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Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity?
#21178609 - 01/26/15 10:54 AM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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So, last night I ate mushrooms with my girlfriend and had an epiphany. During my epiphany I saw The Devil and I saw god. The devil tried to get me to sign a contract with him and I rejected. After we got stuck in a loophole and she was speaking to jesus as a messenger. We were talking and everything was fine, but I wanted to know more. I felt and still feel as though I am something higher than a human. I feel like the want and urge for knowledge is so strong and that I know and can feel everything almost like god.. Suddenly she kept saying she had authority and I told her that we were equal and then it went bad from there. She was screaming and saying she wouldn't breathe and felt like she was being burned and was in pain... She is a lesbian but was on the phone with her friend saying how she wanted to fuck him and how sexy he was... It was not like her, it was someone else... I did some research and I believe that Lilith consumed her as a vessel because she was vulnerable. She couldn't speak and when I tried to touch her to make sure she was still there she attacked me... I would open her eye with my fingers and she would look at me and look away, like something was not allowing her to do so.... If anyone knows about Lilith (Earth Mother) she was Adam's first wife and when they made love, he was submissive and did not like that... She cast off to be evil because she was independent and wanted authority. When I told my gf that she didn't have authority this all happened... was it because I wouldn't sign the devils contract so he sent lilith to take hold of my gf? Lilith is Lucifer's daughter. Then my gf went on to throw up and lay in it, and slowly started to come back. I feel like it was because I wanted more knowledge but is that greedy? Is that a sin? I just want to know more, I can know more, and it is such an odd feeling, is this how god feels? I feel like I have been blessed with a need for knowledge so strong that it walks a line between good and evil... Is it possible for humans to have god like abilities? Deities, demi-gods... What am I? The way that I view is so deep that even when I'm not influenced by the mushrooms I can feel it. I know I'm not weird and this has to have some meaning... I learned from the fruits of the earth, which god gave us... but god gave lilith "authority" of keeping the earth safe... making her earth mother... I also had sex with earth mother in my epiphany... I just want to know the answers, I know I can have them but I don't want to dig into evil... Thoughts?
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: fuckmadbitchesyo]
#21178628 - 01/26/15 10:59 AM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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I didn't read all of it but if you're posting seriously about spirituality in this forum then imo you're a little weird. Or a lot.
-------------------- "Don't believe everything you think". -Anom. " All that lives was born to die"-Anom. With much wisdom comes much sorrow, The more knowledge, the more grief. Ecclesiastes circa 350 BC
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: fuckmadbitchesyo]
#21178680 - 01/26/15 11:10 AM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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Evil is bullshit. Keep having sex with deities
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: fuckmadbitchesyo]
#21178697 - 01/26/15 11:14 AM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm not qualified to interpret your experience. I'm not sure any one but you is.
Reflection and time are my only recommendations. It can take quite a while to integrate a strong trip. Give it time and be patient. Rushing/forcing it won't get you anywhere.
Do you remember the terms of the devil's proposed contract? I'd like to know what it involved. Did you reject it because it was offered by the devil, or were the terms unfair?
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: Aser]
#21178789 - 01/26/15 11:36 AM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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the dimension right above this one holds ELEMENTALS, these are thought-formations that are created by the imagination of men, there is no absolute ultimate devil and etc,
i advise investing in spiritual protection such as chanting a mantra 108 times a day. this gives you light, your trips should not be so hectic, hehe, "heck" tick, as in , well you get it :P
in fact i advise everyone to find a mantra that hey have faith in and chant it at least 108 times a day. all my trips involve spiritual focus on mantra.... for the most part!
-------------------- I am the MacDaddy of Heimlich County, I play it Straight Up Yo! ....I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow, to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human...... Om Namah Shivaya, I tell you What!
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: leery11]
#21178801 - 01/26/15 11:39 AM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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What's the significance of 108 times? Why not 100 or 123?
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: Aser]
#21178926 - 01/26/15 12:16 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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The last guy I knew who said this thought he was so perfect he could just rip anybody off he wanted
It's circumspect to me
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: fuckmadbitchesyo]
#21182110 - 01/26/15 06:50 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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Those pesky entities making people believe all sorts of strange things. Whatever they are doing, it is possible they have some sort of agenda for you that may be fucked.
Don't hold onto any single belief or you can become deluded, delusions can be fun at times though. They usually lead you down a road that ends up with psych wards, jail, and mental health appointments. 
You can see yourself as what they want you to see yourself as and still be good though, just don't go flaunting this stuff to people or you end up in places like I said above.
There are a lot of things about this world that can be beyond beautiful and terrifying, so you really need to take all the information you believe you are receiving with a grain of salt. Beware of their attacks, it feels like they are digging in your head.
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: fuckmadbitchesyo] 1
#21188160 - 01/27/15 06:50 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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Possession is real, has happened to me quite a few times. But don't look at these things from such a christian perspective. And what's so spiritual about "fuckmadbitchesyo"? Anyway, psychedelics aren't toys. They can put you into some deep stuff for sure. I didn't know what I was getting into when I started with psychedelics... but it's a journey I am meant to take, even though it can be painful.
Personally for me after many direct experiences with evil forces, usually demented, interdimensional aliens, I came to read somewhere about the religion of gnosticism and they called these beings archons. The stuff gnostics described fit exactly with my personal experiences which blew my mind. That's what gnosticicm is about, direct personal experiences.
It shares similarities with christianity but is much different. For example, the snake temtped adam and eve to eat the forbidden fruit, because the snake was actually good and the so called "god" was an evil alien called the Demiurge. That demented "god" didn't want them to eat that forbidden fruit because he didn't want his cover blown. When they ate from it, he got pissed and put a "deep sleep" upon them, aka ignorance. Which lasts even today for humanity. People are truly ignorant to how oppressed and deluded they are spiritually. People pray to "gods," not knowing that those gods are actually evil that feeds off of their energy. Basically, things aren't what they seem here in reality. There is tons and tons of trickery and delusions abound. I do believe in a god but it is the Source and isn't at all associated with earthly affairs contrary to belief.
I don't want to derail the thread any more with my own views but if you want to check out some of my experiences search thru my threads. I've only posted about a few tho...
Be careful "out there." And break up your text so it isn't one big mash-up of words. Hard to read. Paragraphs...
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: fuckmadbitchesyo]
#21188612 - 01/27/15 08:30 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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I used to think that the education of young students today is simply going down the drain, that people can't write and properly express themselves in ways that make sense.
Glad to see I was wrong, fuckmadbitchesyo
-------------------- Blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear.
For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: Spacerific]
#21190163 - 01/28/15 07:19 AM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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It's a 'normal' part of the tripping process to feel Godlike, supercharged, divine. Be careful of Messiah-Who-Shall-Liberate-The-World syndrome because essentially what you're seeing are your own higher aspects beyond the normal constraints of the ego.
The ego self is reactive and blind and clings onto things. The true self is unreactive, conscious and unattached.
When the ego self gets a hold of one's divinity and those intense feelings are running through your veins, it is easy to feel like you are God, or Godly or a messiah, or in some way super duper special. The feelings are not right or wrong, they are feelings and have their own Life, their own way of Be-ing. However if the ego mind clings onto them, it will turn into a Messiah complex/delusion.
But in fact if you examine the feeling closer, it is sourced from your innate childlike wonder and awesomeness. You are an awesome being deep down, the most Holy of Holys, you are the Almighty who sees all, hears all, and knows all. But to get this confused with your little self is a recipe for a psyche ward.
You could look at it like this, there are three selves involved:
(1) Your society conditioned ego - the 'hurt and restrained inner child' (2) Your magnificent human self with its full range of human expression and sensory faculties (3) The Absolute who is Divine beyond all, Source of all
Now when you are in this highly manic state, you go from experiencing self (1) as is "normal" to suddenly experiencing self (2) in its pure primal essence, then in the expression of (2) you become aware of (3), the Absolute. Then power courses through your veins and if you say "this is MY power" then you will become delusional. If you recognise it as just power itself then there is room for integration and bringing this Power into your waking Life. It is the true power of the Absolute, which mushrooms and other hallucinogens reveal underlying 'ordinary'/restricted consciousness.
The good thing is that it is possible to bring these Godlike feelings into ordinary waking consciousness. The tool you wish to use is psychotherapy. We all have a hurt inner child self, which is composed of a bundle of old wounds and pent up emotions, locked up in our bodies. This self lashes out at the world, it struggles with itself and it all plays out within your own body as the opposite of relaxation, a kind of restless tension and agitation, an inability to sit still in the moment and Be. When these feelings are released, the Divine Human Self is freer to express and then you will find yourself acting with Godlike ability. The way you release these feelings is essentially to cry them out - see this site: http://www.cyquest.com/pathway/how_patterns_are_healed.html
-------------------- "Everything there is, and all that there is, is a Pattern of unspeakable proportion. The Pattern contains everything that is, completely fixed in succession, all the minimal particles interconnected in every way that is. Every way that is is not every conceivable way, because not everything that can be conceived is manifest in the pattern." "THE Human, you, is a miniscule but essential part of that pattern. In it lies complete fulfillment. It will never become something it is not, but it will never need to be anything else." - Wiccan_Seeker "If boring drudgery was the way of the universe, everything would have killed itself long ago." - Spacerific
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Re: Is it weird to think that I am be a human deity? [Re: crkhd]
#21190327 - 01/28/15 08:33 AM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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I have a enlightening self taught guru move. Stand naked in front of a mirror after reading some evolution nonsense for 20 minutes and you will become enlightened.
Edited by Jaegar (01/28/15 08:36 AM)
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