Hello all, So I've tripped on mushrooms about 6 times now, my first 3 trips I took 1.5-2g(cubes), my 4th was on an unknown amount of ps. cyanescens, my 5th trip was an 8th of cubes and ended up as a sort of bad trip. Last time I tripped was last friday on probably <2g of cubes, and during my last two trips I've felt pretty intense anxiety during the come up and up until I've peaked. With my first couple of trips as well as my cyanescens trip, I would feel a little antsy and giddy during the come up, but it would wear off quickly as I started to peak. I deal with a lot of anxiety in my daily life, so I am used to these feelings, unpleasant as they are.
But during my last two trips, the anxiety has been intense; my hands start to shake, my heart pounds, and I get a restless feeling in my legs. When I took an 8th, I attributed this intense anxiety to the large amount of shrooms I had eaten. But on my last trip, having taken less than 2g, I was surprised at the amount of anxiety I was experiencing. Luckily I was able to stop myself from entering a bad trip, keeping in mind that these feelings were not permanent. The trip from <2g was also surprisingly strong, with very intense visuals and extreme distortion of time. At one point after repeatedly checking my phone, I realized that what had felt like 3 hours was only 10 minutes. I felt that the anxiety had finally subsided only after my peak, and I only enjoyed the trip from then on.
The anxiety during my last two trips really hindered my ability to enjoy the effects, and I seem to enjoy the comedown of a trip much more than the come up and peak now. I really wish I could go back enjoying my whole trip and experiencing the euphoria that my anxiety seems to shadow during a trip. I know I'm a low dose kind of person, but my last trip frustrated me a bit. I feel like the mushroom is sort of punishing me until I've peaked,
So basically, my questions are: Has anyone else experienced this and how they've dealt with it Should I try taking even smaller doses(1.5g or less?)
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Perhaps give Lemon Balm a try, it helps for some of the anxiety. It's been pretty good at helping me avoid "bad trips". Though some intensity will still be there, i and others who have used it seem to think it does pretty well and doesn't dull down the experience unless you use a high dose. I usually use dried leaves, anywhere from 1 to 3 grams. But the fresh leaves taste and smell better, i just haven't figured out the dosage of the fresh leaves yet.
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Try some mindfulness meditation, Jon kabat Zinn, Joseph Goldstein are both great places to start.
Find the state of mind of acceptance for whatever will be, and allow the mushrooms to do what it has to do. I truly believe that we have an almost symbiotic relationship to these substances, they are here to heal us, teach us and guide us, but from my experience and from the hundreds of trip reports I have read, the common theme for a healthy and consistent relationship with the mushroom is one must be completely respectful of the process. Be in the state of mind that is calm and accepting of whatever is happening.
The same applies to Cannabis,take it easy, be respectful and use it socially or for creativity...Even if you are using just to relax, then start slow and build and you will not experience anxiety. With Cannabis go easy up and when you up you can stay there by taking it easy.
Eating Cannabis nails you to the floor... it can be extremely potent and the effects last several hours longer than smoking.. be careful with edibles, it can also can take 3 hours to come on.. Cannabis is converted by the liver to "11 hydroxy metabolite" and it can be very very powerful.
I like it because I think it's a great way to train the hindbrain, because it can elicit the effects of anxiety, Just rest, breathe, meditate and be a peace with what is happening and a europhoria can be attained.
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