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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Luc1d]
#21621567 - 05/01/15 10:55 AM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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If we are talking crying like out of sadness. I balled my eyes out over 2 years ago when my grandma passed away. I personally believe men should not cry. Am I saying it's right no but I was raised that way and I believe it.
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Luc1d]
#21621633 - 05/01/15 11:16 AM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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Luc1d said:
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Mescalitoe said: Yesterday. I was thinking about the mistakes I've made and how my past addiction to a certain substance has led me to where I am now. I don't think I'm too far gone (20 years old) but I guess my past still haunts me. I thought I had gotten past all of that guilty feeling but it randomly came up yesterday. I've been clean for 2 years 
Pretty weird.
care to elaborate, just a little? we are the same age
I tried crystal meth when I was 18 and the habit got worse with time since I would get it for free.I was smoking a quarter a week. I was up every night, dropped out of school, I'm surprised my parents didn't disown me for some things that I've done. The paranoia was too real, I was hearing voices, seeing shit. I tried quitting before.
Eventually a friend told me about Mescaline and gave me a 500mg dose he says. I'm not sure how much I took but something about it gave me the strength to better myself and to stick with it no matter how I felt. So I quit cold turkey and the next year was nothing but me being depressed sleeping all day for a year . I knew In The long run everything would be ok. Which they are, I'm clean and I graduated and am now in college.
It's been 2 years now, but yesterday the feelings of guilt and hopelessness just came rushing back like a waterfall. Those feelings/thoughts I think were triggered by an old song or an old memory that I had. Unfortunately I couldn't fight the feeling and I started crying. I didn't know why but I knew I had to let it out. It was really strange, I hope it doesn't happen anytime soon even though I know it's probably best to let it out.
Edited by Mescalitoe (05/01/15 11:19 AM)
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Mescalitoe]
#21621647 - 05/01/15 11:20 AM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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I always cry a little when I trip, so about a month ago
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Webster10]
#21621719 - 05/01/15 11:37 AM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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More of a man then you'll ever be
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I balled my eyes out
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Webster10]
#21621735 - 05/01/15 11:41 AM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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My grandma died and it was after the funeral by myself into a pillow. No one saw.
Before that jeez must have been nearly a decade. Step up nigga
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does anyone find it like some what perplexing that a lot of peeps cried yesterday?..
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Mescalitoe]
#21622211 - 05/01/15 02:10 PM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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Mescalitoe said:
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Luc1d said:
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Mescalitoe said: Yesterday. I was thinking about the mistakes I've made and how my past addiction to a certain substance has led me to where I am now. I don't think I'm too far gone (20 years old) but I guess my past still haunts me. I thought I had gotten past all of that guilty feeling but it randomly came up yesterday. I've been clean for 2 years 
Pretty weird.
care to elaborate, just a little? we are the same age
I tried crystal meth when I was 18 and the habit got worse with time since I would get it for free.I was smoking a quarter a week. I was up every night, dropped out of school, I'm surprised my parents didn't disown me for some things that I've done. The paranoia was too real, I was hearing voices, seeing shit. I tried quitting before.
Eventually a friend told me about Mescaline and gave me a 500mg dose he says. I'm not sure how much I took but something about it gave me the strength to better myself and to stick with it no matter how I felt. So I quit cold turkey and the next year was nothing but me being depressed sleeping all day for a year . I knew In The long run everything would be ok. Which they are, I'm clean and I graduated and am now in college.
It's been 2 years now, but yesterday the feelings of guilt and hopelessness just came rushing back like a waterfall. Those feelings/thoughts I think were triggered by an old song or an old memory that I had. Unfortunately I couldn't fight the feeling and I started crying. I didn't know why but I knew I had to let it out. It was really strange, I hope it doesn't happen anytime soon even though I know it's probably best to let it out.
are the memories from withdrawal the ones that make you emotional? or the ones from addiction?
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The Doobie Dude said: No one saw.
But it happened.. it's there for a reason man. No need to be ashamed.
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: zZZz]
#21622285 - 05/01/15 02:27 PM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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I cried on the 18th. It's the anniversary of my dad's death, it's always pretty heavy for me. this year was different though, they were mostly happy tears which was really refreshing.
Other than that, I tear up when I have moments of extreme gratitude. Usually I'm driving or climbing and my favorite song will come on, and I'll just appreciate the beauty around me, and the love. I wouldn't say I full on cry, but that happens probably every 2 weeks or so.
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Mr.PhilCybin]
#21622297 - 05/01/15 02:30 PM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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rip to ur father. ..
i am kind of the same, i find myself getting teary eyed alot, but it's never usually because of something sad, most because there is so much beauty in the world and so many good people it makes me cry when i think about all the selfless things people do or have done out of sheer love.
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: zZZz]
#21622307 - 05/01/15 02:33 PM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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thanks man. 
yeah it's important to take a moment and appreciate the things around us. There's a lot of shit that makes me sad, but when I really think about the big picture, there's way more to be happy and thankful for. 
I think gratitude is probably the biggest thing you can do that will drastically change your outlook and general happiness.
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Mr.PhilCybin]
#21622317 - 05/01/15 02:36 PM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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I really can't remember, I would say at least 3-4 years ago.
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Luc1d]
#21622772 - 05/01/15 04:54 PM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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Luc1d said:
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Mescalitoe said: Yesterday. I was thinking about the mistakes I've made and how my past addiction to a certain substance has led me to where I am now. I don't think I'm too far gone (20 years old) but I guess my past still haunts me. I thought I had gotten past all of that guilty feeling but it randomly came up yesterday. I've been clean for 2 years 
Pretty weird.
care to elaborate, just a little? we are the same age
I tried crystal meth when I was 18 and the habit got worse with time since I would get it for free.I was smoking a quarter a week. I was up every night, dropped out of school, I'm surprised my parents didn't disown me for some things that I've done. The paranoia was too real, I was hearing voices, seeing shit. I tried quitting before.
Eventually a friend told me about Mescaline and gave me a 500mg dose he says. I'm not sure how much I took but something about it gave me the strength to better myself and to stick with it no matter how I felt. So I quit cold turkey and the next year was nothing but me being depressed sleeping all day for a year . I knew In The long run everything would be ok. Which they are, I'm clean and I graduated and am now in college.
It's been 2 years now, but yesterday the feelings of guilt and hopelessness just came rushing back like a waterfall. Those feelings/thoughts I think were triggered by an old song or an old memory that I had. Unfortunately I couldn't fight the feeling and I started crying. I didn't know why but I knew I had to let it out. It was really strange, I hope it doesn't happen anytime soon even though I know it's probably best to let it out.
are the memories from withdrawal the ones that make you emotional? or the ones from addiction?
A little of both but mainly the addiction memories. I treated my family like shit and just didn't give a fuck about myself or anyone else. Lost my girlfriend cause I couldn't/didn't want to kick the habit. I just tend to dwell on the past and it's hard for me to remind myself that I'm different now.
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Re: When's the last time you cried? [Re: Mescalitoe]
#21622790 - 05/01/15 04:59 PM (9 years, 19 days ago) |
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I had to let my squirrel kenny go the other day. Only had him for like 20 hrs but man it was hard
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