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Delyrium
lemonadeh.o.n.e.y.

Registered: 12/27/99
Posts: 5,941
Loc: vermont
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I'm not in love, so don't forget it
#2112279 - 11/16/03 07:32 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hrm. I think I lost the ability to love. I think I just turned into a stone. I'm a horrible person. I can honestly say I fell in love, it was real love, it was undeniable love, it was the sweetest love anyone could have possibly had - and I think I just put it to shit.
I must have built this defensive wall around myself. I can honestly say I have grown crushes on people, but love? Nope. Never again.
I have this habit... I enjoy being with someone for a certain amount of time and once they start getting comfortable with knowing how I feel about them... I immediately back away. I break everything we had apart.
I hurt people, and I've been told how horrible of a person I am.
Not only in a sexual relationship - but in my friends and family... I cannot love. I'm sure I say I do, and I'm sure I have the feelings that are very similar to it - but then why do I hurt them?
I suck at life.
-------------------- Fuck Ted Nugent he?s a fucking jerk
I wish that he?d be gone
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Psilygirl
cyan goddess


Registered: 08/28/03
Posts: 4,418
Loc: PNW
Last seen: 1 year, 4 months
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Re: I'm not in love, so don't forget it [Re: Delyrium]
#2112300 - 11/16/03 07:42 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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its probably just a defenese mechanism that you set up for yourself, did you get hurt that time you loved someone?
i went through a 2 year period where i couldnt love anyone, anytime i got semi-close to someone i backed out of the relationship.
hopefully, it will pass and its just your soul healing from something that hurt you. i still havent loved since all that happened to me, but i think if the right person came along i might be able to love again.
-------------------- "Love says 'I am everything.' Wisdom says 'I am nothing.' Between the two, my life flows."
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Idugh
Registered: 09/25/02
Posts: 1,292
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Re: I'm not in love, so don't forget it [Re: Delyrium]
#2113651 - 11/17/03 12:51 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hey, you can practice on me if you want too... Heh...
First off - Do you love yourself? It's pretty hard to relate to others if you can not relate to yourself.
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djfrog
omgws!!!1!

Registered: 10/23/00
Posts: 3,710
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Re: I'm not in love, so don't forget it [Re: Delyrium]
#2113728 - 11/17/03 01:12 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Its alright to do your own thing for now. Love is not a rational thing and you shouldn't beat yourself up for having feelings that don't make sense.
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Xibalba
Stranger
Registered: 05/14/00
Posts: 2,114
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Re: I'm not in love, so don't forget it [Re: Delyrium]
#2113941 - 11/17/03 02:11 AM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Edited by Xibalba (09/30/05 01:26 AM)
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