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MushroomTrip
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Re: Virginity [Re: quinn]
#19619706 - 02/26/14 06:46 AM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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quinn said: i was deeply ashamed and convinced there was something wrong with me for various reasons..
i 'lost it' on a trip to thailand with my parents. i was being a stoopid teen and was left behind sulking while they went to dinner.. naturally i reasoned i should acquire a litre of spirits and go to the beach. i almost crashed into some thai people sitting quietly on a picnic blanket, who i then proceeded to share my drinks with and ended going back with one to her hut. on the way i terrified some dogs in an act of bravado.. dont remember much else other than her having a wart on her butt and my penis not working properly.. i ended up giving her a sloppy drunk apologetic massage instead..
coming to think of it now actually, that wasnt the time i lost my virginity at all, i wasnt even close
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FishOilTheKid
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MushroomTrip said: Were you proud of yours when you had it?
No. I felt pressured when everyone else was having sex and I wasn't. At around 15 I was on a trip to the British Isles and I met a girl... I was inexperienced and we got drunk together in London and she wanted sex but I didn't know what I was doing and couldn't keep it up/was nervous. In and out was all. Shitty experience. She ended up going down on me and that was cool. Guess I should have warned her when I was gonna cum down the back of her throat. She jumped up and ran to the sink half gagging. So since my penis penetrated this woman, who had the most enjoyable southern drawl, I say I lost my virginity then. Yay!
But. I was at a wakeboarding shop here in my hometown and caught this cute girls eyes. She was friends with one of my friends that worked there. She asked about me and we started partying together. We were GF and BF during junior and senior year and sex came so organically after a year of being together. She use to cry during sex and get so passionate. We'd roll almost every other weekend and just lose ourselves in each other. That's when I became sexually active. We met up in college a couple times but grew apart.
Although dangerous, I think its important to know certain people on this sexual lustful level.
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MushroomTrip
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FishOilTheKid said: Although dangerous, I think its important to know certain people on this sexual lustful level.
Why do you think it's dangerous?
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FishOilTheKid
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I was with this girl and I cheated on her with this other girl that was known to get around... Anyway she gave me chlamydia and then the other girl was informed by her gyno that she had been exposed!
So, STDs man!
Sidethought: the temptation can be, you know, a dangerous thing...
I was with a girl that was quick to suck my dick. I loved our sex. But on another level other than the physical you draw out of a person substance and I fear she was drinking me like juice. That's dangerous to be leaking out of your body after a full opening of sorts.
Send me a telepathic message.
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cez

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cez said: I still have mine 
I don't know if I'm proud of it or just fucked in that center of my existence. I have zero libido, haven't masterbated in months..Maybe 8 if I had to guess.
I was intimidated by girls that I was attracted to in my school days. I then matured into realizing they're just as mentally off as I am...But during this maturation process my drive to wanna get laid deteriorated.
I wondered at one point, "maybe I'm gay and I never realized it?"....but that's not the case 
I don't know how I feel about this nowadays...
Interesting... did you check your hormone levels? Do you have diabetes? Or do you think it's psychological? Do you get turned on if you see hot woman, or of you watch porn?
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cez said: I still have mine 
I don't know if I'm proud of it or just fucked in that center of my existence. I have zero libido, haven't masterbated in months..Maybe 8 if I had to guess.
I was intimidated by girls that I was attracted to in my school days. I then matured into realizing they're just as mentally off as I am...But during this maturation process my drive to wanna get laid deteriorated.
I wondered at one point, "maybe I'm gay and I never realized it?"....but that's not the case 
I don't know how I feel about this nowadays...
Interesting... did you check your hormone levels? Do you have diabetes? Or do you think it's psychological? Do you get turned on if you see hot woman, or of you watch porn?
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cez said: I still have mine 
I don't know if I'm proud of it or just fucked in that center of my existence. I have zero libido, haven't masterbated in months..Maybe 8 if I had to guess.
I was intimidated by girls that I was attracted to in my school days. I then matured into realizing they're just as mentally off as I am...But during this maturation process my drive to wanna get laid deteriorated.
I wondered at one point, "maybe I'm gay and I never realized it?"....but that's not the case 
I don't know how I feel about this nowadays...
Interesting... did you check your hormone levels? Do you have diabetes? Or do you think it's psychological? Do you get turned on if you see hot woman, or of you watch porn?
Never checked my hormone levels. Are you suggesting maybe low testosterone? Don't watch porn. My eyes are interested in hot girls, it's just my dick doesn't flip the switch.
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Re: Virginity [Re: cez]
#19621618 - 02/26/14 03:16 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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Get in TOUCH with your self.
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Icyus
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Re: Virginity [Re: cez]
#19621644 - 02/26/14 03:24 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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cez said: I still have mine 
I don't know if I'm proud of it or just fucked in that center of my existence. I have zero libido, haven't masterbated in months..Maybe 8 if I had to guess.
I was intimidated by girls that I was attracted to in my school days. I then matured into realizing they're just as mentally off as I am...But during this maturation process my drive to wanna get laid deteriorated.
I wondered at one point, "maybe I'm gay and I never realized it?"....but that's not the case 
I don't know how I feel about this nowadays...
Feelings and personality matter more than sex.. even though it is quite immatereal..
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Re: Virginity [Re: Icyus]
#19621662 - 02/26/14 03:29 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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Ya but I feel wrong (if I dwell on it) for not doing what humans are designed to do though.
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MushroomTrip
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Re: Virginity [Re: cez]
#19621697 - 02/26/14 03:34 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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cez said:
Never checked my hormone levels. Are you suggesting maybe low testosterone? Don't watch porn. My eyes are interested in hot girls, it's just my dick doesn't flip the switch.
Testosterone levels, thyroid hormones, and prolactin. Worth checking into. I'd also try just finding a cool, hot girl to do E and explore each other.
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MushroomTrip
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Re: Virginity [Re: cez]
#19621702 - 02/26/14 03:35 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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cez said: Ya but I feel wrong (if I dwell on it) for not doing what humans are designed to do though.
Oh, fuck all that design crap. The fun of it is all, imo.
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r72rock
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MushroomTrip said: Were you proud of yours when you had it?
Not really. For most of my life, it never really bothered me until maybe a couple of months before I lost it. There was a lot of pressure from society and friends to "do the greatest thing ever." And when I had sex, I did it with someone I genuinely cared about, and it was good.
But at the same time, I felt a tinge of, "Seriously? That's it? That's what culture puts on a pedestal? Great. Another let down sponsored by the culture I grew up in."
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Re: Virginity [Re: cez]
#19621715 - 02/26/14 03:37 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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cez said: Ya but I feel wrong (if I dwell on it) for not doing what humans are designed to do though.
If we are indeed designed to consume, procreate and exploit.. I would feel good being different.. if you would ever find someone who would perfectly fit your personality, a soulmate of sorts, you wouldnt (hopefully) care much about being attracted in a sexual way.. or it might be that when you first get over whatever fear you may have (assuming this is the case), it might turn out differently.. who knows..
I would only say this; be who you are and be proud of it.
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Re: Virginity [Re: cez]
#19621775 - 02/26/14 03:48 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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I wouldn't go so far as to be proud of it, but content seems better.
The sort of love preached, that exist only between two is the biased sort of love anyways.
When there is no mold that one can naturally fit into, create your own or remain moldless rather than trying to make yourself fit. That's all it is, a preconstructed mold that you realize you're not fitting into. The preconstructed mold is not necessarily what you are, it is what people are molded into.
So then the question becomes that of purpose, amirite?
Edited by teknix (02/26/14 03:58 PM)
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Icyus
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Re: Virginity [Re: teknix]
#19622108 - 02/26/14 04:38 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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Man.. I have a really cruel mind.. I am proud of this.. it is a part of me, and without it, I would be shallow in that manner..
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teknix
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Re: Virginity [Re: cez]
#19622128 - 02/26/14 04:41 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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cez said: Ya but I feel wrong (if I dwell on it) for not doing what humans are designed to do though.
If you can accept yourself, by looking from outside the mold that makes you feel insecure, you will be miles ahead.
Right now, you're kinda letting others determine how you feel about you.
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Re: Virginity [Re: teknix]
#19622166 - 02/26/14 04:47 PM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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teknix said:
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cez said: Ya but I feel wrong (if I dwell on it) for not doing what humans are designed to do though.
If you can accept yourself, by looking from outside the mold that makes you feel insecure, you will be miles ahead.
Right now, you're kinda letting others determine how you feel about you.
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Re: Virginity [Re: Icyus]
#19624426 - 02/27/14 01:05 AM (9 years, 10 months ago) |
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I'm sincerely ashamed of my (still going on) virginity, I'll be 19 in 4 days and the most I've done is oral sex. I've had a couple of opportunities in my life, but I've discarded these chances because I was really stupid. And i keep having opportunities, but i don't feel anything special for this girl, which is just a friend of mine, with whom I've had fun times, including the oral...I am sexually very active, I mastutbate at least once a day, twice if i have the time, unfortunately i haven't been very lucky with girls, and even when i have been, I've listened to my ego and pride and lost a chance...
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CosmicJoke
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MushroomTrip said: Were you proud of yours when you had it?
Sometimes? Try to think back to when you were in say the 7th grade and everything that mattered to you at that time... For me, it was fantasy/sci-fi books, mythology, acting in theatre, bands like "They Might Be Giants"....
I had this punk rock, straight edge phase when I was maybe 13? I loved this band Minor Threat
The lyrics of Out of Step went:
"(I) Don't smoke, (I) Don't drink, (I) Don't fuck, At least I can fucking think.
I can't keep up, I can't keep up, I can't keep up, Out of step with the world."
This was mostly due to everyone I met losing their fuckin' sense of self over their hormonal imbalances.... Was fighting the sad reality that I needed to spurt one to feel okay in this world 
How about you?
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CosmicJoke
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MushroomTrip said: I think I've been horny since I was like 5 or 6 and it was hell to hold until then. 
Me too, even younger... influenced majorly by a lot of television/film drama, nobody in my day to day life even remotely.....The kids in school didn't match up with my fantasy expectations, served more as a turn off for awhile for me.
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MushroomTrip
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omg, I know, some of those kids same age as me sucked, they were judgmental little bitches.  As they are now too, in fact.
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