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BarMeBruh
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My LSD blackout
#21279845 - 02/15/15 08:50 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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So one night, myself and a few friends had gotten together for a night of tripping. The acid of choice was from a reliable source and I personally have done the same acid several times before this. Well as the night began everything was great. I was seeing different colors and tracers of what was actually there. It was awesome. My friends I was with however, I wasn't very accustomed too. It was at a friends house that I never had been to before and only one person there had I ever tripped with in the past. Everything was fine for the first 3-4 hours, I remember everything, we smoked some blunts, and I even had sex with the girl I was with. But then a huge wall of blackness came over me. And for next 2 hours, it was a blur, with some vague memories of what happened. Taken from what I remember and what my friends had said; Apparently I went completely AWOL. They said it started out with me getting up and walking into a different room in the house. When I came back, they said I had a lifeless face on me and that I was in a completely different state. My friends told me that I went to their kitchen, grabbed a table chair and smashed it into the window, I had also began to bang on walls and doors screaming "OPEN!" And with all this happening I had no recollection of it. From what I do remember is that I was trapped inside my mind. Every thought i had was unworldly. I remember that I thought I had waken up from an awful night of tripping, and had hurt myself physically from doing so much; I THOUGHT I WAS GUNNA DIE! But in reality, I was throwing a tantrum, trying to get out of something, trying to escape. I remember my friends talking to me, but everything they said went into my story in my head about how I physically hurt myself from tripping. After endless attempts to try and stop me, I'm a bigger guy and not necessarily easy to just knock out, my friends ganged up and drug me outside and locked me out. They had called the cops as well for they were scared for their own lives. I had done a great deal of damage to the house (a couple broken doors, a few holes in the wall, and some broken windows) and I didn't wake up from this nightmare until the cops had got me. And even then when the cops came, I thought they were hells demons sent to drag me to the underworld. I guess waking up and having thought I had hurt myself physically had me think I died and that the devils were there to collect my soul. But regardless of that, I have never blacked out like that and done something so violent off a drug in my life. Does anyone know what could have caused it? Or if i have a mental issue that needs to be resolved? I haven't done any other psychedelics since that night. However I do self medicate with Xanax, weed regularly and do MDMA on occasion.
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OhMrJohnson
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Re: My LSD blackout [Re: BarMeBruh] 2
#21279851 - 02/15/15 08:53 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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PARAGRAPHS!!!!!
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Diminish the sub-principle and leave its toxic trace.. Once and for all!
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Re: My LSD blackout [Re: BarMeBruh] 2
#21279862 - 02/15/15 08:55 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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BarMeBruh said: So one night, myself and a few friends had gotten together for a night of tripping. The acid of choice was from a reliable source and I personally have done the same acid several times before this.
Well as the night began everything was great. I was seeing different colors and tracers of what was actually there. It was awesome. My friends I was with however, I wasn't very accustomed too. It was at a friends house that I never had been to before and only one person there had I ever tripped with in the past. Everything was fine for the first 3-4 hours, I remember everything, we smoked some blunts, and I even had sex with the girl I was with. But then a huge wall of blackness came over me. And for next 2 hours, it was a blur, with some vague memories of what happened.
Taken from what I remember and what my friends had said; Apparently I went completely AWOL. They said it started out with me getting up and walking into a different room in the house. When I came back, they said I had a lifeless face on me and that I was in a completely different state. My friends told me that I went to their kitchen, grabbed a table chair and smashed it into the window, I had also began to bang on walls and doors screaming "OPEN!" And with all this happening I had no recollection of it. From what I do remember is that I was trapped inside my mind. Every thought i had was unworldly. I remember that I thought I had waken up from an awful night of tripping, and had hurt myself physically from doing so much; I THOUGHT I WAS GUNNA DIE! But in reality, I was throwing a tantrum, trying to get out of something, trying to escape.
I remember my friends talking to me, but everything they said went into my story in my head about how I physically hurt myself from tripping. After endless attempts to try and stop me, I'm a bigger guy and not necessarily easy to just knock out, my friends ganged up and drug me outside and locked me out. They had called the cops as well for they were scared for their own lives. I had done a great deal of damage to the house (a couple broken doors, a few holes in the wall, and some broken windows) and I didn't wake up from this nightmare until the cops had got me. And even then when the cops came, I thought they were hells demons sent to drag me to the underworld. I guess waking up and having thought I had hurt myself physically had me think I died and that the devils were there to collect my soul. But regardless of that, I have never blacked out like that and done something so violent off a drug in my life.
Does anyone know what could have caused it? Or if i have a mental issue that needs to be resolved? I haven't done any other psychedelics since that night. However I do self medicate with Xanax, weed regularly and do MDMA on occasion.
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beat me to it
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Weiliithinker
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It seems like you took more than you should have since you were in an unfamiliar setting. This same thing happened to a friend of mine (I thought you were him until half way in) when we were at a friends house (new to him as well). A few hours in, once he started to peak he began losing touch with reality and started yelling, running around, and rolling on the the ground with a scared look on his face. I'm not going to go into his underlying problem which caused the fear that fueled this bad trip. I would recommend taking a lower dose next time (half at most) and let your trip intention be to figure out the cause of your panic at the unfamiliar house. My friend doesn't remember much about what happened after the point where he started getting disoriented in the house, it's not surprising that you don't either. You should ask the people you were there if you were saying anything else at all before you started getting wild in the other room. It was irresponsible of your friends to shove you outside and call the cops, even though you seemed violent. My friend seems like he was going to mirder at any moment but I had to talk him back to reality and sanity instead of letting him get lost in his mind and get enveloped by the light that was taking up all his vision. He would have done the exact same violent reaction that you did if put in your position. When you are tripping hard, your mind can be much more vulnerable and fragile. So if you are going to take a high dose, make sure you are in a very comfortable and familiar set and setting. Look up proper set and setting for trips if your unsure. Tripping can reveal wonderful things about your inner self if you are doing it for a good purpose such as spiritual growth through introspection, but recreation tripping is more likely to go either way. What I'm saying is respect your substances and make sure you have a nice, familiar environment to relax while you learn about the universe
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I blacked out on 3 hits of L this summer. Tried to climb a tree with no branches on it til 10 feet up and tried to jump into the lake. also lost my shoes. Was thoroughly confused when I came out of it.
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some people don't learn. one of the few times I'm actually lolling as i post it.
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