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Mr.Al
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If there is no meaning everything is cheap and has no value.
Where is there uniqueness in sleeping around? They use each other as objects and wonder why they feel empty.
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ModestMouse
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MushroomTrip said: Were you proud of yours when you had it?
Not really, as others have said I managed to get rid of it before it was an issue.
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Re: Virginity [Re: Mr.Al] 1
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Sex doesn't have to mean anything if the people performing it don't want it to and are okay with that. I don't think it's intrinsically unique, either. 
If one feels empty after having sex with others, they need to confront some internal issues and question their motivations, but that doesn't reflect upon the act of sleeping around as a whole.
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Re: Virginity [Re: Mr.Al] 2
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Mr.Al said: They use each other as objects and wonder why they feel empty.
Oh they do? You just happen to know this? Hmmm, I must have hallucinated not feeling "empty" back when I'd sleep around. Who knew?
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MarkostheGnostic
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I was way too immature and socially undeveloped during high school to have been sexually involved, and while my best friend from childhood was having sex, he also grew up with 2 sisters and he was comfortable with girls. The girls I was attracted to were few, and I did manage to become friends with one of them, whom I saw as a woman among girls, but I was not a 'boyfriend.' I was so shy on a New Year's Eve when I went out with her and another girl, that I couldn't even kiss her at midnight. She simply said, "I understand," but I can't to this day imagine what she understood. In 2001 I saw her at a reunion, and took the opportunity to gush about how I felt about her in high school. She was obviously taken aback, because she began to pursue me via e-mail when I had returned to my home state, even though she had met my Lady at the reunion (who took leave of us so that I could finish with my karmic business). It was enough just to have her pursue me.
I decided in college that it was 'time' to give up my virginity, so I showed up at a girl's dorm room with a joint someone had given me, a girl who had been staring at me continually in a class on witchcraft. When I walked in, there was a guy lying with his head on her lap. She jumped up so quickly, she dumped the guy on the floor! She was a 'nice Jewish girl' from Chestnut Hill, MA, a year older than me. I didn't tell her that I was a virgin until much later, but she must have known by my quick performance. I visited her a couple of times after she graduated, but like her two sisters, each with 2 or 3 kids, I knew that's what she wanted, and I was not about to marry the first girl I slept with, while I was still in school, whom I was not in love with, and while I had no idea what I was gonna do with my life. I was a late bloomer. Here's a pic of me on the bed I gave away my virginity on:
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Edited by MarkostheGnostic (03/13/14 02:03 PM)
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Thanks for sharing, man. Looks like you would have been a righteous dude to get blazed with if I had grown up back in the 70s.
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No, I was neutral. Then I had sex and I was fucking amazed at how wonderful it made me feel. Not all sex is created equal thats for sure!
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birdland said:
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MushroomTrip said: Were you proud of yours when you had it?
Nope I took the first opportunity that was presented to me to get rid of it.
Same.
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MarkostheGnostic
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deCypher said:
Thanks for sharing, man. Looks like you would have been a righteous dude to get blazed with if I had grown up back in the 70s. 
Is the 'Persistence of Memory' pic, or the (then) $6 Pakistani hookah that makes you think that? I turned down stoning for so many years, I think I created a negative morphic field around myself, such that I didn't even smell ganja when I was in Jamaica. I DID resurrect a tiny bit of grass from the freezer recently, and although some 15 years old, a match-head sized bit was more than enough.
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MushroomTrip
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MarkostheGnostic said: I was way too immature and socially undeveloped during high school to have been sexually involved, and while my best friend from childhood was having sex, he also grew up with 2 sisters and he was comfortable with girls. The girls I was attracted to were few, and I did manage to become friends with one of them, whom I saw as a woman among girls, but I was not a 'boyfriend.' I was so shy on a New Year's Eve when I went out with her and another girl, that I couldn't even kiss her at midnight. She simply said, "I understand," but I can't to this day imagine what she understood. In 2001 I saw her at a reunion, and took the opportunity to gush about how I felt about her in high school. She was obviously taken aback, because she began to pursue me via e-mail when I had returned to my home state, even though she had met my Lady at the reunion (who took leave of us so that I could finish with my karmic business). It was enough just to have her pursue me.
I decide in college that it was 'time' to give up my virginity, so I showed up at a girl's dorm room with a joint someone had given me, a girl who had been staring at me continually in a class on witchcraft. When I walked in, there was a guy lying with his head on her lap. She jumped up so quickly, she dumped the guy on the floor! She was a 'nice Jewish girl' from Chestnut Hill, MA, a year older than me. I didn't tell her that I was a virgin until much later, but she must have known by my quick performance. I visited her a couple of times after she graduated, but like her two sisters, each with 2 or 3 kids, I knew that's what she wanted, and I was not about to marry the first girl I slept with, while I was still in school, whom I was not in love with, and while I had no idea what I was gonna do with my life. I was a late bloomer. Here's a pic of me on the bed I gave away my virginity on:

That's a great story!
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Thanks M.T.. Part 2 would be when I fell head-over-heels in love (1st time and infinitely more powerful than merely having sex) with a beautiful 18 year old (monied) Jewess of Russian descent, who I immediately sensed upon introduction was 'trouble,' and was reluctant to tell her where I lived.' She sought me out that very night in my room. She lived with her parents just off campus, and showed up with her Afghan dog, Smokey. Very bright at 18, she turned me onto Huxley's book Island which I then read in a day, and she wanted me to read The Grifters by Jim Thompson (an attempt to clue me in about her plans). It was a one-semester romance, but she was ridiculously promiscuous and had even been raped while hitch-hiking, but she persisted in being on the highway at night in nightgown, according to guys on my dorm floor. I think she was trying to recapitulate the trauma and master it - training for what was to come. Eventually, my roommate of 3 years phoned me to say that my 'girlfriend' had taken 2 buses to show up at his door in Queens, NY. He offered to take her coat, and she gave him all of her clothes. He wanted to tell me before she did.
I was supposed to pick her up in Long Island, NY to take her to a Grateful Dead show at The Capitol Theatre in Passaic, NJ on her birthday, but when I received the call from my roommate, I called her and said I could never see her again, that we weren't good for each other. She made it to that show herself. I saw her from a bar across the street when the show had ended, standing still on the sidewalk with a huge handbag as the crowd flowed around her. She was looking for me. That was that last I heard or saw of her for some 32 years, when someone doing research on her on the internet (she had been in the 'National Enquirer' in 2002 for operating a huge underage prostitution ring in Colorado), told her that there's some old boyfriend of her's on The Shroomery, writing about her. With 'Intellus,' she sent a memo, which I thought was fake, but I left the number of my first cell phone, and on Christmas Eve 2008, she phoned me. Now, I must tell you, that I have years of dream journals in which I had been dreaming about this girl for 3 decades. In fact, from the time I broke up with her, for the next 3 years, I couldn't get her out of my mind on a moment-to-moment basis. I think I entered a seminary, in part, because I thought I was possessed by her. 
This girl became a prostitute, a 'mama' with the Hell's Angels, and another MC club, and a pimp. I was stunned and overjoyed to hear from her, mostly because I thought it would put an end to the dreams - the kind of haunting one gets when one abruptly kills a relationship, but I still dream about her. We do not speak too often, because she is somewhat rude to my wife. I send her e-mails once in a while, but she keeps inviting me to CO to sleep with her (despite her plethora of admitted STDs). Her folks are (?) still alive in their late 80s, just north of me, but they seemed to have disowned her for her notorious career, which in part, is due to their failure to have detected the early childhood sexual abuse she was receiving at the hands of an older female sibling. She developed BPD, (possibly from perceived emotional abandonment/betrayal) and has had a history of heroin use. In my dreams, she is perpetually 18 years old, but occasionally, my unconscious creates a time-progression of sorts in my dream. If she does come back to FL (oddly, she lived nearby just after I moved here, and I once told my then new wife that this girl was the only threat to my fidelity, even though I hadn't seen her at that point for 8 years) to attend a funeral, I've volunteered to get her at the airport. My wife insists on chaperoning. I guess the ancient attraction is palpably alive in my psyche even to my wife. 
~The End~
Edited by MarkostheGnostic (04/12/19 01:39 AM)
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What a story -- full of lust, intrigue, and a certain joie de vivre. Bravo!
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MarkostheGnostic
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Glad you enjoyed it.
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robbyberto
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Really good little story. However, the word 'Jewess', is a little bit archaic and a lot of bit of hilarious.
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MarkostheGnostic
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robbyberto said: Really good little story. However, the word 'Jewess', is a little bit archaic and a lot of bit of hilarious.
Well, that's how I captured her at the time. Don't be offended. I grew up Jewish myself, and this one was removed from all the other Jewish American Princesses I went to college with, archaic as it might sound. Besides, I like a touch of archaic when I write. I still write 'til' for until.
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robbyberto
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I wasn't offended. I thought it was really funny that's all.
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MarkostheGnostic
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Feel free to laugh!
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MarkostheGnostic
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ShiVersblood said: Jewish people really don't like me. I tell them of Jesus.
I'm a 'Jew For Jesus,' but I don't like your attitude.
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MushroomTrip
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ShiVersblood said: Jewish people really don't like me. I tell them of Jesus.
you're cool
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