I got myself an ounce of what appears to be Psilocybe cyanescens a while back. A few weeks ago, I took my first 8th, listened to music, sat around on the couch, watched Scott pilgrim vs the world, then ate something and a few beers, had a great time.
A couple days ago I went for it again, 8am in the morning... only did about 3g this time, and vowed to try to be more productive. I wanted to be introspective and try to work on some mental/physical issues. Listened to a lot of good meditation-focus type music, and did some yoga and meditation for a few hours... was going fine other than some significant nausea. Then I noticed my right side was numb/tingly. It was most noticeable in right foot, also seemingly present in right arm/fingers and right cheek. Unfortunately this turned the next 5-6 hours into an uncomfortable and paranoid situation.
I started worrying that my nerves were breaking or I was having a heart attack, or permanent brain damage or whatever. Ran across the BS paper about "psilocybin demyelination" and got even more paranoid. 8 hours after ingestion i was relatively normal feeling. The next day i was feeling basically normal, but still pretty stressed out about it, and still feeling some physical symptoms. They may have been there all along, i think i have back and posture problems.
I cant figure out if the shrooms just highlighted a possible existing condition (sciatica, herniated disc, pinched nerves, stiff neck, and spinal compression all can cause stuff like this) or helped cause it. Its almost exactly 48 hours after ingestion now, and the symptoms are very noticeable again... perhaps after a bad nights sleep last night.
I really wanted to take even more next time, like 4 or 4.5g, and see what i could see, but now that I've had this bad experience I'm concerned. I still have over a half oz of these left... id hate to trash them, but I'm not sure i feel comfortable dosing again, and i cant go in afraid.
Everything I've read on the net over the past couple days seems to indicate that there isn't much chance of permanent physical damage, but i sure didn't enjoy my trip as much much worrying i was having a stroke or something.
Has anybody else ran across anything like this?
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Holy shit.
I said i wanted to focus on some mental and physical problems with my meditation. I think that's exactly what happened. I just wanted to update this post, because after 2 days of terrible anxiety and hypochondria, I think I've finally connected my symptoms to Benzodiazepine withdrawal.
I think the shrooms and my enhanced state of mind allowed me to see a problem that i wasn't ready to admit existed, then compounded that problem by adding to the anxiety.
The night before i did the shrooms, I had 5mg of etizolam and about 8 beers... and every night before that for the past 2 weeks. Not always to that degree, but always some degree. Before that, xanax... I've been off an on using(abusing) un-prescribed xanax for the better part of two years.
I thought my habit wasn't that bad, or that i wasn't doing enough to build up a tolerance and get withdrawal symptoms, and now i think I've been humbled, proved wrong, and kicked in the ass.
Benzo addiction is bad news people! I've been a smoker, a drinker, a pot head, and messed with opiates. None of that holds a candle to what i appear to have got myself into with xanax and etizolam.
Don't mess with your GABA receptors! If you are on any benzos, get out if you can, and if your not on any, please don't start. I'm in deep shit. I just hope i can get out safely.
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