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Anonymous #1

Schizophrenia or just drugs?
    #21180979 - 01/26/15 04:57 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Over the summer I decided to go to a festival, I never went to one before so I was pretty excited at the time about it. I decided that I wanted to roll since it was well over a year, I found a random person who was selling Molly, unfortunately I was really stupid about it because now that I look back on it was definitely not Molly. I dropped it and about 30 minutes later I started feeling the effects, it came on very strongly and started to get extremely intense, the effects of it were very frightening to the point that I just wanted it over, I was having completely insane inchorrent thoughts and I felt like I was going crazy, about a month later I decided to trip which wasn't too bad. However the after effects of all of this started to kick in. People were bullying me at work and I thought I was literally schizophrenic. I was hearing voices over the summer in class but when the fall came around these voices were close to non existant to where I was completely coherent. I knew for a fact that my state of mind improved.

But than I started noticing something, everytime I would walk around some people would start rubbing their ears, I felt like they implied that I have schizophrenia or something, I felt like people could tell but I also knew that it would be an extremely hard thing for people to realize unless you were acting like you were crazy but it was still hard to scratch off for me. I managed to do extremely well for the fall semester making the dean's list which required a GPA of a 3.5 or greater, I was also in engineering classes at the time.

However what bugs me out is that I keep obsessinbg about the fact that my speech is detoriating which I don't even know if it really is I mean sometimes I would stutter, but still I feel like something's wrong with me. I would hear voices when I smoke weed but I knew they weren't real, these hallucinations became substantially more realistic when I was on weed. I would hallucinate slightly in public from time to time however these were extremely minor and were somewhat hard to make out or only consisted of a few words. The hallucinations weren't complex, I didn't give them names or anything like that and they weren't my friends or enemies and I just ignored them unless I was high which made it harder. What scares me though is the fact that I'm hallucinating, this has happened before in the past from a series of bad LSD trips which I ended up recovering from. But I'm scared I don't know what to do, I'm not even scared of the hallucinations but I'm more scared of developing negative symptoms because I don't know what I would do if I had to go to school like that, it would be obvious that I wouldn't be able to learn. Another thing is that whenever I would look at people I would look at them and think as if I was thinking towards them like as if I was talking to them though I didn't think I was inserting thoughts in their head (I don't know if this is OCD or something), I would also have crazy thoughts about really fucked up shit and acted like I was invincinble. I have improved but I don't know if this is because of drugs, I tripped around 60 times in the past two years. It should also be noted that I am on the high functioning autistic spectrum. Also when people would talk I would also think when they were saying something they were saying it in a different way as if it was directed towards me. I haven't tripped in 5 months and all in all I have improved a good amount but there are still residual effects, could this be drugs or schizophrenia. About five years ago the same thing happened with LSD but it was much more intense.

I also feel slight pressure in my head, I obsess a lot about stuff and always do everything really quickly, I tend to overthink a lot.

I'm so confused and it's honestly eating me up inside because I've seen people with it before so it really fucking scares me.

Please can anyone help me, I've done so well in school this past year, I don't want a mental illness to ruin the passion that I love.

Are drugs capable of doing this? Even if you don't have an underlying mental illness?

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Anonymous #2

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #1] * 1
    #21184764 - 01/27/15 02:28 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

schizophrenia is a set of symptoms not a story

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Anonymous #3

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21184810 - 01/27/15 02:52 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

pattern recognition

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Anonymous #4

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #1] * 1
    #21184821 - 01/27/15 03:02 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Quit using drugs, and find out if it's the drugs, or a real mental illness:shrug:

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Anonymous #5

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #3] * 1
    #21184825 - 01/27/15 03:04 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

the dark side of autism! see your doctor :smile: sounds like a long bout of phychosis.

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Anonymous #6

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? *DELETED* [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21184846 - 01/27/15 03:22 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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Edited by Anonymous (01/27/15 03:29 AM)

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Anonymous #7

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #6]
    #21185120 - 01/27/15 06:59 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

You are experiencing psychotic symptoms.

It remains to be seen how much of it is kept going by you taking drugs and how much it will continue if you quit taking drugs.

Quit taking drugs, you have classic psychotic symptoms. Then if it doesnt clear in a few weeks absolutely go see a doctor.

If you dare, come tell your story in PSSS

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Anonymous #1

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #7]
    #21185440 - 01/27/15 09:00 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Okay so if it improves after 5 months of taking pscyhs but is still there than how could it be schizophrenia? I took lsd at 18 and recovered from it, if I was going to have schizophrenia wouldn't of it already happened than instead of now?

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Anonymous #6

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? *DELETED* [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21185577 - 01/27/15 09:36 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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Anonymous #1

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #6]
    #21188461 - 01/27/15 07:53 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

I should also mention that the only time I hear any voices is when I'm around my sister who also severe mental problems, she was raped years ago and has become increasingly unstable, she's also admitted to doing this. I rarely hear it out in public and when I do it's extremely minor to the point where it's just single words, there's no advanced complexity behind it. The hallucinations over time have improved after no longer using psychs. My therapist also told me that it's very unlikely that I have it and that it is probably linked to drugs but I feel like maybe a doctor knows more.

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Anonymous #6

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? *DELETED* [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21189850 - 01/28/15 03:17 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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Anonymous #1

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #6]
    #21191066 - 01/28/15 11:41 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

No it happened at a club someone drugged her drink, we have more of a history of addiction than mental illness really.

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    #21191573 - 01/28/15 01:13 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

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Anonymous #2

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #6]
    #21192398 - 01/28/15 04:19 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

I think that re-occuring schizophrenia is bullshit the doctors peddle to get people on their drugs

and then when they get off their drugs the schizophrenia may pop it's head up again because they aren't used to it

that's my philosophy, alcohol.

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Anonymous #1

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #2]
    #21194519 - 01/28/15 11:25 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

I'm just scared of being put on anti-psychotics that could hinder my energy and ability to do the work that I do. I still occasionally use drugs from time to time but that's just amps, I also never experienced negative symptoms my work has been superb I was in the top 20% for 80% of my classes last semester. I just don't want to be hindered by meds

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Anonymous #2

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21194673 - 01/29/15 12:03 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Stuff just kills your libido anyway, I like my beauty rest and prefer to know when I'm about to fall asleep at work.

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Anonymous #4

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #21196211 - 01/29/15 11:45 AM (9 years, 3 months ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:
I'm just scared of being put on anti-psychotics that could hinder my energy and ability to do the work that I do. I still occasionally use drugs from time to time but that's just amps, I also never experienced negative symptoms my work has been superb I was in the top 20% for 80% of my classes last semester. I just don't want to be hindered by meds




Just amps, that is the one drug, if used enough, will make me, and everyone who stays up for days on end batshit crazy!

Ever smoke crack? that drug there, will make some crazy off of one hit, like omg, the cops are at the door, or they will peak out the blinds, and hear sirens, and dogs barking.

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Anonymous #1

Re: Schizophrenia or just drugs? [Re: Anonymous #4]
    #21218614 - 02/02/15 09:42 PM (9 years, 3 months ago)

I did binge out on mephedrone like  4 years ago and had a pscyhosis result from it that lasted for nearly 30 days, it was some pretty scary shit but this is far from comparable to that, it's very very small compared to mcat episodes.

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