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Re: i will not be meek and humble... [Re: CosmicJoke] 1
#20961920 - 12/11/14 12:44 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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I believe that the Orange Berkeley microdots I had in 1973 were about 300 mcg. I insufflated 2 crushed ones, one in each nostril. That led to the revivification of my biological birth, but it probably was more intense a trip than if I had chewed/swallowed the tabs. When the rebirth subsided, I couldn't understand why a sobbing 19 year and 360 day old guy was lying in bed and not a neonate who had just been born. Psychosis. Metempsychosis. I needn't go back to such high doses either. The highest samadhi/jhana I ever experienced was after coming down from a mild yellow or blue microdot that I was using for reading and meditating during a Christmas holiday home from college. These were maybe 100 mcgs. I went to my bedroom to meditate against my bureau with the Japanese Buddha sitting on top, and Mark vanished. No words, no memories, no observing ego, just self-aware effulgent bluish-white transparency of "Unbearable Compassion" knowing itself as Pure Identity. Clear Light. When the Infinite Expanse contracted, it did do into a singularity of "Unbearable Compassion" which expanded from a Point in the Lotus of my Heart. A personal Big Bang. It was the experience which is symbolized by OM MANI PADME HUM. Mild acid on the come-down plus simple sitting. It was spontaneous and it was grace. That was 1974.
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Re: i will not be meek and humble... [Re: Icelander]
#20961955 - 12/11/14 12:54 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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Icelander said: Nice to see the middle path being practiced. 
it took me a long ass time to get there lol i was really stuck in the whole "self-denial / world denial" phase for the longest of time i think i just stayed there because at the time, i was truly afraid of the world and it's power.
afraid of my OWN power, too maybe. it's just limitless...the possibilities are endless. the world is such a beautiful place in all of it's love and hate and everything in between, it's just so crazy to ever deny it.
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Re: i will not be meek and humble... [Re: resonant111]
#20965215 - 12/12/14 04:53 AM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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MarkostheGnostic said: I believe that the Orange Berkeley microdots I had in 1973 were about 300 mcg. I insufflated 2 crushed ones, one in each nostril. That led to the revivification of my biological birth, but it probably was more intense a trip than if I had chewed/swallowed the tabs. When the rebirth subsided, I couldn't understand why a sobbing 19 year and 360 day old guy was lying in bed and not a neonate who had just been born. Psychosis. Metempsychosis. I needn't go back to such high doses either. The highest samadhi/jhana I ever experienced was after coming down from a mild yellow or blue microdot that I was using for reading and meditating during a Christmas holiday home from college. These were maybe 100 mcgs. I went to my bedroom to meditate against my bureau with the Japanese Buddha sitting on top, and Mark vanished. No words, no memories, no observing ego, just self-aware effulgent bluish-white transparency of "Unbearable Compassion" knowing itself as Pure Identity. Clear Light. When the Infinite Expanse contracted, it did do into a singularity of "Unbearable Compassion" which expanded from a Point in the Lotus of my Heart. A personal Big Bang. It was the experience which is symbolized by OM MANI PADME HUM. Mild acid on the come-down plus simple sitting. It was spontaneous and it was grace. That was 1974.
Hmm, you saying that reminds me that quite possibly the pinnacle of my existence occurred when I was 19yo on LSD. I'm not sure how I feel about that
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Re: i will not be meek and humble... [Re: CosmicJoke]
#20969226 - 12/12/14 10:44 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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Hmm, you saying that reminds me that quite possibly the pinnacle of my existence occurred when I was 19yo on LSD. I'm not sure how I feel about that 
It just means that you've been over the psychedelic hill for a lot longer than you'd previously realized, and that the trips that followed were 'booster-shots' at best and superfluous at worst. But, you are psychedelic and I've discovered that being psychedelic is very important in my valuation of people I meet. It's like that old Ken Kesey dichotomy about 'those who have had The Experience, and those who have not.' I suppose it's similar to those people who primarily identify with their nationality, ethnicity, religion, or political affiliation. You might be tight with someone who is not of your tribe, but they'll never be 'one of my kind.'
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Can not have faith and hope if he is not meek and humble of heart. "Mormon added that without such attributes, the" faith and hope of people that have become useless, because no one is acceptable before God than those who are meek and humble of heart.
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CosmicJoke
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MarkostheGnostic said: Hmm, you saying that reminds me that quite possibly the pinnacle of my existence occurred when I was 19yo on LSD. I'm not sure how I feel about that 
It just means that you've been over the psychedelic hill for a lot longer than you'd previously realized, and that the trips that followed were 'booster-shots' at best and superfluous at worst. But, you are psychedelic and I've discovered that being psychedelic is very important in my valuation of people I meet. It's like that old Ken Kesey dichotomy about 'those who have had The Experience, and those who have not.' I suppose it's similar to those people who primarily identify with their nationality, ethnicity, religion, or political affiliation. You might be tight with someone who is not of your tribe, but they'll never be 'one of my kind.'
Heard, it's psychologically important for me to trust that at least some of us here share some awareness from our entheogenic experiences, otherwise I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing here but yakking at empty space .
I think a booster shot would be a good choice for me now, but unlike my youth, I have no access to acid, so I'll just have to pick an accessible entheogen and vibe with it.
-------------------- Everything is better than it was the last time. I'm good. If we could look into each others hearts, and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care. It takes a lot of courage to go out there and radiate your essence. I know you scared, you should ask us if we scared too. If you was there, and we just knew you cared too.
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Russell Coleman said: Can not have faith and hope if he is not meek and humble of heart. "Mormon added that without such attributes, the" faith and hope of people that have become useless, because no one is acceptable before God than those who are meek and humble of heart.
Non-sequitur, this does not compute. Incomplete sentence. Meaning unknown.
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Re: i will not be meek and humble... [Re: CosmicJoke]
#20972737 - 12/13/14 07:48 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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You're not yakking at empty space, you've been yakking at me for better than a decade I'm sure, and I have been yakking back. We almost met in Columbus once, and we've had book exchanges. You're welcome to visit us and take your entheogenic excursion here if you so choose. Nothing empty at all, pretty full for a virtual relationship if you ask me.
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Re: i will not be meek and humble... [Re: CosmicJoke]
#20973043 - 12/13/14 09:04 PM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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MarkostheGnostic said: Hmm, you saying that reminds me that quite possibly the pinnacle of my existence occurred when I was 19yo on LSD. I'm not sure how I feel about that 
It just means that you've been over the psychedelic hill for a lot longer than you'd previously realized, and that the trips that followed were 'booster-shots' at best and superfluous at worst. But, you are psychedelic and I've discovered that being psychedelic is very important in my valuation of people I meet. It's like that old Ken Kesey dichotomy about 'those who have had The Experience, and those who have not.' I suppose it's similar to those people who primarily identify with their nationality, ethnicity, religion, or political affiliation. You might be tight with someone who is not of your tribe, but they'll never be 'one of my kind.'
Heard, it's psychologically important for me to trust that at least some of us here share some awareness from our entheogenic experiences, otherwise I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing here but yakking at empty space .
I think a booster shot would be a good choice for me now, but unlike my youth, I have no access to acid, so I'll just have to pick an accessible entheogen and vibe with it.
Mushrooms are so much better than acid dude, the natural entheogens are where it's at.
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CosmicJoke
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MarkostheGnostic said: You're not yakking at empty space, you've been yakking at me for better than a decade I'm sure, and I have been yakking back. We almost met in Columbus once, and we've had book exchanges. You're welcome to visit us and take your entheogenic excursion here if you so choose. Nothing empty at all, pretty full for a virtual relationship if you ask me. 
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Mushrooms are so much better than acid dude, the natural entheogens are where it's at.
Well, I disagree, but have no wish to debate it... obviously YMMV with what works best for you. I will say you do have a considerable advantage of knowing what you've grown is in fact a psilocybin mushroom, as opposed to street drug blotter, which could contain 25i, some other potentially dangerous research chemical, or just be bunk.
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Re: i will not be meek and humble... [Re: CosmicJoke]
#20975058 - 12/14/14 11:50 AM (9 years, 2 months ago) |
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One needs a good connection. Someone who sells as a calling rather than a business. All the drugs I buy/bought were tested to insure purity. It's too dangerous otherwise imo.
Acid is great, shrooms are great, MDMA is great, cannabis is great etc. ymmv
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