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quinn
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WHY AM I SO AWKWARD

seriously it's like i seem good and normalish but then become so awkward it's unbearable *breathes heavily*
ok im ok
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quinn
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Re: *vent [Re: quinn]
#19425338 - 01/15/14 10:35 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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ooohhh i think i get it now.. it's because i am inconsiderate and say stoopid shit especially when i am nervous
of course
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quinn
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Re: *vent [Re: quinn]
#19451393 - 01/21/14 04:40 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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no wait it's because i am a moron and generally have no idea what's going on, what ppl are talking about or how i fit in.. yep i that's prob it
i feel there is something very wrong with me and it scares me and i don't like it at all
why am i so humorless.. why can't i have any fun?? why the paranoia and distance and politeness?.. wtf.. am i stuck like this? closed? no passion or love? sure looks like it.. is this me?
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Re: *vent [Re: quinn]
#19451399 - 01/21/14 04:44 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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You always struck me as having a good sense of humour quinn
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birdland

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Have you been leading me on this whole time!?
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quinn
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thanks dude.. i do try on the internets 
irl i dont say much or participate much in conversations and i do dumb stuff like losing my car last night which all makes me feel very incompetent..
i have a strong temptation to riff about how crap i am but it's pretty useless and just turns into a sob story so w/e i'll be right (i hope) and when im not i will come here to whine
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Re: *vent [Re: quinn]
#19532036 - 02/06/14 06:09 PM (10 years, 18 days ago) |
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ah.. my old self indulgent thread..
developments:
i have the day off and am trying to book a psych but i find making this decision unrealistically difficult.
i called a psych and she said hi and i was like she sounds like one of my mum's friends who is a psychologist and also she is south african and i immediately hung up.
now i can't call her back for at least a day so she blames the prank call on one of her other crazies.
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Re: *vent [Re: quinn]
#19539808 - 02/08/14 01:42 PM (10 years, 16 days ago) |
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I'm sure she's experienced much worse.
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I used to be really anxious around people, but then I got to really know myself. Go for long walks, give yourself physical and mental challenges. After I took up yoga, hiking and focused myself on my education and started making small achievements, I felt a lot better. Make goals for yourself and fulfill them, personal achievements help build confidence.
Stay positive, it makes a world of difference.
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quinn
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thx, thx guys 
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Re: *vent [Re: quinn] 1
#19543013 - 02/09/14 09:19 AM (10 years, 15 days ago) |
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quinn said: ah.. my old self indulgent thread..
developments:
i have the day off and am trying to book a psych but i find making this decision unrealistically difficult.
i called a psych and she said hi and i was like she sounds like one of my mum's friends who is a psychologist and also she is south african and i immediately hung up.
now i can't call her back for at least a day so she blames the prank call on one of her other crazies.
I think you should call her five more times, and keep hanging up. Then on the sixth try four days later, go about setting up the appointment like you never called before. When she says "were you the one who kept hanging up"? you reply "yes maam, I have a lot of hang ups. Then hang up one last time, and never call back, and never call another psych doctor.
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Quote:
LunarEclipse said:
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quinn said: ah.. my old self indulgent thread..
developments:
i have the day off and am trying to book a psych but i find making this decision unrealistically difficult.
i called a psych and she said hi and i was like she sounds like one of my mum's friends who is a psychologist and also she is south african and i immediately hung up.
now i can't call her back for at least a day so she blames the prank call on one of her other crazies.
I think you should call her five more times, and keep hanging up. Then on the sixth try four days later, go about setting up the appointment like you never called before. When she says "were you the one who kept hanging up"? you reply "yes maam, I have a lot of hang ups. Then hang up one last time, and never call back, and never call another psych doctor.
^Actually quite solid advice here. Psych meds are usually trouble from what I've seen. Very few people that are diagnosed with whatever condition calls for psych meds actually improve with them, most people feel "normal" for a while but the negatives far outweigh the positives in most cases. The absolute best thing you can do in your situation happens to also be the hardest, that is to spend time with yourself figuring out out why you feel the way you do, what, if there's anything specific, causes it, and how you can make changes to slowly cure yourself through your own willpower.
It feels goddamned impossible most of the time, I know it all too well from my problems, but it truly is the best way to fix yourself. I don't believe it's healthy to rely on drugs to function if there's even a slight chance of another method to cure your ills. I've been offered every antidepressant, antipsychotic, etc that's out these days and refused them every time because I honestly believe I can help myself better than any drug that a psychiatrist could write me a prescription for. Every day is a struggle just to keep enough energy and passion to keep fighting my bullshit, but every day I thank myself for not subjecting my head to chemicals that would essentially destroy my capacity to feel so terrible. SSRIs and all that shit scare me far more than any depression and anxiety I have, I'm in a suggestive enough mental state as it is that I have no business taking pills that could either eliminate my depression or cause me to become suicidal. Not a risk I'm willing to take.
The most important thing to remember is that there's no pill in the fucking world that will fix something in your mind permanently. Opiates don't kill pain, they just make it less prominent, benzos don't fix anxiety disorders, they just diminish the impact. Whatever you decide to do medically, just keep in mind that anything positive you get out of a drug has to be payed back in one way or another.
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quinn
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lol Lunar 
good advices..
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