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Anonymous #1

opiate addiction
    #19393703 - 01/09/14 01:23 PM (10 years, 21 days ago)

I have a problem.  I am very fond of opiates.  I have taken them since I was given a vicodin before school in freshman year and it helped me focus and overcome my social anxiety and think clearly, now many years later, one vicodin won't do shit for me, I'm up to multiple (5+) pills each time I dose, and it's to the point where the writing I love to do, only happens when I take opiates now because that's the only time I can settle down and find myself, and it isn't because my mind is going through the withdrawls, because I can stop for a few weeks and have nothing, usually i take em 1-2 times a week just to enjoy finding myself, but it's getting bad and I even considered trying heroin so I know I have to cut this shit out, but I also this year after 2 years of experiencing shoulder pain that will never go away it is getting so bad that I need painkillers, and I want them for that now too, it's just making it harder to put them away.  I know if I could get off drugs and get my mind right enough to find a good job so I can get to a better state and away from everything I know that keeps me content in the wrong ways, that I would be able to find myself without drugs again, like I could when I felt enlightened and would read books and focus and have plans and goals and shit.  I have always been the type to be about my money and about being right in life and shit, but I'm not practicing what I preach, spending whatever money I scrounge up on everything but my bills just because I know I can scrounge up more or borrow it or etc I just don't use my mind with my money at all.  It's just instant gratification all the time. 

Maybe some one else has been through this and maybe you can give me some insight.

I also want to quit smoking weed, it's to the point where the smell of weed doesn't even register to me as familiar, like I don't smell it like other people who are new to it do, and I don't get high at all like they do, I'm a complete burnout and I feel like over intoxicated almost when I smoke, I don't get high but I feel like my brain just overloaded with bullshit signals maybe or something idk. 


There are no jobs and no opportunities around here, I am a high school AND college dropout, I'm very intelligent, but I only have experience in one line of work I can't mess with any more because of my injuries, it just leads to bad and unhealthy habbits and behaviors that I slip into and don't realize I fucked up until I'm drowning in bullshit. Craving more, or coming down etc. agh.

I really feel like I could offer this world something with my art but I can't ever establish myself as an artist if I can't establish myself as a human being,... my social anxiety is so bad I break out in sweat answering phones.  I only feel content around those I know. 

If anyone actually reads this and has any advice on a path to take steps to take, etc. I would really appreciate it...feel free to share your experiences if similar and how you worked it out. I know a lot of people deal with this.


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Anonymous #2

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #1] * 1
    #19406983 - 01/12/14 05:37 AM (10 years, 19 days ago)

I'm not exactly sure how to start this off, but I will say that you are not very far in. I mean that in if you are only taking 5 10mg tabs then you aren't doing shit. I don't mean to make it a contest. You need to stop now. It will be shitty for a week and half but it won't be the unimaginable nightmare that me and other heroin addicts have gone through. Maybe you're thinking as you read this "I won't do heroin", and you may not ever do it, but once you start to not give a shit anymore and start doing oxy 30's every 4 hours then you just increase and increase the dose. You will always be chasing that mellow warm embrace that opiates give. I was 18 when I started with Vicoprofen then quickly went to 10mg norco 6 a day plus soma and clonazepam. Then on up to 12 10mg norco's daily. Then two months after that I was taking 15mg roxy's 6x daily. I discovered the needle. I started shooting oxymorphone 20mg twice daily. I was already doing heroin on the side in addition to the oxymorphone. Then I started a journey with Lady Heroin that I still battle with today. I was up to .5g a day of smack. I did purification teks on it, and it came to be around ~90% pure diamorphine.


Don't continue. It is not worth it. It may seem like it right now but 3 years from now it won't man. I guarantee it. Best of luck.


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Anonymous #3

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #2]
    #19409162 - 01/12/14 04:56 PM (10 years, 18 days ago)

you just have a mental addiction to them...stop now before you have a real problem, like anon#2 is saying.

I'd say that being strung out on methamphetamine 24/7 is actually much more manageable than trying to support any kind of opiate addiction...and that should tell you something right there lol.


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Anonymous #1

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #3]
    #19422908 - 01/15/14 01:34 PM (10 years, 15 days ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #3 said:
you just have a mental addiction to them...stop now before you have a real problem, like anon#2 is saying.

I'd say that being strung out on methamphetamine 24/7 is actually much more manageable than trying to support any kind of opiate addiction...and that should tell you something right there lol.




yeah... I guess I underestimated my use, I'm really doing it almost closer to daily... I'm not as concerned about the addiction as I am my behavior and how I just seem to just let things happen over and over again.  Idfk anymore Idek why I asked the question because I probably won't take any good advice.


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Anonymous #4

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19423767 - 01/15/14 04:53 PM (10 years, 15 days ago)

Yeah I was addicted to norcos (10mg hydrocodone) for 2 years. I stopped multiple times in between because of droughts. I would just taper down. Your not going to get anywhere cold turkey. Keep reducing each dosage day by day, keep some xanax and nyquil around to get sleep and get through it.. imdoium too. Maybe try buying some Phenibut. I switched to kratom then tapered off kratom. Shit works wonders...


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Anonymous #1

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #4]
    #19424216 - 01/15/14 06:32 PM (10 years, 15 days ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #4 said:
Yeah I was addicted to norcos (10mg hydrocodone) for 2 years. I stopped multiple times in between because of droughts. I would just taper down. Your not going to get anywhere cold turkey. Keep reducing each dosage day by day, keep some xanax and nyquil around to get sleep and get through it.. imdoium too. Maybe try buying some Phenibut. I switched to kratom then tapered off kratom. Shit works wonders...





I have kratom but honestly it teases me into buying opiates...everytime. If I could take xanax I probably wouldn't have an opiate problem... that is half the reason right there I started messing with them again is because my doc who doesn't know much about anxiety didnt want to prescribe me more than .5 twice a day, and I definitely need like 1mg 3 times a day, last time that was my dosage my life was fairly normal and regulated and organized as well.  Hopefully xanax will become a part of the solution here shortly.  And my binge money is about out for this round, so a few days sobriety is approaching. atleast...


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Anonymous #5

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19425512 - 01/15/14 11:12 PM (10 years, 15 days ago)

It's good to express yourself but in the end..

KICK IT KICK IT FUCKING KICK IT.

I've seen friends I knew as children become monsters and die from it. I almost did too. KICK IT.

take 12g of mushrooms instead.


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Anonymous #4

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #5]
    #19426404 - 01/16/14 06:29 AM (10 years, 15 days ago)

Well then order some benzos online. I used phenazepam once but I had absolutely nothing to do so I was able to do pretty heavy dosages, sleep for 2 days at a time and woke up at the end opiate free. Honestly you got to got to look and seek it, blaming your doctor not scripting you enough isn't enough. You can easily obtain any benzo online, yes xanax is available overseas without a script around 4$ a 2mg bar.


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Anonymous #1

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #4]
    #19427358 - 01/16/14 10:44 AM (10 years, 15 days ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #4 said:
Well then order some benzos online. I used phenazepam once but I had absolutely nothing to do so I was able to do pretty heavy dosages, sleep for 2 days at a time and woke up at the end opiate free. Honestly you got to got to look and seek it, blaming your doctor not scripting you enough isn't enough. You can easily obtain any benzo online, yes xanax is available overseas without a script around 4$ a 2mg bar.





and I can order it and have it shipped to the states?


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Anonymous #4

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19427388 - 01/16/14 10:50 AM (10 years, 15 days ago)

Yes, I can't provide a link, search google for forums on international online pharmacies.


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Anonymous #1

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #4]
    #19429343 - 01/16/14 05:35 PM (10 years, 14 days ago)

Quote:

Anonymous #4 said:
Yes, I can't provide a link, search google for forums on international online pharmacies.




I'm going to look into it.. you can't tell me about legality can you?


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Anonymous #6

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19429402 - 01/16/14 05:46 PM (10 years, 14 days ago)

Dude if you havent developed a physical tolerance yet, just try to stop. Once physical addiction to opiates starts, the addiction potential skyrockets.


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Anonymous #4

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #6]
    #19432604 - 01/17/14 10:39 AM (10 years, 14 days ago)

well, the vendor has specific methods they use to get packs through customs. Some guarantee it, and or replace the pack and others just are so good they always slide through. If it is seized you get a letter of forfeiture saying they confiscated drugs and to claim it sign and return or just forfeit with no penalty. obviously don't do anything and your good!


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Anonymous #7

Re: opiate addiction [Re: Anonymous #1]
    #19437577 - 01/18/14 12:11 PM (10 years, 13 days ago)

You are a junkie now.
Get help.  Don't be afraid of getting help.
Have something to live for and go after it like your life depends on it.  Because it actually does.  I'm sure you know a few people by now who have died from it directly or indirectly.  Write their names down on a piece of paper and envision yourself as someone else.

Get some help.  And turn your life around, one step at a time.

-MC

-edit- focus on the heroin first.  It might be easier to get a job though once you get the weed out of your system.  Having a regular job and something to do will help you get clean.

Quote:

Anonymous #1 said:
I have a problem.  I am very fond of opiates.  I have taken them since I was given a vicodin before school in freshman year and it helped me focus and overcome my social anxiety and think clearly, now many years later, one vicodin won't do shit for me, I'm up to multiple (5+) pills each time I dose, and it's to the point where the writing I love to do, only happens when I take opiates now because that's the only time I can settle down and find myself, and it isn't because my mind is going through the withdrawls, because I can stop for a few weeks and have nothing, usually i take em 1-2 times a week just to enjoy finding myself, but it's getting bad and I even considered trying heroin so I know I have to cut this shit out, but I also this year after 2 years of experiencing shoulder pain that will never go away it is getting so bad that I need painkillers, and I want them for that now too, it's just making it harder to put them away.  I know if I could get off drugs and get my mind right enough to find a good job so I can get to a better state and away from everything I know that keeps me content in the wrong ways, that I would be able to find myself without drugs again, like I could when I felt enlightened and would read books and focus and have plans and goals and shit.  I have always been the type to be about my money and about being right in life and shit, but I'm not practicing what I preach, spending whatever money I scrounge up on everything but my bills just because I know I can scrounge up more or borrow it or etc I just don't use my mind with my money at all.  It's just instant gratification all the time. 

Maybe some one else has been through this and maybe you can give me some insight.

I also want to quit smoking weed, it's to the point where the smell of weed doesn't even register to me as familiar, like I don't smell it like other people who are new to it do, and I don't get high at all like they do, I'm a complete burnout and I feel like over intoxicated almost when I smoke, I don't get high but I feel like my brain just overloaded with bullshit signals maybe or something idk. 


There are no jobs and no opportunities around here, I am a high school AND college dropout, I'm very intelligent, but I only have experience in one line of work I can't mess with any more because of my injuries, it just leads to bad and unhealthy habbits and behaviors that I slip into and don't realize I fucked up until I'm drowning in bullshit. Craving more, or coming down etc. agh.

I really feel like I could offer this world something with my art but I can't ever establish myself as an artist if I can't establish myself as a human being,... my social anxiety is so bad I break out in sweat answering phones.  I only feel content around those I know. 

If anyone actually reads this and has any advice on a path to take steps to take, etc. I would really appreciate it...feel free to share your experiences if similar and how you worked it out. I know a lot of people deal with this.




Edited by Anonymous (01/18/14 12:12 PM)


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