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Lost my positive outlook on life
#1998550 - 10/10/03 07:43 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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I dunno what it is, but lately I've just been more and more negative. Whereas before I was once able to make myself happy from within, it feels like I can't do that anymore. I seem to have lost all the insight I've gained from shrooms. I've become more and more cynical and my self-esteem has been deteriorating. I'm hoping this is just a phase that I'll snap out of, but I just don't know.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#1998914 - 10/10/03 10:36 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Having a negative outlook on life isn't such a bad thing if you think about it. As a fact of life, bad shit happens to you all the time. When you have a positive outlook and trust everyone and think life is great you're at a higher risk of getting screwed over or becoming disappointed. If you have a negative outlook, at least you're prepared for it. Deep down we all know hookups don't always pull through, people get beat for money, bags are short, some shrooms you get are weak, girlfriends breakup with you, people die etc etc the list goes on. Expecting it makes it that much more bearable.
Self-esteem problems? Just try being more pompous. Remember, you're better than everyone else, and that's that. Apparently it's only okay to *think* this way, as acting this way makes you an "asshole". I've seen you post your pics before and you're a good lookin guy, SO GO GET LAID and cheer up!
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: Adden]
#1998933 - 10/10/03 10:47 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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By negative outlook, I mean as in I hate life, I hate myself, I hate people in general, and sometimes I don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning. I really don't want to feel this way, and I'm trying to overcome it, but it's hard. As for my self-esteem, I'm just too smart to fool myself into thinking I'm better than everyone else. I know my self-esteem will recover eventually, but not anytime soon. And I know for a fact that chicks aren't into guys with low self-esteem.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#1999159 - 10/11/03 01:00 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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keep focused on the bigger picture...you'll see again...i promise.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#1999779 - 10/11/03 09:41 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Get the fuck out your house right now!
But before you do, sign yourself up for some dance classes or something similar. Your self esteem will pick up in no time, plus you'll be in a good envirement with modavational people, that includes girls .
Also cut down on the weed. I know you smoke, just ease it down to the weekends so you can afford to enjoy yourself with your fellow humans.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: Mojo_Risin]
#2000255 - 10/11/03 01:45 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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I suffer from the same afflictions. Sometimes I get pissed off at the whole world and myself for not being able to do anything about it. Sometimes I get pissed about the little personality flaws all my friends have, or the idoicy of the average man on the street. I get mad because some people are starving while other people burn money on frivolous things.
dont identify your negative feelings with yourself. recognize them as a season that will pass.
do not think: "This is me, I am negative and angry", instead think, "Wow, its a really angry atmosphere in the mental realm today. I wonder when this storm will pass."
Its a lot easier to beat negativity when it is not attached to some core aspect of your being in your mind
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: Mojo_Risin]
#2000266 - 10/11/03 01:50 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well, I'm too sick right now to do any physical activity, and it's been at least a week or two since I've smoked weed.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2000446 - 10/11/03 03:23 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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people always have said i am a negative person...i remember people even saying that shit was i was in grade school. it pissed me off and all of that because i don't want to be negative. i wish i could be positive. no reason to be negative, all it does is sour you to people and experiences. FUCK NEGATIVITY, it sucks
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2000533 - 10/11/03 03:50 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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I'm in the same boat right now, for what it's worth.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2000550 - 10/11/03 03:54 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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me to think its cause i wana get with this girl and shes just fucking with my head but i got under control but when one person pisses me off they all do wierd
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2001546 - 10/12/03 12:11 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know how you feel man. My whole life has been one big depression. I have so many things that I hate about my self and my life. Most of the time I wish I could start life over and be a different person. This last year has been really rough but I know one day I'll be happy and fullfilled again. I have ways of dealing with my negativity.
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#2001644 - 10/12/03 12:59 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2002724 - 10/12/03 03:14 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well I think its good that so many people are losing their positive outlooks on life - I find this very positive, because modern western lifestyles are negative, and if people are feeling negative about it then I think that's positive! - the more of us there are who are pissed off and ready to do SOMETHING about this shit, the harder it will be to live this lifestyle but it will also BE HARDER TO KEEP US LIVING THIS LIFESTYLE. Children are starting to see mixed messages in the social world instead of "make money buy stuff make money buy stuff make money buy stuff make money buy stuff make money buy stuff........" heh I'm not even sure if this is the direction your sorrow is coming from, but its the source of mine so I figured I'd share some brain-scum
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Edited by Strumpling (10/12/03 03:16 PM)
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: Strumpling]
#2002740 - 10/12/03 03:23 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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^^^This is so not what I'm talking about. I was never content with the whole western lifestyle, but I used to be content with myself, and now I'm not. I've been feeling useless and unimportant, like I don't matter. THAT's what's changed--not my views on society.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2003302 - 10/12/03 07:02 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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FOR GOD'S SAKE SMOKE A BOWL....STAT! Seriously. If it has been two weeks, a fatty would put you in a good place to ask yourself these questions. When was the last time you were happy? I bet it wasn't as long ago as it feels. Negativity, like depression, feels as if it has existed forever but it never does. Anne Frank kept a positive outlook. Well, she didn't journal her LAST thoughts, but you know what I mean.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: Rose]
#2003328 - 10/12/03 07:14 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know I haven't been feeling this way for that long, and that's what troubles me. One day, I just woke up feeling like shit. I don't know how it happened, but it wasn't very gradual at all. Actually, I am starting to feel a little better, but not completely. As for the weed, I still have to find a hookup down here.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2003423 - 10/12/03 08:02 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well, no WONDER you aren't happy. Realy, the key is to wake up happy tomorrow. If you do you'll have a great week. Take yourself out on a date. Do something silly or touristy.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2004272 - 10/13/03 12:49 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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"I've been feeling useless and unimportant, like I don't matter." I've felt this way as well, due to my perceptions of our manufactured environment
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2006135 - 10/13/03 06:32 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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One way to help yourself become more positive is to pay more attention to the little things that we take for granted. Something so small can bring you such a good feeling inside. Nature, the colour of leaves, the sound of the lake at night, stars, etc. Try paying a little more attention on something you think is beautiful and see how you feel.
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#2007035 - 10/13/03 11:42 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: OldSpice]
#2007511 - 10/14/03 02:31 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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i imagine that you are feeling powerless and that causes depression. this is what you should do. create something. build a shitty table. build a model airplane. fuck, just build a big ass wooden box. then, get a shitty paint set. paint the box/table/model. and i mean spend some serious time doing it. make it look great.
then get a sledgehammer and beat the living shit out of it. reduce it to nothing. then just walk away from it.
you, as a person, have the power to create. you, as a person, have the power to destroy. you have the power to leave things behind you.
do it. actually do it. it heals the animal in you as well as the god in you.
when you are done, sit back and think about how the actions felt and what they meant to you in a physical and spiritual sense.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: automan]
#2007546 - 10/14/03 03:05 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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No, it's not that I feel powerless. It's that I feel unappreciated, like no one acknowledges me.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2007558 - 10/14/03 03:23 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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find something ahout yourself that you appreciate. the need for ackowledgment is the trapping of the ego.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: automan]
#2007568 - 10/14/03 03:43 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know. I think what I need is another massive, ego-shattering trip.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2008099 - 10/14/03 10:56 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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I need a ego shattering trip too...
my ego is the worse thing for me... it destroys myself.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2008468 - 10/14/03 02:09 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Be wary of using drugs to heal social issues
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: Strumpling]
#2008508 - 10/14/03 02:25 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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I understand that, but fortunately, I have been feeling better lately, so I don't think it'll be too much of a problem.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2008525 - 10/14/03 02:32 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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silversoul7 said: No, it's not that I feel powerless. It's that I feel unappreciated, like no one acknowledges me.
Take a look at your ratings. It may be a web forum but you are very much appreciated here. I've enjoyed your posts since i've been on the shroomery. Have you ever tried meditating? you will get through this (and i'm sure you already know that). Stay up.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2009382 - 10/14/03 07:27 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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hooray for all!
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2017061 - 10/17/03 02:34 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Silversoul,
This may seem like its based on some assumptions about you that I may not be fully aware of, so If im off the mark I apologise, but it seems to me that you are feeling down and depressed due to a deep longing in your life. There is a longing in your life for someone to love, someone for you to express all of your love towards, and for someone to love you back and make you feel appreciated. Because that longing remains unfulfilled you start to worry about whether or not you are loveable for who you are, and your insecurities become stronger. Ive been through a very similar thing to you, and I have a little advice.
Take this next bit to heart, because I promise you that its true. You never know how the future in a wider sense will turn out. Never. No matter how much you plan, long, assume or expect, it always has a habit of turning out different to what you expect. Think of it this way, if someone told you 5 years ago how your life would turn out in the next 5 years up until the present day you would never believe them. If they told you the people you would meet, the things you would do and see and have happen to you, you would never, ever believe them. I know if someone did that with me, I would have found what they told me totally incomphrehendable. The truth is life is full of so many unexpected things, every moment is full of possibility. Its easy to get stuck in a rut when you think that things are always going to be the same, and that your life is always going to be like this, but I promise you that it wont be. Infact I dont need to promise you, because its a fact of life. You never know whats going to happen with your life or how its going to turn out, so enjoy the fact that you are alive and have the chance to take part in those possibilities!
Hope that helped, Jono.
(Btw if you ever need someone to chat to about any of this stuff, Im more than willinging to help, just drop me a PM or whatever)
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: jono]
#2017072 - 10/17/03 02:39 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Thank you, man. I usually get pissed off when people make assumptions about me, but you were right on the mark, and the advice you gave me is exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2017155 - 10/17/03 04:10 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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silversoul7 said: I know. I think what I need is another massive, ego-shattering trip.
This is going to be blunt. If you don't like what I have to say, I'm sorry. I think you're feeling the way that you are because you are seeing that you really have nothing. A majority of your spare time is spent using drugs and posting at the Shroomery. You think that the way out of your situation is by having a hard shroom trip. You seem to be consumed by drugs. You know, most of the insight you've gained comes from growing up and experiencing life. You're giving shrooms credit for something that you should be crediting yourself for. The only way you're going to truly feel better about yourself is to get something in your life that is actually meaningful. Here's a quote you should recognize.. "... The truth is that I'm a bad person, but that's gonna change. I'm going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. I'm cleaning up and moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm gonna be just like you -- the job, the family, the fucking big television. The washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electrical tin opener. Good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisure-wear, luggage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine-to-five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, index pension, tax exemption, clearing the gutters, getting by, looking ahead, the day you die."
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: Asshat]
#2017191 - 10/17/03 04:50 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Woot! Trainspotting. How true, how true. I gain more respect for you with every post, Asshat.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2017683 - 10/17/03 10:56 AM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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No Worries at all dude, It makes me happy that I was able to help
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: jono]
#2018361 - 10/17/03 03:50 PM (20 years, 5 months ago) |
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Same here man, my dad fucked me over, i got no money, and i got no balls to ask this girl i had a crush on for years, jesus fuckin christ. Why can't all these problems be solved...
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: downforpot]
#2027075 - 10/20/03 09:44 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Just go up to her n talk to her. What do you have to lose? She might not like you the way you hope, but then at least you'll know. If you dont, you may be missing out on a great thing, and going thru life wondering 'what if'..
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: sykobish]
#2034351 - 10/22/03 10:26 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Fuck, just when I start feeling better, the depression comes back. I just can't seem to be happy for very long. I just don't like who I am. I'm thinking about seeing a school counselor about this. But there's no way I'm taking anti-depressants.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2034475 - 10/22/03 11:01 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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hey man, I believe I am in a long term depression. It wont ever go away... its just the way I am made I guess. I am fighting it daily, but I am still here. I know exactly how you feel.. its the same feeling I get everyday of my life. sometimes I don't notice it but it always there in my head. now how do we fight it. I don't think we can, I think we have to learn to live with it. I have thought of sucide and have tried it. I think about it everyday, the only thing that holds me is the thought that I can beat it. I can beat my ego. I can beat the pain. I can live a sane life. It not ingorant but the truth. I can live sane but I can hope to be sane someday. if you read my post in support group, I have taken the first actions to get it done. this will work for me. It has to work for me. it my only option. I will always be here from time to time and you can bet once I feel sad again I will come here to cheer myself up again. we can talk in pms or AIM... I love to talk hehe... peace zerohero
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: ]
#2034517 - 10/22/03 11:15 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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i've been living in a nihilistic void for quite sometime now and i don't perceive things as good or bad anymore. it was rough shedding the exterior layer of my ego and that was painful, but worth it in someway. i find extreme pleasure in destroying things that mean something to me and physical combat.
i live on to propagate nihilism to the masses, and hopefully that sends them into a spiraling downward slumber which awakens their mind.
only by destroying it are we able to build it back again
i say, embrace your downfall.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: ]
#2034559 - 10/22/03 11:28 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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You sound just like Tyler Durton.
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silversoul7
Chill the FuckOut!
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2034764 - 10/23/03 12:35 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Well, one good thing about depression is it inspires me to write good songs: http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat...744#Post2034744
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sykobish
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: silversoul7]
#2035123 - 10/23/03 03:11 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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I know how you feel when you say that when you think you've pulled out of it, you get brought back down again. It's tough. I'm not feeling too great right now either. I have a problem with not letting things go. I've been fighting with someone who was very close to me at one time and it's eating me up inside. I keep thinking that if i dont think about it, i'll eventually get over it. But it always comes back n slaps me in the face. Ah well. All you can do is try to keep your head up and know that things will get better eventually. If what is making you upset is something that you can't do anything about to change, then try to let it go. I know it's hard to do that, but it's gotta be done or you'll get over it. Also think about the saddness that you are feeling right now, and embrace it. It wont last forever. It sucks, but one thing you can count on is that when something good does come your way, you will appreciate it even more. And because you got thru a trying period, it will make you a stronger person. You will get thru it sweety, and you will be rewarded with happiness for getting thru it. Sorry about rambling on but i hope that might make you feel a bit better, a different viewpoint, and i guess since i'm not in the best of moods either, it's just my heart talking as i try to pull myself out of my 'not so happy' mood. Take care of yourself.
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Rose
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: sykobish]
#2035156 - 10/23/03 03:44 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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Silver, You know how to be happy. Stop beating yourself up and you'll free up some time to do the things that make you truely happy. The problem with depression is in your head. You must realize that you are your worst critic and harshest judge. Since your criticism and judgement is imaginary, why not make yourself an imaginary judge or critic (Mine is the Judge from The Wall) and imagine him dying Warner Bros. style death. Silly as it sounds, it works wonders. You must criticize yourself all the time. Who else truely criticizes you? It is time you recognize your inner critic so you can do something about it. You'll be better soon. I promise. Music is a killer outlet isn't it?
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: ]
#2035464 - 10/23/03 07:45 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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it does sound like fight club.
I agree with you and I think you are close to the answer.
"i find extreme pleasure in destroying things that mean something to me and physical combat." <---- this is me.. I understand that. this is what i feel too. Physical combat is the only thing that makes me feel human again. If I don't get into a physical fight once a week I will usually get depression. I just believe that there are more ways to achieve this state.
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: Rose]
#2035471 - 10/23/03 07:51 AM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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you hit it on the head.
We are our biggest critic. I know thats a problem I have. I believe alot of people like me understand that but its a hard thing to stop.
In fact some people wont ever realize it. I have known thats the way I am. I have tried for 3 years and haven't successed yet. Maybe my methods aren't the right ones. that could be it but we are trying to fix it... it just hard seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
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silversoul7
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Re: Lost my positive outlook on life [Re: ]
#2037578 - 10/23/03 07:31 PM (20 years, 4 months ago) |
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I finally came to realize what it is that's making me so depressed: I'm a shut-in. I need to get out more. So I think I'll start spending less time on the Shroomery and try to get out there and socialize(which doesn't come easy for me).
-------------------- "It is dangerous to be right when the government is wrong."--Voltaire
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