVs said: Really doubt the therapist was insinuating that van should kill himself; not only would that be unethical, it would jeopardize the doctor's practice as well. If not for simple decency, self-interest is a pretty strong motivator to not tell patients to kill themselves. More than likely the doctor was just asking in a matter-of-fact way "why have you not yet killed yourself". If you're still alive, you have to have some decent answer to that.
Either way, no reason to act like a huge pussy about it all. Yeah, life can blow sometimes. Moping about it is pretty retarded though. Hence, lol.
Echo?
Moping on a forum is hardily moping. Just shut the fuck up. Seriously. You are nothing but a fucking moron in this thread, and making yourself look shittier with every post.
I am having hard times. I am seeking advice and console. You are pathetic, sad, and preying on someone who is morbidly sad. Go meditate or something.....or just get the fucking dick out of your ass and suck it clean.....either way....just stop typing.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: vandago]
#21681369 - 05/15/15 12:13 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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yeah I was being a bit cunty off the bat there. check your
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: vandago] 1
#21681494 - 05/15/15 01:16 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Cheer up bro. Shit will get better. Pretty sure almost all people contemplate suicide at some point or another. It's human nature at the low points. Just don't follow through. I've definitely thought about it many times in the past.. If you have to go to jail... take it in stride. Use the time to better yourself and work on yourself. Just read like a madman. 6 months isn't really anything in the long run..Fuck man, I spent almost 8 months in jail for a fucking gram of weed, my first offense ever with no prior record. (fuck florida) We've only met a few times I believe, didn't talk much because I'm a fucking introvert. But you are an awesome resilient dude, people care about you.. and you will make it out of this.
If there's one thing I've observed in all this time and your book feed updates and such.. it seems to me that state is just poison to you. And it doesn't sound like most of your family is helping the problem at all. You should probably distance yourself from the toxic people in your life. Once you get out of jail, get your shit straight.. and my advice would be... MOVE as soon as you can. Get the fuck out of that state. A totally new environment and different people can do wonders for the psyche and your outlook. I know it was one of the best decisions I've ever made to move across the country when I was rotting away in my home state. I left with nothing too.. nothing but a backpack, a plane ticket and $40 in my pocket. I struggled for a bit, but made shit work and had lots of good experiences and now I have a family and shit.. when I wasn't really even planning on having one in the first place, but no regrets. Complete 180. Now there's some aspect where people will say you can't run away from your problems.. if they are internal the problems will follow you. That's true... but shit man.. I think I know you at least somewhat well enough after all these years, you are a good dude but have been dealt some shitty hands. Yeah, you've made some mistakes, we all do. But you are a good guy. I think getting the FUCK out of that state as soon as possible and getting away from those toxic ass people in your life will go a LONG way. It would be refreshing. If you get probation, see if you can get it transferred to whatever state you want to move to. It seems like you're in a cesspool surrounded by fucking toxins. Disown your family (at least the shitty ones). You'll be better off.
Here's a bitch smack from across the interwebs *Thwap*.. now quit being a knucklehead, get your shit together and get the fuck out of there!@ Much love bro. If you ever want to talk just msg me, I've been through my share of tough shit as well, be glad to help.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Shroomism] 2
#21681767 - 05/15/15 04:55 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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It's a lot easier to wallow in self pity and ignore common sense advice that you know is true, though.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: idiotek]
#21681854 - 05/15/15 05:58 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Who the fuck says I'm wallowing?
I'm now stuck in this county....I'm out of jail on bond....I have to stay in ohio until this case is done, and maybe for another 1.5 years. I'm venting on a section of a forum made specifically for issues like this, and I'm not holding back.
Poor fucking me.
I'm not standing on the fucking side of the road with a bundle of roses that says "I have herpes please buy this rose"
I'm not screaming at my neighbors YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE MOTHERFUCKERS.
I'm merely depressed and venting on a fucking message board, in a section that has to do with sexuality and relationships.....who are you to say I'm not taking any of this advice and am just stamping my foot going GODDAMN HERPES.....I still get up and go to work....I didn't go...."Oh shit love bumps, I'm gonna go ahead and quit my job and start sucking dick for 3.50.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Shroomism]
#21681866 - 05/15/15 06:06 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Shroomism said: Cheer up bro. Shit will get better. Pretty sure almost all people contemplate suicide at some point or another. It's human nature at the low points. Just don't follow through. I've definitely thought about it many times in the past.. If you have to go to jail... take it in stride. Use the time to better yourself and work on yourself. Just read like a madman. 6 months isn't really anything in the long run..Fuck man, I spent almost 8 months in jail for a fucking gram of weed, my first offense ever with no prior record. (fuck florida) We've only met a few times I believe, didn't talk much because I'm a fucking introvert. But you are an awesome resilient dude, people care about you.. and you will make it out of this.
If there's one thing I've observed in all this time and your book feed updates and such.. it seems to me that state is just poison to you. And it doesn't sound like most of your family is helping the problem at all. You should probably distance yourself from the toxic people in your life. Once you get out of jail, get your shit straight.. and my advice would be... MOVE as soon as you can. Get the fuck out of that state. A totally new environment and different people can do wonders for the psyche and your outlook. I know it was one of the best decisions I've ever made to move across the country when I was rotting away in my home state. I left with nothing too.. nothing but a backpack, a plane ticket and $40 in my pocket. I struggled for a bit, but made shit work and had lots of good experiences and now I have a family and shit.. when I wasn't really even planning on having one in the first place, but no regrets. Complete 180. Now there's some aspect where people will say you can't run away from your problems.. if they are internal the problems will follow you. That's true... but shit man.. I think I know you at least somewhat well enough after all these years, you are a good dude but have been dealt some shitty hands. Yeah, you've made some mistakes, we all do. But you are a good guy. I think getting the FUCK out of that state as soon as possible and getting away from those toxic ass people in your life will go a LONG way. It would be refreshing. If you get probation, see if you can get it transferred to whatever state you want to move to. It seems like you're in a cesspool surrounded by fucking toxins. Disown your family (at least the shitty ones). You'll be better off.
Here's a bitch smack from across the interwebs *Thwap*.. now quit being a knucklehead, get your shit together and get the fuck out of there!@ Much love bro. If you ever want to talk just msg me, I've been through my share of tough shit as well, be glad to help.
Man All my shit is packed and ready to go. I got a storage unit 2 days prior to getting the domestic violence charge.
I have a comedy show june 6th I am actually getting paid decent for, and i was going to leave for the carolinas on the 8th, and stay gone......pay on my storage unit til I found a place to live....and just travel til I found that place......I had all my ducks in a row....I was weathering my family storm......then this shit with my brother happened and strapped me to the fucking ohio ground for another length of time.....goddamn trial isn't until mid june now, so it ruins my carolina trip/comedy tour. It's gonna be gig....then court....probably jail.
All I'll be able to do in lock up is read books. Since I have a past record of having a gun in my house while I was on prob, and being snetenced on DV, I'll be in max pod in one of the top ten worst cities in the entire country......youngstown jail is fucking HORRIBLE....
I am without a doubt, no questions asked, moving the second I am done with this court case....whether it be in june....or whether it be next year.....I'm done with my family and I am done with ohio....
But that feels so weird.......fuck you people who raised me and pretend to still care....and on christmas I will at least get flaming gifts :/
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: vandago]
#21681943 - 05/15/15 07:07 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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Is your brother that much of a total piece of shit that he won't drop the charges? That's some straight up fucking bullshit man
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Shroomism]
#21682177 - 05/15/15 08:51 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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In some states domestic violence charges can't be dropped. The state will pursue the case no matter what.
Van dude keep your head up. I would say once you get out try to cut off contact with the family as much as possible. They sound poison to you. If you can move. Hours away from them do that. for me it was the only way I could have a relationship with my family excluding my grandparents. If I would have stayed I would have ended up killing my step dad. If he shows up to my wedding I told him I would chop him up to tiny little bits and throw him bit by bit in all the great lakes. Things suck right now but you've got to move on and take the bad with the good.
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Re: So I had my first herpes outbreak, [Re: Shroomism]
#21682353 - 05/15/15 09:49 AM (8 years, 8 months ago) |
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He told the cops he didn't wanna press charges, but the local PD said arrest me, sheriff was even there and HE even said why the hell are you arresting him? Then they made my bro come to the pre trial, and he again told the prosecutor no......at least I think he did.....I won;t get my motion of discovery til hune 3rd when I meet with my attorney. No one filled a statement out besides the police officer. I post the whole story in "ask an attorney" but got no advice really or opinion.
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