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shroom100
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Path To Power
#21171207 - 01/24/15 01:47 PM (9 years, 3 months ago) |
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I want to live my fantasies.I have a dislike for mundane people and life.But those still have power on me.Especially pain and some punishments.I believe if i gain enough power i can live my fantasies.Sometimes i come close to a point thinking that i will die trying to live like a want.I accept any punishment that may result from such a life.Then i remember mundane life , people and the power those have on me.My brain works different.I don't enjoy most of the things others enjoy.To adapt mundane world i have to kill myself , my soul.I don't remember the last time i felt the joy.I am just living not to get punished etc but i cannot live , feel alive.To be myself , to have a really enjoyable life i need to be sure that mundane people and life will not anymore have power on me.Then i can be free , i can be myself.I may fail , stopped by mundane but i would at least have tried.Sometimes when i am doing rituals etc i feel good , strong especially in my dreams.But when i am in mundane world they have power on me.
So how can i ensure that i have power on mundane people and life , be sure they can't hurt me?
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PatrickKn



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shroom100 said: So how can i ensure that i have power on mundane people and life , be sure they can't hurt me?
By making yourself more useful to them than they are to you, in a way that they feel the need to reciprocate usefulness back to you?
Interesting question.
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saenchai
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Hide your light under a bushel until you reach a level of financial self sufficiency that you can tell anybody you meet to drop dead. As bad as that sounds, I understand how you feel because I experienced it since I was a kid. People who are convinced of their own smallness or scared of their own expansion are going to try to cut you down or make you feel bad just for being who you are because your physical and energetic presence in their lives threatens their sense of reality. You have to learn to completely stop pinging off their realities so you dont feel like shit having to play the game for however long it is necessary for you to. Go start a business or something. Read the fountainhead
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