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Almond Flour
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Is being an addict fun?
#21403222 - 03/13/15 05:34 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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Sometimes I wonder if drug addiction is enjoyable. I know it sounds silly but sometimes I'd love to just say fuck it. To just say FUCK you world and to drown my sorrows in a bottle of jack, or to give heroine the old college try. I don't for health reasons, but you get my point
Is there anything enjoyable about being an addict, just living in the moment, not caring, taking whatever you want, when you want, and just to mellow out and watch the clouds go by?
I imagine when your health, relationships, and affairs crash into the dirt it makes things a bummer, but there's always another bottle of Jack Daniels to be bought 
Seriously though we can't ignore the potential positives...otherwise why would there be addicts, there has to be SOMETHING that makes them choose drugs over relationships and a conventional life. What's your take shroomery? Can anyone in the debts of addiction enlighten me? What's your experiance I wanna know.
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Edited by Almond Flour (03/13/15 05:39 PM)
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Tcm19277
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Only when you're high.
Oh, and have the money.
It's not too bad, and when you have nothing else, then it does become pretty good, because everything else is shit.
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Almond Flour said: I imagine when your health, relationships, and affairs crash into the dirt it makes things a bummer, but there's always another bottle of Jack Daniels to be bought
QFT
Alcohol though is a nasty thing to be addicted too.
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Re: Is being an addict fun? [Re: Tcm19277]
#21403325 - 03/13/15 05:59 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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Being a functioning addict can be fun but its only fun when you are in control.
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there is nothing enjoyable about addiction. when you are merely consuming your drug of choice just to avoid seizures/shitting your pants/vomiting/complete and utter disgust for the human being you've become, you have entered into the things are no longer fun territory.
as an addict with three years clean, I can say that towards the end there, there wasn't a single moment I enjoyed getting drunk/high. it merely becomes a self medicating mechanism, to avoid withdrawals and pure disgust with yourself. most addicts, including myself, use because of underlying issues. sexual/emotional trauma, mental illness, etc. and the inability to stop is largely in part due to the belief that youre not worthy of getting better.
I spent some time in rehabs/detoxes/a halfway house, and Ive witnessed people who have lost everything. job, family, housing, self respect. imagine the guys who are sucking dick for crack. do you think they think anything about addiction is enjoyable?
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m4dScientist said: there is nothing enjoyable about addiction. when you are merely consuming your drug of choice just to avoid seizures/shitting your pants/vomiting/complete and utter disgust for the human being you've become, you have entered into the things are no longer fun territory.
as an addict with three years clean, I can say that towards the end there, there wasn't a single moment I enjoyed getting drunk/high. it merely becomes a self medicating mechanism, to avoid withdrawals and pure disgust with yourself. most addicts, including myself, use because of underlying issues. sexual/emotional trauma, mental illness, etc. and the inability to stop is largely in part due to the belief that youre not worthy of getting better.
I spent some time in rehabs/detoxes/a halfway house, and Ive witnessed people who have lost everything. job, family, housing, self respect. imagine the guys who are sucking dick for crack. do you think they think anything about addiction is enjoyable?

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The early stages of becoming an addict-- when the rewards of your use are still heavily outweighing the consequences-- are a shitload of fun. That's why people keep on going. After that, sure, the drugs are still fun, but everything around them sucks. And it just keeps getting worse and worse until the pleasure of getting high can't even begin to mask the despair in which you're living.
I wish tumblr hadn't deleted the blog I kept during my junkie days. It pretty much documented my slide into addiction. I started that blog during the period in my life when my interest in experimenting with drugs was really beginning to heat up, and one of the last posts I ever wrote in it, three years later, was about just having gotten out of jail after catching a possession charge during my last relapse. In between that it became increasingly bleak, morbid and emotionally unstable. To give you a taste, on one of my worst nights I recall writing a post glorifying suicide as a way of getting back at everyone I felt had "wronged" or hurt me along the path to my self-medication through IV opiate use.
I was using with a death wish by the time I graduated to daily IV use. I hated so much what I'd done with my life, and also saw such little hope out there in the regular world, that I would openly admit that I didn't give much of a shit if I shot up one day and never woke back up. My arms were bruised to shit, I made decisions on the regular that could have killed me if not for a lot of luck, I routinely hurt people I cared about, I ate sporadically at best, I stopped caring about hygiene or appearance, I isolated myself from the world, and I severely set myself back on all my genuine goals and ambitions. To put it simply, I just got stuck in a hole because I pissed away my ability to function above ground.
If all of that sounds fun, then I suppose that, yeah, addiction is fun. But to me it was awful, and yet I still find myself romanticizing the shit out of opiates every now and again.
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Re: Is being an addict fun? [Re: Lumiz]
#21403794 - 03/13/15 08:27 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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Lumiz said: Being a functioning addict can be fun but its only fun when you are in control.
It can be fun when you think you can control it and you function. Sometimes nodding is very enjoyable, getting "well" from dopesickness is always juicing your body with energy,a little euphoria(you keep chasing). The bad side far outweighs any positives of addiction though.
I once read famous poets and artists used laudunum (an old time opiate brew) went on a binge with heavy opiates, oxide,morphine,diluadid. Now about a year later I struggle not to take opiates but I still do. That's what addiction is, a self imposed prison it's awful,makes me snap at people. I never have to steal but it's still just a curse that's incredibly hard to get rid of once you have it.
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My experience of being an ex meth addict is this.
It was enjoyable as fuck, I think about it all the time. I remember when I would get the money for my shots, I literally would sprint miles to get to my room to prepare the blast. When I was gonna do a good one, and be on one really hard, I knew the moment I pushed that plunger in I would experience to most intense feeling anyone on this world has ever felt. Just pure raw pleasure. Then once it hits you and you are able to stand up after an hour or so, then it's tweak time. The city becomes alive and I hung out with my friends and just lived. I lived so much in the moment and despite the fact I didn't have as much every day was a new adventure. I have many stories and experiences gained with my meth experience.
But ya, being an addict is bad but at the same time you have something to live for and it is clearly defined. That next rush, that next bell ringer, that next shot where you are teetering a fine line between the most intense raw pleasure imaginable and death. Like there is nothing better then having a full bag of meth and knowing you are gonna achieve pure ecstasy several times within the next few days.
Overall though, I would not go back to that life. I am not done with meth forever, I just chose not to do it now and probably for years to come. I just like leaving my options open and nothing is black or white.
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I was watching drugs inc. and saw a homeless heroine addict that could support his addiction pretty well. I thought "I wouldn't mind being a homeless heroine addict because all of the heroin would make up for being homeless."
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Yea I think many of the times it's just the lifestyle, it's an addicting lifestyle that thug lyfe
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Re: Is being an addict fun? [Re: zZZz]
#21404031 - 03/13/15 09:09 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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so long as you have the bread to play with cheddar, and you've got a serious sandwich connect( and no responsibilities) it's surely a fun way to life for a while
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no. stupid question
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Re: Is being an addict fun? [Re: BlackWidow]
#21404596 - 03/14/15 12:01 AM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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Being addicted to stims and depressants is completely different IMO. One is just intense waves of euphoria to boredom and depression and the other is more of a physical need to feel normal.
I like taking ritalin every day (I am prescribed). It helps with the meth cravings and is way more euphoric then taking etiz every day. Taking etiz every day is horrible.
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i wonder if those disassociation addicts enjoy themselves, or if they really even remember it...
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Re: Is being an addict fun? [Re: BlackWidow]
#21404801 - 03/14/15 02:51 AM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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The only fun part of addiction is feeding it.
And, yes, that part is pretty damned fun
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You think it is until you realize what you're doing to your life, which is usually many years before it gets to the point where people do something to change it.
So no, not at all. Addicts are among the most abused and misunderstood sub-culture of society. It's a horrible way to live, and once you get out you're a shell of the human you once were.
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Re: Is being an addict fun? [Re: Rustifer]
#21404938 - 03/14/15 05:26 AM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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The process of addiction is great at the start, but when it gets to the point that you can't be comfortable without your substance or even the knowledge that you can have your substance later, that's when it becomes frightening and desperate
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I wasn't sure whether to submit this or not...
The best is when you are sick and are feeling like death, then when a strong dose kicks in and you are on top of the world with no worries, that is the most euphoric situation for me (I am personally talking about opiates/benzos/alcohol, mainly opiates in that regard, but can be applied to anything IMO)
Can I just clarify? I have been using for a long time, with my personal situation in life ranging from being comfortable living with a roof over my head & lots of money in my pocket, to being completely broke, drug-sick and homeless, and I still think that overall my use has been the main good thing in my life, always there, always available, always the same great feeling etc.
I will clarify even more
I have been addicted to opiates, benzos, and alcohol, separably and all 3 together -
Alcohol is a miserable sickly thing to be addicted too, but like anything, but feels pretty good after lots to drink.
Benzos are pretty good thing to be addicted too, all of the good thins about alcohol and more without a huge toll on your body, it just sucks with the seizure risk (I have had 3, but from alcohol wds, but I suppose they are almost the same) but if you keep a backup supply of something to stop seizures (I have used Phenobarbital, GHB/GBL/BDO & Pregabalin, and alcohol is always a shopping trip away course, to stop seizures when I ran out of benzos and have always got through)
Opiates are the best thing out of the 3, yeah it is a different high, but when you are sick you are just sick, you don't have to worry about dying/DTs as with the others
I was on Poppies/Opium (I even made my own 'laudanum' dissolving Opium in vodka) for 4/5 years and only have fond memories, the sickness from running out is only temporary, and the highs make up for it many times over.
I realize I am just romanticizing my days of using (I am pretty clean atm and have been for a while, though not out of choice) but whatyagonnado? 
If you think the people sucking dick for crack aren't enjoying the high you are crazy, if they didn't enjoy the high so much they wouldn't be doing anything and everything to get that buzz
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