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Stranger Registered: 01/19/15 Posts: 2,770 Loc: South Florida Last seen: 3 years, 11 months |
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I know that I have been down in the past but this time I believe I have broken ground on a new low in my life.
I used to believe that I was going somewhere in my life, that I knew what I wanted to do and nothing could stop me. I had a passion for learning and an inquisitive nature about the world. I wanted to learn things just so that I could know them and I always wondered about the mysteries of the universe and our planet. But now I'm lucky to be able to find the energy to get out of bed in the morning. My inquisitive nature has stabbed me in the back this time. Diving through the internet and reading on things like mind control, the government, conspiracy, being a sheep, and just outright being controlled have destroyed me inside. I find it hard to get excited about anything anymore. Everything just feels so pointless. It's got me wondering about quitting college, but then what? What about a job? Is psychology really what I want to study when I know it can be used to manipulate people? Am I realizing a dream of my own or just "going with the system"? I've been on anti-depressants for a while now but they hardly do anything for me. It's my mind, and how these thoughts manage to resurrect and drain my spirit every time. I don't know if these are true, I can't prove or verify them myself. But the thought of them makes my life feel pointless. I've considered ending my life a couple times, death being a release from the torment (this wouldn't be the first time). But something holds me back from going all the way, a thin thread tethering me to this plane. I'm nearing my wit's end here, I'm not sure what I can do now to "feel" again like in my teens. TO grab that passion for learning back and my inquisitiveness. Because right now I'm in the doldrums without a compass or a map. -------------------- As lightless oblivion devours you, drown in the ever-blooming darkness.
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Psilo-Scribe Registered: 11/26/09 Posts: 1,333 Loc: Altered States o Last seen: 4 days, 11 hours |
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Quote: Back in the day, we used to read actual books, which are a lot less depressing than conspiracy theories on the internet. There's a very funny character in a Dean Koontz book called "77 Shadow Street" who's obsessed with conspiracies, it's a good book and an easy read if you are bored. I find that novels are a good way of engaging in something that takes you out of your normal thought patterns and into someone elses. Sometimes you find that writers or characters express thoughts and feelings that seem surprisingly similar to your own, in books that were written 50 or 100 years ago. As for life being pointless, there's a quote somewhere about most people "leading lives of quiet desperation" which sometimes seems to be true. However, when you embrace the underlying pointlessness of existence, it does free you in a way. There is a humour in the despair and a fascination in the everyday mindlessness of things. Sometimes you have to find something small to be excited or pleased about, even when the big picture looks bleak. When you walk around, take a proper look at your surroundings, at the people, you will see things you never noticed before. There's a way of looking at the world where you regard the whole thing as a kind of artwork that you are exploring; there is beauty even in the ugly side of life. I wouldn't quit college just based on the kind of feelings you are having. If you can get a good education you are more likely to be able to find a job that gives you some sense of purpose, even if it's just paying the rent. Psychology is a big subject area, use your doubts to study it critically rather than just dismissing it. I would guess it's not unusual for people to come out of their teens, or finish education, or start work, and at some point think to themselves "is this it?". It can take a while to find some new kind of meaning in your life, it did for me. Part of the problem with depression is that you are being controlled "from inside" rather than by the government or anyone else. You can't always trust your own mind to give you an accurate impression of reality, it can make things look much darker than they really are. If you are interested in conspiracy, and studying psychology, you might be interested in a book called "The Air Loom Gang" by Mike Jay, which is about the case of a mental patient in the 1800s who had one of the most complicated paranoid delusions ever recorded. I haven't read the book yet but from the blurb it looks fascinating. It's getting interested in this kind of random shit that keeps you going even when the rest of your life seems a tedious drudge. Sometimes you have to deal with life the same way you deal with a bad trip - it helps to recognize the thought loops and the lack of perspective and realize that your current mental state is neither fixed nor reliable. Sometimes you can break out of the doldrums yourself, and sometimes the weather in your head changes by itself and you find yourself smiling in the street for no apparent reason.
-------------------- I wrote that, but I meant something else
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Uhh...doctor gonzo? Registered: 03/29/13 Posts: 5,187 Loc: Breathing down y |
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You know what's irrelevent but brought my life some meaning..
I almost ended my life a few weeks back but read a short story A ridicoulous man http://www.fiftytwostories.com/? Saved my life, I don't how, but it made me think that humanity once was beautiful. That one point in time people lead happy life's.. Please just read it It also describes a man in low point,of his life who manages to find some beauty. -------------------- **need a check up?** **im a Doctor** ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() i sometimes wish I was a wormy, wiggling all in the cold dirt...tickle tackle pickle dickle think a mackshift thought of broken words broken gears and words of conundrums..I'm not a weiner doctor so take that shit to dr. Gonz free boob inplant consultations.. Photo required
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- - - > Registered: 10/13/12 Posts: 4,923 Last seen: 9 years, 1 month |
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Quote: Dude, there's an INCREDIBLY AWESOME compass and map. Hell it's not even map and compass, it's an unbelievably awesome state of the art GPS system, guiding you ALL THE TIME towards what you need to be doing with your life. I'll post it, you go ahead and ignore it, and we can continue on our respective paths, but don't fucking tell me there's no map and compass. Here it is: Wham. In yo face. What have you been focusing on? When you were a kid and a teen, awesome fun stuff. Yay, happy times. Going outside, sticking sticks in the mud, joy joy joy. What have you been doing lately? Focusing on reasons to fear, to block your breath. Focusing on your issues. Fuck the universe, fuck the planet, fuck the gorgeous, gorgeous, smoking rocking babes out there in perfectly good mating mood, no, fuck all that, you're going to endlessly focus on you. Then google how other similar disempowered dudes deal with their disempowerment, and oh yeah, pills! Awesome. We're going to stay indoors and take pills. Surely staying indoors and taking pills will make life green and sweet and awesome. Yay. Did it work out for you? From where I'm standing, you're getting PRECISELY the amount of good vibes back, that you put out. You're receiving PRECISELY in proportion to how smart you were with your designs. Sit ass on couch talk to therapist, take pills, sit indoors look on the internets just like everyone else does? Minimal creativity, originality and initative? Then OK, you get back precisely the same stuff everyone else is getting. Quote: What about a job? Have you actually taken time to see yourself, I mean REALLY see where you want to be going? Have you taken a good long look at your future plans, and KEEP SEARCHING AND DESIGNING until you actually, truly breathe easy about it? Something tells me you haven't. Something tells me you've been busy chewing other people's words, as opposed to seeing how you breathe about things, which is your best GPS about these matters, or about anything in life. How do you breathe about girls? How do you breathe about job, future, career plans, if you have any? How do you breathe about food, sports, your voice and physical appearance? How do you breathe about hour room and house? Of course none of this will be visible to you, if instead of taking time to notice your breath, you are busy busy busy chewing or spewing words, reading text text text with insufficient time to process it, not getting out in nature enough so it can work on you and help you make sense of these matters. And no, they will in fact NOT make sense to anyone that keeps their hands hanging limp at the sides of their body, instead of putting them to some actual movement, exploration and work. Quote: You'll reincarnate right here all over again, you're not going to go to the next level until you clear this one. No matter what life form you come as, there's only one question. Can you breathe easy, or do you tense up? Try this stuff, any mammal or anything you see, that's alive. That is the one question. Can you continue doing your thing, keeping the rhythm, breathing easy, muscles relaxed, or do you get stuck, cut your breath and tense your muscles, wasting all your strength on nothing? Quote: Dude, your "inquisitive nature" is in fact NOT INQUISITIVE ENOUGH. YOu've stopped your analysis WAY short of reaching a useful conclusion. Lucky for you, you're reading the right post at the right time. Unless you're dumb enough to glaze over and ignore it, in which case never mind this whole thing ![]() ALL problem solving you should be involving yourself with is: design and investigate UNTIL YOU BREATHE EASY about it. YOu don't stop investigating a topic, whatever it is, UNTIL you are chill and breathe easy. If you read or see something happening, and it gets you shocked, in crisis, breathing in panic-mode, all confused and shook up, GOOD. That's the START of the process. That's the BEGINNING of the story. You shouldn't be medicating against the confusion like a bitch, you should be studying HARD, what about the conspiracies? What about MOnsanto? What about the primates that try to ban everything that's good and fun? I can tell you the planet and universe make PERFECT sense. I could give you more of my model of the world, but at the very least you have to start formulating some proper questions, not the rushed anxious nonsensical noise of a guy in panic. Nevermind the corporations. Take some fucking control of your breath. Go outside and run until you're actually sweating and panting. Go and pump iron until your muscles actually hurt. Get yourself tired. Then go crash on a bed and sleep. THEN, THE NEXT DAY, you'll start breathing a little bit right. THEN is the time to start thinking, about anything, not on a flimsy incomplete shallow breath. The quality of your thinking is INCREDIBLY close to the quality of your breathing. The answers that you seek, the theoretical explanations of what about the conspiracies, jobs and corporations, those are trivial. I could give them to you now, or you could find them for yourself in a few days of googling and thinking, but they're ABSOLUTELY no good to a person that can't be fucked to start paying attention how they breathe and move. You tell me, what good is a perfectly accurate map to someone that's way too lazy to get off their ass? It's not "life" and conspiracies that you have a problem with. Not at all. It doesn't work like that. I could give you all the answers, you'll still feel like shit. You could win a million dollars, you'd still feel like shit, because the main reasons you feel like shit are completely your doing, it's all internal. It's shallow breathing and discounting your own emotions, your own GPS, in favor of what others think you should feel or do. The firm belief that you've chosen for yourself, that somehow Terence McKenna is somehow smarter than you, that you can't figure anything out, that you're best served by being a child, always breathing tense, eyes open to another, to show you what to do, because you have no faith that your own emotions and insights will guide you true. In fact they will. They are the ONLY thing that ever does. You can figure PLENTY out, it just requires that you start moving, breathing and actually looking inwards for a change. Don't you worry about the world, the world is absolutely perfectly fine. The ozone layer, Monsanto, advertising, pollution, everything. Trust me, all handled, very well under control, zero need to panic. The ONLY question mark here is your ability to breathe, to control your own limb movements, attention, what you put eyes and ears on. Now start formulating and expressing what you actually want, expressed your desired state and situation, and we'll get under way to actually making it happen. But explain it, show it, describe it in some detail, or you can't design it. So what would you like from here on? How would you like to exist? Express in the positive, be clear, hold the buts (as in, but I can't because) as we'll design around all of that later. What'll it be?
-------------------- For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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Big Questions Small Head Registered: 01/14/10 Posts: 8,781 Loc: straya Last seen: 7 years, 11 months |
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I think depressions like these are just chemical predicaments caused by previous drug use or it's in your genes. I used to believe in the power of mind and lifestyle change but, nah, just chemicals. Try antidepressants. There are studies saying they work beautifully and studies saying they don't work at all, but it's really up to you to find out if they work... the doctors are there waiting, they are nice people, the internet is a stupid place for information on anything really.
-------------------- My solitude... My shield... My armour... TESTED WITH FULL FORCE
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- - - > Registered: 10/13/12 Posts: 4,923 Last seen: 9 years, 1 month |
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Quote: Dude. Could you be any more passive, sitting on chairs and taking chemicals? You have several threads asking how to be able to continue sitting indoors at your comp, doing nothing, yet not feeling shitty from overthinking. I've taken ample time to explain to you there that it can't be done. There is no such animal. You either take some chances with actual life, out there, and win some lose some but feel awesome for trying, or you sit indoors seeing life through a computer screen, wondering what could have been. It's this last type that ends up taking probably 90% of the damn mood pills. The chemicals you speak of are part of a process, of a loop, and they're an effect that you don't have direct control over. The nutrition and movement and thought patterns you run, those influence the chemicals, and since it's a loop, the chemicals also influence the movement and thought patterns. But the point where you grab that loop by the horns is breath, thought and movement, not taking pills pills pills and remaining in inactivity. Feel free to send OP to "doctors that are there waiting, really nice people". You are sending him pretty much into a life like yours, taking pills and waiting and waiting for years and years. Look around. A TON of kids and teens these days, staying indoors and endlessly focusing on their own issues, building lives devoid of pleasure, art, friends and anything worth living through, when if they'd just go outside and start doing some shit (whatever they personally like doing) they'd start to get motion, momentum, sunlight, nutrients, ACTUAL FEEDBACK from reality, as opposed to flimsy imagined feedback from the endless thought loops in their head. Hell in fact I hope OP takes your advice and starts bringing a ton of pills and docs into his life, then spend the next 20 years coming here making threads about fucking angst and the pointlessness of his life, for me to be amused by. The rest of us will be here tripping, festivaling, dancing and enjoying life. -------------------- For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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Uhh...doctor gonzo? Registered: 03/29/13 Posts: 5,187 Loc: Breathing down y |
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Quote: Best advice I've ever read of yours -------------------- **need a check up?** **im a Doctor** ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() i sometimes wish I was a wormy, wiggling all in the cold dirt...tickle tackle pickle dickle think a mackshift thought of broken words broken gears and words of conundrums..I'm not a weiner doctor so take that shit to dr. Gonz free boob inplant consultations.. Photo required
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Stranger Registered: 01/19/15 Posts: 2,770 Loc: South Florida Last seen: 3 years, 11 months |
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But how am I supposed to make sense of stuff like this :
http://themindunleashed.org/2015 http://www.wakingtimes.com/2015/ The notion that my thoughts are not my own and neither are my actions. The possibility that it all may be a lie. -------------------- As lightless oblivion devours you, drown in the ever-blooming darkness.
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- - - > Registered: 10/13/12 Posts: 4,923 Last seen: 9 years, 1 month |
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Quote: Dude. How do you deal with the possibility of Satan, Xenu, Chthulu and other nonsense? You go about your life in joy and harmony, and can't be fucked for one second about the writing of some people that are completely irrelevant to the direct experience of your life. OR you have no ideas of wtf to do, what girls to chat up, what skills to work on, and then get lost in completely pointless books and fears and ridiculous ideas cooked up by ubernerds, and you become an even bigger nerd yourself. How do you deal with it? Like this: YOU DON'T START THINKING ABOUT THAT CRAP IN THE FIRST PLACE. For people that are looking to be idle and worry, they'll find shit to be idle and disempowered and worried about. Muslims, Monsanto, whatever. Damn, somebody gimme more scary things that start with M Seriously dude, just how inactive are you in daily life? Name 5 things you do in your day, that don't involve sitting your ass on a chair or a toilet. I highly suspect you don't really have them, it's all reading crap online and then sitting around indoors worrying about it as if somehow it's important, boo hoo life sucks, everything is dangerous. Fun fact, I didn't even read the links you posted, because I know for a fact they're both irrelevant and retarded and contribute NOTHING to a sense of empowerment. The fact that you actively go around looking for things to disempower yourself with, is what's happening here. It's a completely willing choice, you're going OUT OF YOUR WAY to find this crap to worry. It absolutely boggles my mind that you found it in the uber-empowering messages of Terence McKenna. That must have taken EXTREME mental effort, and looking REALLY HARD for the fear and the negatives, disregarding all the rest (99% at least). Life is most definitely NOT dangerous, nor is it pointless, nor do you lack freedom in any imaginable way. Observe: Now are you done feeling sorry for yourself, can you start looking for shit to actually do and contribute to, or do you plan to worry worry and frown and breathe shallowly some more? I mean feel free to do so, nobody can breathe your air for you ![]() Sooner or later you're EXTREMELY likely to look back on all the awesome relationships and good times you've been missing out on, while frowning to no end about some obscure text, and if I may say so, a very poorly chosen one. Didn't you have a thing for Buddhism? Why aren't you reading about the wonderful life and teachings of the Buddha? Do you know of Alan Watts? Have you tried listening to his lectures for a change? One message is that it's always YOU choosing who to believe. Whether you get more into Buddhism, more into Atheism, Islam, $cientology, wherever there's a giving away of belief, of power, it's always YOU making the choice. Are you making that choice intelligently? You're a young man that (at least to my mind) should be exploring nice young girls, fun interesting hobbies, useful engaging empowering education in any field that you feel drawn to, etc. At which point of this process are you being helped by reading about psychopaths and conspiracies and all manner of woo woo? -------------------- For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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Stranger Registered: 01/19/15 Posts: 2,770 Loc: South Florida Last seen: 3 years, 11 months |
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But what if this stuff turns out to be true? What if my life has been a lie up til now and my actions are not my own? That I've basically been a puppet? All along being a puppet used by society? Where would I go from there?
Are you basically saying to just forget it, whether or not it is true? -------------------- As lightless oblivion devours you, drown in the ever-blooming darkness.
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- - - > Registered: 10/13/12 Posts: 4,923 Last seen: 9 years, 1 month |
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Quote: Into bouncy bouncy Into scuba diving to work marine biology with the fishy fishes and the coraly corals. Look: ![]() If you get your head out of your ass and out of the useless conspiracy websites for a while this could be your day job, or your date with your girlfriend. Have you ever had one by the way? Something tells me you have an incredibly high chance of being a virgin. So no tripping, little or no sex, all you have there is antidepressants and pointless texts to worry about. That's why life is pointless. Extreme poverty of content in it. No color no texture no taste no hugs no love no boobies. Hell if my life was like that, I'd feel it's pointless too ![]() Quote: By no means do I mean you should forget it. In fact, I WANT YOU TO FIGURE THIS OUT ALL THE WAY, just fucking do it properly. Do as follows: Start working out. Get awesomely fit. You'll need the oxygen carrying capacity to do proper thinking. Trust me on this one, pro chess players do this too. Get a girl. Start fucking and dating. You'll need the oxytocin and good balance and chill vibes from the shoulder massages. Get chill with the money. Find way to do the money bit, so your head is not worried about that, and can concentrate one conspiracies PROPERLY. THEN AND ONLY THEN are you to start tackling Monsanto, aliens, govt. or interdimensional control, loss of personality, your thoughts not being your own, etc. For comparison, look what kind of shitty attitude and effort you bring to it now. You're probably a virgin, even if not, still definitely a loner, probably out of shape, haven't done any sports this past month, if not the past couple of years or even ever, I'm quite suspicious of your diet, you don't have the nutrients, I know for a fact you breathe like a weak nerd, you don't have the oxygen carrying capacity, you're plagued with a bunch of unresolved sexual tension and issues, and with that head you are trying to tackle issues like govt. control and corporations. I mean really? C'mon dude. Let's say you were that guy Nick Fury, from the Avengers. You're played by badass Samuel L. Jackson. You run an awesome organization of agents and super heroes, looking to defend the Earth from all manner of sinister forces. Would you even consider accepting on your team a guy that shows up to help, in your current state? Out of shape, pardon my French, wuss, can't get a girl, afraid of his own shadow, really bad eye for choosing his research material, dwelling forever on everything. Would you even let this guy near your awesome building? So by all means explore ALL the conspiracies you want, but just do it properly. On a full stomach, clear head, relaxed shoulders, deep breath, properly sexed up, etc. Go join a martial arts class, get your strength back (oh and your balls, very useful when tackling any worthwhile enemy) and then in about 2 months, you'll be in shape to pick up this conspiracy research again. As it is now, you're disempowered as fuck. Even if you find out any of it is true (which I highly doubt) WHAT WOULD YOU DO ABOUT IT, from this current shitty state you've put yourself in? Who would listen to you? Why would they? Don't you see? I'm an EXTREMELY patient dude, I've taken a bunch of time out of my life to write this post, and even I couldn't be fucked to click on your links, the way you currently posted them. In this disempowered state, your chances of rallying anybody to your cause is very very close to nothing. So dump the texts. Go get your hands on something TO DO and sweat it for a few months, grow learn enjoy, you'll feel way, WAY better. -------------------- For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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FPSnosurrender Registered: 02/13/09 Posts: 3,720 |
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idk maybe a quickie like,
pretend your sick with a random illness and just start doing research about how would pull yourself out of that situation. its uplifting it gives security into things because of the knowledge going on. Plus and lets you get at that portion which helps knowledge of self/health.
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Stranger Registered: 01/19/15 Posts: 2,770 Loc: South Florida Last seen: 3 years, 11 months |
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Well I'm gay so the whole women part is lost on me, but that's besde the point. I'm currently in a relationship but this whole business about these thoughts has been putting a bg strain on it.
-------------------- As lightless oblivion devours you, drown in the ever-blooming darkness.
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CH Registered: 10/30/09 Posts: 2,011 Loc: PNW Last seen: 9 months, 28 days |
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I remember thinking about killing myself. Once I realized how fast time goes by and how I'll be 80 before I know it, I realized I could just wait it out or something else could kill me. At the very least if I waited it out I could do whatever the fuck I wanted. It freed me up man
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- - - > Registered: 10/13/12 Posts: 4,923 Last seen: 9 years, 1 month |
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Quote: Correction, YOU have been putting a big strain on it. Think dude, think. YOU chose to go into these weird research areas, YOU chose to ignore how that activity made you feel (going toward MORE disempowerment as opposed to less) and continued to take in more and more of this crap, although it made you more and more disturbed, anxious, fearful. It's a lot like someone starting to eat a bad apple, not giving a shit to even taste what they're eating, and instead of stopping after the first bite they just eat the whole thing. Then the next day another one, the next day another one, and then 3-4 months later, once they've eaten TRAYS AND TRAYS of dubious rotting apples, their digestive system and nutrient balance royally messed up, they say "oh, turns out the fungus and bacteria in my apples seem to have caused me to be sick. Why doesn't God/the governnment/the FDA/Xenu/Terence McKenna do something about the existence of bad apples? What a terrible world!" It's not a terrible world, it's just the tendency of some people to be so careless with themselves to just mechanically do shit that they see others doing, not really checking with their own body's reactions. You've been absent-mindedly going into things without checking if they're giving you more power and emotional good vibes, or more disempowerment. They've been making you breathe more tense about life, as opposed to more happy, and now we're blaming "the thoughts" for a shitty relationship. The thoughts are an effect of you reading and taking in LOADS of material that's not helpful for you. You CHOSE it. You CHOSE to ignore that it's just making you feel more tension, not more engagement with life, more challenge and good vibes. Start choosing other stuff and you'll bounce right back but nobody can make that choice for you. Or maybe they can if you can't be bothered. Get a life coach. They'll invariably ask you exactly what I'm asking you. What would you like to do? So far I've heard zero answers to that ![]() But see, I have a feeling than rather than changing what you're actually doing there, you're WAY more likely to think for 3 seconds and then type another poorly thought out reply, with a bunch of spelling errors. What I am trying to say is that the attention you put on things, whether you stop and check if they work for you or not, that will keep you going towards better and better things and experiences, or conversely, towards absolutely random outcomes (like depressed, dead, addicted to various chemicals or people or ideas) that just aren't that fun to go into. It's NOT the things outside, it's how you navigate and fly around them. Comfy patterns or really poorly designed, rough, uphill draining patterns. Right now it's obvious where we are. If you ever want to get out, you'll have to start thinking about these things. What do you want to do? How do you want to feel? Write it. Sketch it. Draw it. Detail it. See what helps. See what hinders. Make lists. Get active. Flap those damn wings, or you'll remain crawling in the mud. I could take some time out of my life to explain any Terence McKenna stuff to you that you're worried about, to dispel these current worries and shitty breathing patterns you've made for yourself, but it would make absolutely no difference whatsoever on the long run. While you wander through life oblivious to your breath and emotions, lazily relying on pills to regulate your neural activity, whatever worries anyone dispels for you today, you'll replace with a dozen more tomorrow. If anyone dispels those, you'll find a hundred more to worry about. It's your chosen cycle and you won't get out of it until YOU start paying attention and choose loops and cycles that you actually want to be in. In information intake terms, you can't really clean all the bad apples from the life of someone that just doesn't give a shit what they're eating, that doesn't use their own taste buds. You should look around these forums more, see what kind of issues rushed pill-ed up Americans tend to end up in, the kind of people that post like you, one line answers with spelling errors, showing they're absent-mindedly rushing through YET ANOTHER action in their rushed unanalyzed life. Oh and if you think I'm hard on you and busting your balls, that's a function of you being unclear as hell. Declare here what you're actually looking to do, what you HAVE energy for and interest in, spell it out, and you'll find I'm very willing to helping you get there. But YOU have to start bringing in some quality focus. It's YOUR life. -------------------- For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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Big Questions Small Head Registered: 01/14/10 Posts: 8,781 Loc: straya Last seen: 7 years, 11 months |
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-------------------- My solitude... My shield... My armour... TESTED WITH FULL FORCE
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FPSnosurrender Registered: 02/13/09 Posts: 3,720 |
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Don't know what to say either.
Just find that passion. Spacer elaborates on it which is very mindful. Edited by foodsgoodtoo (01/24/15 07:49 PM)
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Uhh...doctor gonzo? Registered: 03/29/13 Posts: 5,187 Loc: Breathing down y |
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Quote: You gotta lot of time on your hands.. Lol And Ifor some odd reason I magine you explaining your advice through Keith urbans voice.. Idk why. Just seems Australian
-------------------- **need a check up?** **im a Doctor** ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() i sometimes wish I was a wormy, wiggling all in the cold dirt...tickle tackle pickle dickle think a mackshift thought of broken words broken gears and words of conundrums..I'm not a weiner doctor so take that shit to dr. Gonz free boob inplant consultations.. Photo required
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- - - > Registered: 10/13/12 Posts: 4,923 Last seen: 9 years, 1 month |
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Quote: Just prepping for the propaganda books that I'll need to be writing in a few years, once I start my cult ![]() Quote: You know you're the second person to tell me I sound Australian here on the Shroomery, in the span of a week or two? I wonder what sounds Aussie about me, over text
-------------------- For truly, I say to you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it. - Matthew 13:16
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Adventurer Registered: 01/22/15 Posts: 4 Loc: EU Last seen: 9 years, 3 months |
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What helped me out of a kind of similar depressive hole was the realization that life probably is pointless in the vastness of space. So I thought to myself… why bother.
Pondering on this pointlessness for months on end, being a total fucktard bum in the process, I reached an epiphany. Meaning doesn't exist out there, in the grand scheme of things. Meaning comes from within. Meaning comes from the people, things, activites in life. So I got off my ass and started living. It was hard, but pretty straight forward. Got a job, hit the gym for a few months. Got some friends, a girlfriend etc. Now I'm back on my ass, lost my friends (turns out they were shelfish dickwads), girlfriend dumped me etc. Not at square 1. I can keep a job but not much else has happened in my life for the past few months. Then I walked across these posts by Spacerific above*, which have reminded me of what's important. Basically what he is saying is that we all need a healthy basis on which to build meaning. Basic physiological and psychological needs have to be fulfilled in order to... well... function. It's the simplest, most basic "theory" in psychology. http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/M Aren't you taught this shit in school these days?! *- Everything about said posts is a gross oversimplification put into context.
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