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TrIpPyDuDe
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I fucked around and got high on meth. I feel bad that I did. I haven't used in 2,weeks besides just a little bit ago I just smoked two boats. That's all. And I really don't want to stay up. It was just there and I smoked it.
Is it bad I slipped up and smoked? I'm grown but I know I make my own chooses. I'm trying to better my self and help with my depression without meth. And that's why I'm getting into mushrooms. Should I do meditation tonight. Our wait until my sober.
When I use meditation as a tool it shows me what mistake I made and how to fix it.
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Don't feel bad about it, nobody is perfect. It's only human to make mistakes. If you take it out on yourself, you will be more likely to slip up again. What's important is that you don't go and make the same mistake again tomorrow, the day after, etc. One day at a time, my friend.
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TrIpPyDuDe said: I fucked around and got high on meth. I feel bad that I did. I haven't used in 2,weeks besides just a little bit ago I just smoked two boats. That's all. And I really don't want to stay up. It was just there and I smoked it.
Is it bad I slipped up and smoked? I'm grown but I know I make my own chooses. I'm trying to better my self and help with my depression without meth. And that's why I'm getting into mushrooms. Should I do meditation tonight. Our wait until my sober.
When I use meditation as a tool it shows me what mistake I made and how to fix it.
How much did you smoke you don't even seem spun bro.
My recommendation is to watch some porn, blast some music, chill out and rest.
96 percent of meth addicts who go to rehab relapse. It has the worst relapse rate out of any drug besides nicotine. Like you don't realize you are hooked but you are dude it's like an ape on your back.
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meditate. do breathing exercise to clear your chakras, it will help cleanse the meth fumes from your body.
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TrIpPyDuDe
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BlindSophist said: Don't feel bad about it, nobody is perfect. It's only human to make mistakes. What's important is that you don't go and make the same mistake again tomorrow, the day after, etc. One day at a time, my friend. 
Thanks, I'll just clean for the night. Try to keep my mind off of it. I just can't do it anymore I don't take care of myself when I'm on it. And I just need to chill that's all. You're right on day at a time.
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I relapsed once after trying to quit meth. You can't beat yourself up too hard but then again it's very healthy and a good thing that you feel so guilty about it. Use that as motivation to not touch it again rather than thinking "oh well I fucked up already so it doesnt matter that I use again"
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I know that feel, I had a problem with that drug for a couple years, it just kept getting worse and worse until I realized it would probably kill me if I didn't stop. I'm glad I did, there's no place in my life for a drug that literally makes me spend entire weekends watching porn and neglecting my health. Cleaning house is a great way to meditate though, and if you have trouble sleeping, just pop a benadryl or two and wash it down with a beer. If you're feeling weak from the anorexia, drink some milk. You got this.
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TrIpPyDuDe
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Just two big boats it's been an hour. I'm not spun I'm kinda high I hate this shit everytime I smoke I feel like something bad is going to happen.
But I'm glad I left before I smoked more. I'm trying. To better myself by working out, the shroomery has helped me so much these last two weeks. I'll just chill out and relax and eat something maybe shower.
How can I look less high, I don't want to look high around my dad he was nice enough to let me back in the house.
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TrIpPyDuDe said: I fucked around and got high on meth. I feel bad that I did. I haven't used in 2,weeks besides just a little bit ago I just smoked two boats. That's all. And I really don't want to stay up. It was just there and I smoked it.
Is it bad I slipped up and smoked? I'm grown but I know I make my own chooses. I'm trying to better my self and help with my depression without meth. And that's why I'm getting into mushrooms. Should I do meditation tonight. Our wait until my sober.
When I use meditation as a tool it shows me what mistake I made and how to fix it.
What a coincidence I too have been abusing the crystal for the past few days
I tell myself oh I'll stay off the shit for good this time I tell myself that every time I come down from a bender but I've realized it's kinda hard to do that when the shit practically finds its way to my nose for free most of the time
As good as it seems to feel it's not real and it's not worth the misery
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Definitely shower.
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TrIpPyDuDe
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I'm going to because my girlfriend will be home in an hour with my dad. I told them I was done most likely I'm going to need gum
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Yeah eat some food too if you can manage it
I've been awake for like so many hours now I can't even remember off the top of my head Like maybe in the range of 50-60?
I can't wait til I'm tired enough to fall asleep don't know how long that'll be though
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TrIpPyDuDe
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When I was using hardcore I was staying up for 8 to 12 days. I let my body go. I look much better now. Had my teeth fixed looking sexy again. Lmfao
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TrIpPyDuDe said: When I was using hardcore I was staying up for 8 to 12 days. I let my body go. I look much better now. Had my teeth fixed looking sexy again. Lmfao
Damn, I can't even imagine going that long. I always started to go seriously paranoid-psychotic at the second day without rest. It was the psychosis that really showed me my use was not tenable. Shouting at voices in your head is not the business, I'm just glad I never did anything crazy enough to get me institutionalized.
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TrIpPyDuDe
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Well I want to think everyone who helped me chill out. I was so freaked out. Now I'm really doing good now I'm giving you all a 5
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OsculateOfDemise



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We are here for ya!  It's a hard drug to stop, everyone I know has been affected by it in some way or another.
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