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stillsearching
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Hung up on bad trip *DELETED*
#19396392 - 01/09/14 10:55 PM (10 years, 21 days ago) |
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-------------------- “I wonder if being sane means disregarding the chaos that is life, pretending only an infinitesimal segment of it is reality.” "Only to the extent that man exposes himself over and over again to annihilation, can that which is indestructible arise within him. In this lies the dignity of daring... Only if we venture repeatedly through zones of annihilation can our contact with Divine Being, which is beyond annihilation, become firm and stable. The more a man learns wholeheartedly to confront the world which threatens him with isolation, the more are the depths of the Ground of Being revealed and the possibilities of new life and Becoming opened."
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LiquidGlass
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Different doses affect people differently. You could take a certain dose once and have a stronger or less strong experience on the same dose another time. Set and setting play a HUGE role in the course of the trip however so I am guessing that contributed to the rough experience.
As for the headache, you mentioned toxic foods so your diet could play a role and even more importantly is being hydrated. And by hydrated I mean drinking water and not things soda, alcohol, or juices . . .
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stillsearching
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I attributed the headache to be from the mental exhaustion. I now find what happened very interesting but I don't understand it. I don't know if I just didn't give in and let everything ride? At the point where I felt the death and decay in my body I don't know what I could've done to turn it around. That is how I see so much of life. I work with old and dying people. It did make me realize that taking care of ones body is incredibly important. I can say I benefitted from it. It could've really fucked my life up say if my mom had answered. Also the answers my friend gave me while trying to be real and truthful were not helping. I told him I was insane and having psychotic break and his answer was plainly, "and what will you do with that? The only thing that matters is what you do with it." Same with when I told him I was dying. It's like he wasn't shocked and I wanted him to be. To fight for me or something. I'm trying to look at it all metaphorically now and see what meaning it has for me now but it may take me awhile! I also know set and setting are important. If it were just me I would've done things way different. Also I had been working too much before. I had worked an 18 hour day the day before! And been switching back and forth from day shift to night shift. I kind of just wanted to see what would happen. I'm a little humbled by it all. Mushrooms are very powerful even in small doses.
-------------------- “I wonder if being sane means disregarding the chaos that is life, pretending only an infinitesimal segment of it is reality.” "Only to the extent that man exposes himself over and over again to annihilation, can that which is indestructible arise within him. In this lies the dignity of daring... Only if we venture repeatedly through zones of annihilation can our contact with Divine Being, which is beyond annihilation, become firm and stable. The more a man learns wholeheartedly to confront the world which threatens him with isolation, the more are the depths of the Ground of Being revealed and the possibilities of new life and Becoming opened."
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absum
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lmao. you should stop using drugs..next time it could be worse..id hate to say it but thats bad. I've had one real bad trip before and it wasn't my brain it was the man i was with who i didn't know who just got out of jail for murdering someone and eating their heart. yeah some sick twisted shit i know, i thought he was the devil, he drank PBR (red) smoked marlboro reds (red) he was ginger and looked like an old creepy leprechaun who was short and had all kinds of gross prison tats and worst of all there was an ak-47 in the house, i literally was having a seizure out of fear and literally pooped my pants at one point. but that was on 7 grams and i was 15...enough about my experience but i think when someone starts having panic attacks about themselves and go into the whole I'm gonna die scharade or however you spell it then you need to stop, think about if you woulda called your mom, you would prob be regretting that today..and of course this guy is going to try to screw you, your a girl and your both tripping boomers, you shouldn't have smoked the weed who knows. i think if anything you should trip a low dose next time BY YOURSELF and kinda try to find yourself while your on it and try to understand whats really going on and what went wrong last time.
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stillsearching
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Re: Hung up on bad trip [Re: absum]
#19396799 - 01/10/14 12:28 AM (10 years, 21 days ago) |
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I don't think I am the only one who's had this type of experience. I'm not an idiot. I know what I was getting into. But I didn't know how to let go in the actual situation which is what I took from this. I wasn't going to tell my mom I was on shrooms. I just wanted her to tell me I was ok. Like some insecurity of not knowing that myself and needing my own mother to remind me. Sorry but I had 3 good trips before this. And actually after I came down I did see things as beautiful and was at peace and had some reflection about what had happened. No one knows what type of trip will happen. I was aware enough not to call an ambulance etc., at one point I accepted that I was dead. That's when the terror actually ended. But I still struggle because how can you really prepare for this? I knew about letting go but when it actually was happening I couldn't let go. At the time a guy trying to sleep with me was not helpful which shows how important the person you are with is. I wouldn't advise tripping with someone you're in a relationship with. Two people can handle a trip very differently.
-------------------- “I wonder if being sane means disregarding the chaos that is life, pretending only an infinitesimal segment of it is reality.” "Only to the extent that man exposes himself over and over again to annihilation, can that which is indestructible arise within him. In this lies the dignity of daring... Only if we venture repeatedly through zones of annihilation can our contact with Divine Being, which is beyond annihilation, become firm and stable. The more a man learns wholeheartedly to confront the world which threatens him with isolation, the more are the depths of the Ground of Being revealed and the possibilities of new life and Becoming opened."
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theRAPeutic
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Make sure you're hydrated and get enough sleep days prior; the headache sounds like dehydration coupled with tripping hard.
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