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Fungushungry
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My life and the military! *DELETED*
#2143667 - 11/29/03 01:15 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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-------------------- "Early man walked away As modernman took control There mind's weren't all the same And to conquer was their goal So he built his great empire And he slaughtered his own kind He died a confused man And killed himself in his own mind"
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Re: My life and the military! [Re: Fungushungry]
#2143723 - 11/29/03 01:57 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Wow man. That's pretty deep. But to tell you the truth, I'm sorta in that same position. I had everything, and I ruined it by partying so much.
I was 16 going on 17, frosh at a University, g/f of 3 years, nice car, and ever a motorcycle. I was the only frosh starter on the football team (Def-CB). I was having a great time. I didn't even make it a semester though. I was supended from the University for a year. And that was the turning point. After that it was all downhill. I dug myself into a huge hole. Went several thousand in debt. Was faced with my probation fee's, which had to be paid within 2 months (bear in mind I was 4,800 in debt, and the fee's were something like 2,000 dollars). I lost my car, I had to leave my g/f when I left the university (it was out-of-state), I was back living with my parents, sleeping on the couch (they gave my sister my room), and I'm still here today.
I'm elgible to go back to my old college in Jamuary, but I'm still a little bit in debt, so that's not a possibility yet. I'm thinking of attending a community college, to help save some money and try to get my shit together. Somethnig more local, and not-so-hard on the wallet, and just test myself, see if I got what it takes to pull my life back together. Money never really ment a lot to me, so I'm going for a degree in Child Education. I *finally* got a job (I've been looking since DEC of last year) and have been working for a Logistics company for the past 2 months. I make a $300-a-week paycheck, working Tues. Wed. And Thurs. from 6 PM to 6:30 AM, which in this small town is enough to live on your own in a small townhouse (you're be broke as hell though).
I too, am known as the town druggie. However, I've been (more or less) clean for 2 months. I admit to smoking 2 joints with my uncle on 2 seperate occations. . . 2 bowls with my marijuana dealer on 1 occation. That was in my 1st months after quitting when i was smoking about an oz a day. In the past month though, I've been clean up until 3 days ago when I bought a 1/4 ounce to get stoned off of, and to supply myself with the thanksgiving munchies. I had a joint leftover after that, so I'm kinda high now. I'm pretty sure I'm going to be clean from here on out. I've got other priorities now that my car broke down. Other than marijuana though, I've been clean off of every other drug for 3 months now, with no exceptions.
I don't really have much advice for you, but I just thought you should know that you're not alone. My advice for you though, is to just keep looking for that job, take advantage of living at home with your parents, save up every penny you make, and put yourself into college if your parents won't co-sign a loan. Prove yourself to them, and then maybe the next semester they'll be willing to co-sign it for you. You gotta make them take your seriously.
Way to go with the drugs though, I found that drugs/alcohol (well, partying in general) were a major factor. I just wanted to go get fucked up. And now that I've been clean for a while, it's making me more paraniod. I'm much more motivated to work towards something now, though occationally I'm just like "fuck it, i can handle this, i can lead a shitty life that i hate" just because im so frusturated. I'll give up for a few days, just stop caring, then I'll just mentally slap myself and pull myself together again. Hopefully I can do the same with my life. Hopefully you can too.
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Re: My life and the military! [Re: Fungushungry]
#2143728 - 11/29/03 02:05 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Sorry that things are sucking so bad for you right now Fungus Hungry It seems that you really are caught in a shitty ass situation I don't really know what to say man I can't tell you what to do with your life You need to weigh out the pros and cons of every option and decide what you want most, and do what options you think will be the best for you. No matter what, everything will eventually change in time Hope you can sort through this situation, sorry i wasnt really any help Hope you feel better man Take it easy
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Re: My life and the military! *DELETED* [Re: Help on the Way]
#2145238 - 11/29/03 07:19 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Re: My life and the military! [Re: Fungushungry]
#2145289 - 11/29/03 07:43 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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I met a guy in central america who rode his bike all the way to Honduras from Quebec. You can do whatever you want, you're capable of anything, and you just need to realize that. Going on a crazy adventure would help clear your head. Go somewhere cool. Get a backpack and leave anyway you can transport yourself. Sell your vehicle to get some cash. It costs hardly anything to survive in Central America and you'll meet all kinds of cool people and see lots of cool shit. It'll broaden your perspective and help you sort shit out. You won't have time to worry about your life when you're trying to communicate something to people who don't understand your language.
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Re: My life and the military! *DELETED* [Re: Mixomatosis]
#2145579 - 11/29/03 11:02 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Re: My life and the military! *DELETED* [Re: Fungushungry]
#2146550 - 11/30/03 12:08 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Re: My life and the military! [Re: Fungushungry]
#2146608 - 11/30/03 12:31 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Dude, dont even say that shit.. Fuck the military. Just move.
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