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    #21250190 - 02/09/15 07:01 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21250791 - 02/09/15 08:49 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

IMO most of your problems stem from:

- insufficient breath control, easily looking outside, letting your breath locked in fear (suspend breath, or "hang" on people's words and opinions or looks). Psychologically adult people look inwards and breathe continuously. Psychological infants keep locking their breath, hanging on things and looking outwards for external confirmation. Don't blame chemical imbalances and crap on this, breath is ALWAYS something you have full control over. Just start doing it properly.

- insufficient exercise. The more idle you are physically, the easier it is to get into anxious breathing patterns. You can do talk therapy til kingdom come, no talk therapy will give you exercise, endorphins, muscles and breath control. Or in other words, YOU CANNOT breathe well (which is the basis of healthy emotions) without moving a lot, and every so often really challenging yourself physically. Sweating, sore muscles, the works. Go try a martial arts class instead of talk therapy, see how it affects your anxiety levels.

- insufficient sex and romance. If you had enough girls in your life, they'd come with their own issues and problems, you'd suspend this habit of always looking at your issues, and refocus on helping them with theirs, or competing with other males, etc. Since you don't have this, or not enough, you have plenty of time to keep on idling with endless time to re-analyze your own perceived shortcomings. Go get a massage from a friend with benefits, or take the time to give a girl one. Go get a nice fuck or an epic blowjob and finish on a girl's :boobs: Spread your seed long and wide, see if you have any anxiety issues the next day, any at all :biggrin:

Also, what are you doing with your life? Are you following your awesomest and most epic enthusiasm? If you're idling and crawling with training wheels on, of course you can't be thriving at the same time.

- What skills and hobbies are you working on? Especially with the hands, with the body.
- What forms of artistic expression do you have? Do you regularly sing, paint, play instruments?
- What does your house and room look like? Awesome decorations? Art? Plants? Pets?
- What do you eat? What's in your fridge right now? Epic foods or meh, whatever?

In other words, do you have an abundant flow and variety of content (informational, people-wise, color and sound-wise, food and activity-wise) in your life, or is there a poverty of content, time indoors, insufficient light, massage, sex, fun, laughter, incense and good food cooked by loving hands? I mean cooked by a woman you've got in your life, other than your mother? Some sort of lack in one or several of these areas are IMO the resons behind your emotional issues.

There's nothing wrong with you, all primates feel bad and alone when placed in a poverty of content.


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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: Spacerific]
    #21250900 - 02/09/15 09:13 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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Spacerific said:
IMO most of your problems stem from:

- insufficient breath control, easily looking outside, letting your breath locked in fear (suspend breath, or "hang" on people's words and opinions or looks). Psychologically adult people look inwards and breathe continuously. Psychological infants keep locking their breath, hanging on things and looking outwards for external confirmation. Don't blame chemical imbalances and crap on this, breath is ALWAYS something you have full control over. Just start doing it properly.

- insufficient exercise. The more idle you are physically, the easier it is to get into anxious breathing patterns. You can do talk therapy til kingdom come, no talk therapy will give you exercise, endorphins, muscles and breath control. Or in other words, YOU CANNOT breathe well (which is the basis of healthy emotions) without moving a lot, and every so often really challenging yourself physically. Sweating, sore muscles, the works. Go try a martial arts class instead of talk therapy, see how it affects your anxiety levels.

- insufficient sex and romance. If you had enough girls in your life, they'd come with their own issues and problems, you'd suspend this habit of always looking at your issues, and refocus on helping them with theirs, or competing with other males, etc. Since you don't have this, or not enough, you have plenty of time to keep on idling with endless time to re-analyze your own perceived shortcomings. Go get a massage from a friend with benefits, or take the time to give a girl one. Go get a nice fuck or an epic blowjob and finish on a girl's :boobs: Spread your seed long and wide, see if you have any anxiety issues the next day, any at all :biggrin:

Also, what are you doing with your life? Are you following your awesomest and most epic enthusiasm? If you're idling and crawling with training wheels on, of course you can't be thriving at the same time.

- What skills and hobbies are you working on? Especially with the hands, with the body.
- What forms of artistic expression do you have? Do you regularly sing, paint, play instruments?
- What does your house and room look like? Awesome decorations? Art? Plants? Pets?
- What do you eat? What's in your fridge right now? Epic foods or meh, whatever?

In other words, do you have an abundant flow and variety of content (informational, people-wise, color and sound-wise, food and activity-wise) in your life, or is there a poverty of content, time indoors, insufficient light, massage, sex, fun, laughter, incense and good food cooked by loving hands? I mean cooked by a woman you've got in your life, other than your mother? Some sort of lack in one or several of these areas are IMO the resons behind your emotional issues.

There's nothing wrong with you, all primates feel bad and alone when placed in a poverty of content.





I go to the gym 5 times a week and hike on weekends, so exercise is definitely not the issue.
I have many hobbies (too many to list) :lol:
My living space is full of cool art and plants, aquariums, etc
I follow a strict diet (for bodybuilding purposes) and eat very healthy
The only thing I can think of that has been causing me extra stress is the relationship I'm stuck in. I love the girl, but we argue a lot. But I don't think I can blame everything on that, as these problems were around before she came along (maybe not as severe though)

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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: jsncrs]
    #21251114 - 02/09/15 10:06 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Well that's fresh, usually anxiety builds most in people who just don't move enough, don't put that body to work enough. Since that's not the case here, let's see what else it might be.

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The only thing I can think of that has been causing me extra stress is the relationship I'm stuck in. I love the girl, but we argue a lot. But I don't think I can blame everything on that, as these problems were around before she came along (maybe not as severe though)



What are you arguing about? Expand a bit how things are going with the girl.

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I have slight social anxiety and low self-esteem.
I worry about what others think of me.



Can you expand a bit on this? When and how do you notice this most? When is it not an issue? Indoors, outdoors, mornings, evenings, is it now like it was 2-3 years ago, better, worse? What's the dynamic there?

I also invite you to simplify the way you word and think about things.

YOu don't "suffer from anxiety". YOu either breathe easy or you don't. If you don't breathe easy, then what about? When? Focus on your breath more, see what disturbs it, keep real time track of it. WHEN does your gut clench into knots and spirals? When this girl shows up? At some points during the day? In the evening when trying to sleep? When does your breath go best, and you feel free to laugh and lean your head back with not a care in the world?

Speaking of that girl, does she actually care for you, in the sense that, does she take enough time to make sure you breathe easy? Personally I measure this in calm quality time spent together, sex and massage. Massage being king. People who care will put the time in, or take time to learn and do it right. People who don't care, don't put in the time or do a shitty job of it or find verbal excuses. And for sex verbal excuses may work, I can say fine, you don't feel like it this evening, but for no massage there's no excuse. So how's the massage going between you guys? Very important aspect of calm, good vibes and shared skin contact. Also very good activity to share together other than arguing :biggrin:

Is there anything else, other than this girl, that you're not breathing easy about, that you tense and worry about?

What would you like to do more of, that maybe you're not doing (perhaps you don't know how, or don't have time or money for)? Are there any areas where you feel you're settling, being polite to accomodate others, basically stepping on your feelings for whatever external reasons?


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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: Spacerific]
    #21254292 - 02/10/15 05:12 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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What are you arguing about? Expand a bit how things are going with the girl.





We argue about a lot of things to be honest. I'll list the main things I can think of.

She can be very jealous, selfish, immature and extremely irrational. She has no idea how a normal, functional relationship works.

She refuses to look after herself, she chain smokes, barely eats anything at all and when she does it's just processed crap. I see her regularly drink 2 litres of coca cola in a day, sometimes more. She drinks maybe a glass of water a week, maybe 2. Just the other day I caught her dipping her finger in a bag of sugar and eating it.

She is on a government allowance as a job seeker and spends all of her money on weed and cigarettes, then hits me up for cash for necessities when she runs out and never pays me back. As a result of this she can't afford to apply for her drivers licence, meaning I have to drive her everywhere she needs to go, which also means she can't apply for a job (no public transport close by).

She NEVER exercises, she isolates herself indoors and watches TV and smokes weed most of the day. She has made it clear that she doesn't want anything to do with my family (although she denies that). She's not outgoing at all, if I want to hang out with my friends, 9 times out of 10 she'll crack the shits about it (I do it anyway). And when she does decide to get off her ass and come along, it's for like 2 hours and then she complains about wanting to go home. She thinks because she has a fit body now that she can treat it like shit and not suffer any consequences down the track.

She sometimes helps with cleaning the house, but I do a majority of it. She refuses to wash dishes, so that is left up to me. She leaves her clothes in piles beside our bed to the point that I can't even get in there to clean.

I'm a very energetic and outgoing person, so obviously our lifestyles conflict a lot. I eat extremely healthy, I work Monday to Friday 9am - 5pm, I do weight training 5 days a week after work, I'm about to take up Yoga on top of that, I walk my dogs every day and go hiking with them on the weekends, and I have a heap of hobbies that keep me busy in between everything else.

Despite everything, I still can't bring myself to break up with her (thanks to my extreme sense of empathy I mentioned in my first post). She had a very rough childhood and I believe that's where a majority of her problems stem from. Also, she's cute as fuck and I care about her alot and can't stand seeing her upset, every time I build up the courage to break it off I puss out. She has threatened to harm herself before when I tried to leave. I feel like I have a dependent, rebellious child rather than an equal partner.

I've tried everything to get her to change her ways, I told her that if she wants to live like that it's her choice and I can't make her change, but she needs to let me know so I can do what's best for me. I told her that I'm not willing to invest in "us" long term when she's not going to invest in herself. As selfish as it may sound, I don't want to be sitting by her hospital bed in 10 years watching her slowly fade away from some preventable disease (touch wood).

There's more, but that's all I can think of for now. :shrug:

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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: jsncrs]
    #21255028 - 02/10/15 07:10 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Oh man, this is TONS of good stuff to work with here.

First off, why would you assume there's ANYTHING AT ALL wrong with you, I am talking ONE MOLECULE of anything wrong, when you're living with this complete mess of a girl?

IMO there's pretty much nothing wrong with you, and there's in fact plenty wrong with her.

Now let's closer examine what's going on there:

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She can be very jealous, selfish, immature and extremely irrational. She has no idea how a normal, functional relationship works.



Why do you literally waste your life with this girl? I'm not asking her why she's like that, I'm sure she has her reasons and excuses. I'm asking you why you allow this in your life and your house. Clearly you've had time to see what she's made of. If you cut her off now, she'd either clean up her act or off herself, one way or the other things would progress. But as it is, because she can endlessly mooch off you, she can stay in this shitty state forever. I get it that the pussy is nice and she may be physically cute now, but (gods forbid) assume you knock her up by mistake, she decides to keep the kid and you're pretty much stuck with her disastrous ass for life. In some way or another, married or not, but you'll never hear the end of it. If she can guilt and sucker you into staying together now, you being her bitch basically, how much power do you think she'll have when she's got a kid, YOUR KID, to blackmail you with, emotionally?

So again, clearly you're a fit nice outgoing awesome dude with a promising job and prospects. What exactly keeps you dependent on THIS girl, when there's SOOOOOOOOOOO many others out there? What do you fear, what haven't you cleared internally, to the point where you can choose your preferred woman that you like, and instead play the victim game and drama with this one?

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She refuses to look after herself, she chain smokes, barely eats anything at all and when she does it's just processed crap. I see her regularly drink 2 litres of coca cola in a day, sometimes more. She drinks maybe a glass of water a week, maybe 2. Just the other day I caught her dipping her finger in a bag of sugar and eating it.



Well on one end, this is obviously a retarded way to live and eat, we've all been young and done stupid shit in our lives, sometimes for months and years. My question again is WHY do you settle for this? Why do you allow this person, whom  (unless she gave you a kidney or something) you literally owe nothing, why do you allow this crap to continue?

Why don't you start seeing other girls? Don't you want to? Don't you get interested looks and flirts from them?

Furthermore, just where are your boundaries with this girl? I mean, just how much of a brat and how much exploitation does she have to bring to the table, in order for you to put your foot down and say ok bitch, you're out of here, go to your mom's or whatever, but you're definitely out.

WHose house are you living in? Is it your house? If so (and of course she pays no rent, no bills, I mean if you're a pussy and allow her to stay there without even cleaning why would she) then why is she your actual gf, as opposed to one OF you girlfriendS?

Think on it. Assume you start bringing other girls home, tell her she can leave whenever she wants, it's not your problem, what would she actually do? I'm not telling you to do that, I'm telling you that someone who contributes so little deserves so little. WAY LESS than your full attention and affection.

Now let me ask you something.

Just how clear are your boundaries with this girl? What (until now) have you truly been clear, upstanding and inflexible about? That is your house, and (assuming you have even a little backbone) your rules. What can you actually do there, that will push her buttons, and tell her in no uncertain terms that she's living with a man, not a wuss?

I ask this not to be insulting, but because women naturally test boundaries, and how full of shit we are. If we say we don't like X, they sometimes will do a little X just to see how we react. And it can play out in a number of ways. A balanced man will simply not have it. He will say no to tea with lemon in it, if he previously stated he doesn't like lemon in tea. The second time he'll give the girl a nice rough fuck and while pulling some hair tell her, "Don't ever put lemon anywhere near my tea, is that clear?" And expect her to say "Yes daddy".

Now a less clear man will be more vague like, oh, maybe a little lemon in my tea won't hurt, then the next time it's OK, then before you know it, you're drinking all your tea with lemon, because little missy can't be bothered to make her man some tea like he likes it, and of course she doesn't need to, apparently he's a wuss that can be easily swayed into drinking the tea that she says he should like.

It's very small things like this, like do you accept clothes and dirty things in YOUR bedroom, or do you set her boundaries, if she comes to bed and it's not a clean bedroom, you kick her out, like woman, you are not sleeping in my house while you make my bedroom dirty.

Of course if she grew up with a shitty childhood, among other people with no clear life goals and boundaries, she will have learned that stuff, but as far as I've seen ANY woman will fall in line, when she's with a man that dictates what goes what doesn't.

Seriously, I've been amazed to see girls I've been with, that would go out of their way to do things as I've shown them I like them done, I've seen them walk all over all kinds of shmucks that were looking to ingratiate themselves.

The more you present vague unclear boundaries, the more you whine instead of clearly properly defending what you've said are your boundaries, the more she'll do that, because she instinctively feels she has ample space to do it.

I'm not sure you see things my way here, but if you do, I highly recommend that

1. YOu start seeing other females. YOu don't have to fuck them (though I definitely would, that girl at home did pretty much nothing to invite loyalty and respect) but just be in a position where you have alternatives. If instead of "I'm going out to see my buddies" she'll hear "I'm going out to hang out with Lisa ... again" you'll see she immediately gets more interested in what you feel like doing :biggrin:

2. You start setting JUST A FEW things that she will do right in that house, and also set exactly what you'll do if she doesn't.

3. YOU DO NOT GIVE HER ANYTHING for free. The next time she asks for money, start asking for stuff in return. Is my bedroom clean? Is the living room vacuumed? Is the trash taken out? Also, am I getting a nice massage tonight, like I like? SHE HAS TO jump through hoops to get stuff from you, or she will have no reason whatsoever to respect you.

In fact I highly suspect she's just mooching off of your money and shelter as it is. If you beg to differ, tell me how much she takes time to massage you, how much affection you feel from her, how often she initiates awesome awesome sex with you, or romantic evenings. By all means list how a girl would act towards a guy if she were just milking him for money, and see how many apply to her.

Anyway personally I think you should fire her ass as a gf, get yourself a nonsmoker, a pretty girl, a nice girl, get whatever you want, but end it with this complete waste of time and calamity. You're 25. Just how many years do you want to spend with this girl that brings you bad habits, bad finances, anxiety, probably no tight hugs, no loving embraces, doesn't cook you loving warm food, no massages, no decorating your home with a nice female touch?

That is the question. How long? Where's your limit?















If, for some completely ineffable reason, you actually care for her, then fine. Get her ass to some mush trips. Get her ass to some Ayahuasca tripping. If she's  wasting her life at the TV and smoking now, don't worry, a couple of Aya trips later she'll sing a very very different song. But draw a fucking line somewhere. Tell yourself, it's six months from this day. It's 10 arguments from today. I don't care where the line is, but draw it. Take time, ponder, think, I'd actually also trip about it, and then decide it. And once it's decided, it's SET IN FUCKING STONE. Consequences, that come hell or high water, will fall on her head and she'll have to deal with it.

And how's massage between you guys? That's a MAJOR part of couple life IMO. By my estimations she never takes time to give you any good massage, as pothead chainsmokers have horrible control of their grip strength, wasting it all away. Am I right? Has she ever given you a good massage, ever, let alone the 2-3 weekly ones you guys should each be getting and giving, to keep things positive?

Hope this helps and offers some perspective :biggrin:


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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: Spacerific]
    #21255196 - 02/10/15 07:39 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Wow, thanks for the detailed response :thumbup: I appreciate you taking the time to do that. Some great points in there. I flip my shit on the regular and tell her it's my way or the highway, then she starts crying and I feel like an asshole, I think this is my main problem.

The other thing is our dogs. Technically they are hers, registered in her name, so if she goes.. so do they. This breaks my heart because I love them.

But I'm going on a holiday with my family until mid March and I've told her we will re-assess things when I return. Hopefully the holiday will give me some time to think clearly without distractions. If she has made no effort to better herself (like she has said she will) then we will be parting ways for good.

Right now this is not sustainable, and I know that. And I know I'll be fine eventually, I've done this shit before. It's just pulling the pin that's the hard part. :facepalm3:

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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: jsncrs]
    #21255313 - 02/10/15 07:55 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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I flip my shit on the regular and tell her it's my way or the highway, then she starts crying and I feel like an asshole, I think this is my main problem.



I had a feeling this is how it plays out.

Now of course we as men need to be sensitive to women's needs. That is, NEEDS not wants and whims. Some women break down and cry when they really are at the end of their wits and really need our support, and that's fine, that's the time to give it. But others have quickly figured out that you can VERY quickly get a guy to be flimsy about his boundaries, if you get the crying game on.

I'm not sure if your girl does this, or to what extent, but I think deep down you can tell when she really needs help, sincerely, or when you're more like taken for a ride. Maybe you can't tell in the moment, but if you've been with someone for some time, especially if you have other women/relationships to compare this to, you will know.

Now this is btw not necessarily intentional on her part, but the thing is, once someone has practiced this bad habit, of emotionally blackmailing and guilting people into giving up what they want (likely the same was done to them in the past) then the more they see that work, the more they'll tend to do it. IMO that's got very little potential for improvement, these are the peeps that they ask for help, you give a finger they grab the whole hand and then the next day they expect more and more. They CAN fix their act, but I've not really seen it happen with the same person that they've formed a long pattern of mooching from.

But that's why I said Ayahuasca, that's the only kind of thing that I've seen (in myself and others) make TREMENDOUS psychological changes in a short time, I am talking just shattering negative patterns almost overnight (in a few days or weeks, patterns that were going for years and decades).

Sucks to hear about the dogs man, I've been there too. I didn't break it off with the girl because she wasn't my gf, we were just friends and sex and tripping buddies, but damn, I miss that dog, totally looking forward to visiting them again soon :biggrin:


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and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it.
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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21271711 - 02/14/15 03:26 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

first thinng I would like you to know is that 'mental illness' is not biologically-caused. By this I mean that you are not a defective robot. That self-concept is what this mechanistic culture tries to get you to feel about ourselves when we cannot sope and develop behaviour they call 'mental illness'. What that does--is intended to do--is let the culture and family off the hook, and blame the individual! When really the culture we are oppressing in is insane, and assaults us body mind and soul

It enforces us to undergo their fukin 'education' indoctrination for the best years of our lives where many of us can get bullied in a host of ways, including by teachers making us feel shit and worthless if we are not good little robots

So I just want to make you aware of this, because they want us to be un0conscious of it, and think of ourselves as 'train wrecks' because we are not the image pushed on us morning noon and night some fucked up 'rich, successful celebrity' or 'businessman/woman'

Now all you say you have is just another way of saying you fear death and uncertainty. OCD--the obsessive need for 'order' is of course the fear of dis-order, and the extreme of that is death. So you get people washing their hands endlessly cause they fear catching germs and DYING. So this thinking becomes fixed in the mind and goes round in vicious circles

That ayahuasca idea seems cool, but can you also acquire magic mushrooms where you are?

I am all for going to the jungle etc IF you can afford it, but feel that that 'trip' tends to obscure the fact that you don't need to travel IF you have native psychedelic mushrooms where you are at, or can get them posted to you

Psychedelics can suspend these mind-SETS or habits, but then you need to integrate the experience with ongoing critical research
Personal Account of Mushrooms Curing Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

Also I am personally very interested in microdoses of psychedelics. This means you don't always have to feel you have to take big doses. They would help you explore how you feel about things without you losing sense of yourself.

If you would, please explain in detail your 'OCD'. In writing it out you are expressing what you feel and this is healing in itself

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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: zzripz]
    #21279354 - 02/15/15 07:03 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Well said :thumbup: thanks a lot. I tell myself that all the time but hearing it from others really helps.

That's a very interesting article. I've followed MAPS for a while now and think they're doing amazing work. I do have access to mushrooms, I've had several 2 - 3g trips and whilst I feel great about life and myself at the time, I've not really held onto any noticeable "positive" after effects. I've been wondering recently if I should venture deeper, say a 4 - 5g trip and see what I can bring back from that.

I'll explain my OCD as best and as briefly as I can.
I was diagnosed with OCD and anxiety when I was young. During my teens it seemed to disappear completely. I went holidaying and had fun with my friends without a care in the world. But lately it seems to have come back full force and I have no idea why. My OCD leads me to constantly worry about whether I've turned off appliances in the house, if I've locked doors, turned off water faucets, etc. I check them several times before leaving the house and even then I doubt myself and find myself worrying. I've outlined my main problems a little better in my first post.

I've always been a fairly popular guy, plenty of friends, plenty of attention from females, and people always tell me I'm intelligent. But lately I constantly compare myself to others - my friends, colleagues, other random people my age, and I end up feeling like a bit of a failure. I compare everything; our social skills, careers, assets, life experiences, financial situations, and just general happiness. This brings my self esteem way down and makes me feel terrible and absolutely destroys my motivation.

I will be seeking the assistance of a psychologist, but wanted to get an outside opinion from others who may know more about these things than me. If I can figure out where the problems stem from (anxiety, OCD, etc) then I feel I can better explain my situation to a doctor and thus target the problem better.

As a side note, I've been doing a lot of research into Testosterone deficiency in men, the symptoms are very similar to everything I've noted above. Guys generally have high levels of Testosterone during their teens, and tapers off into mid to late 20's. Which could explain why my symptoms disappeared during that time. I'm contemplating contacting some mens health clinics and asking about TRT (Testosterone Replacement Therapy).

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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21281029 - 02/16/15 01:53 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

I ask myself the same question every single day OP.  I'm starting to think maybe something is wrong.  I'll find the answer though.


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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21281125 - 02/16/15 03:25 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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I'll explain my OCD as best and as briefly as I can.
I was diagnosed with OCD and anxiety when I was young. During my teens it seemed to disappear completely. I went holidaying and had fun with my friends without a care in the world. But lately it seems to have come back full force and I have no idea why. My OCD leads me to constantly worry about whether I've turned off appliances in the house, if I've locked doors, turned off water faucets, etc. I check them several times before leaving the house and even then I doubt myself and find myself worrying. I've outlined my main problems a little better in my first post.




You could maybe try this. OK, after checking all appliances, use a piece of paper that you can fold and put in your pocket with the day's date on, and a list of the stuff you have checked and tick it, and then put eg 'everything is fine stop worrying--with a smiley face. In that way ALL you have to remember is that you have that piece of paper. You look at it and there you go. you KNOW you have checked everything and ticked and it is today.

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Re: What's wrong with me? [Re: The Doobie Dude]
    #21281127 - 02/16/15 03:31 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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As a side note, I've been doing a lot of research into Testosterone deficiency in men, the symptoms are very similar to everything I've noted above. Guys generally have high levels of Testosterone during their teens, and tapers off into mid to late 20's. Which could explain why my symptoms disappeared during that time. I'm contemplating contacting some mens health clinics and asking about TRT (Testosterone Replacement Therapy).




I don't know about medical reasons for lowered levels of testosterone, but I know I've seen some pretty huge changes in mine based on whether I'm actually banging some fwb or not. I kinda track this stuff by tone of voice and thought patterns mostly, some girls draw you in toward more oxytocin-relase based affection, more soft and friendly and dreamy, and some are just filthy whores who need to be cocksorcized of their sins and evils, by your mighty scepter :lol:

While you're dating/fucking this last kind of girl, you should notice a plentiful abundance, super strong deep voice, much more manly/caveman attitude toward life. It's not very romantic, but it's good to go caveman every once in a while. Puts hair on your chest :biggrin:

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plenty of attention from females



When you say plenty of attention, do you mean you actually date and bang a lot, is there the actual naked time, massage time, sleeping and screwing together, or just flirting and other short-lived low intensity interactions?

Like are you banging some girl(s) right now, this week, on the regular?

I ask because I've seen plenty of weird behaviors, in both myself and others, that are there ONLY while single, uninvolved with friends, projects and especially sex and romance. I've seen those behaviors come after a few weeks of being alone and simply disappear by themselves with simply bringing a pair of :boobs: into one's life :banana:


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