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tripmob
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Are you worried about taking your first mushroom "trip"?
#19386388 - 01/08/14 02:50 AM (10 years, 23 days ago) |
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Here is my story...
I was 25 years old and suffering from majore panic attacks, I would end up at the hospital 4-6 times a week via an ambulance. I felt like I was having a heart attack, my arm would go numb, I could not breath. The doctors did lots of test and told me basically nothing was physically wrong with me. It was all in my head, panic/anxiety attacks.
I lived this way for over a year. I called the ambulance so much the EMS guys knew me by my first name, the hospital I went to would do there normal blood work and give me a shot in the ass that made me really just not give a fuck about anything and then they would send me home. Panic attack. Theres nothing wrong with you. To make this post shorter ill leave out a lot about my condition, suffice to say I lived in a heightened state of fear for a long time.
A friend of mine started growing mushrooms, at first it was a big deal for our group of friends. Everyone was triping. I was scared to trip, shit I was scared to drink a cup of coffee because I did not want anything to increase my heart rate, it would trigger my attacks. Then I got curious, it was more then curiosity, I felt like my soul was pushing me to trip, I wanted to explore myself, to find out why my mind was going haywire and fix it. No doctors would help me. In there eyes my mind was creating my symptoms, they would just stick a needle in my ass and send me off to lala land.
When I decided to trip shrooms every one was against it and advised me not to because of my disorder. I could not even take tylenol with out freaking out. But I was set. I wanted to help myself. I got hooked up with a sort of spiritual guide my friend recomended to me and she sat with me during my first trip. I felt good around her, partially because she was a very experienced traveler and a very calm person, mostly because she was super sexy and flirty tho 
On my first trip I ingested 5 grams of mushrooms. We were camping in a tent at a K.O.A campground outside of dallas tx. I was blown away, when they first started to affect me my mind did freak out, I panicked. My sitter did her best to calm me. And then the full force of this wonderfull substance hit me, the night sky was as bright as day, my anxiety went away. I couldnt stop laughing! And that was just the beginning! I was overcame with such happyness and understanding. That nite I tripped hard, engulfed in the world of that magic little mushroom. This world was no longer relevent . it was a deeply personal experience and I wont go into the details much.
That trip was a turning point in my life, I still suffer from anxiety attacks from time to time but no where near the leval I use to be at. Im still an asshole sometimes. I still wish my sitter would have let me fuck. But the point is, triping shrooms was and still is a very positive and healing experience for me, and if I would have listened to the masses or let my fear overcome me I quit possibly would have never triped, or been able to dig myself out of the hole of perpetual fear that my life had become.
Everyone advised me not to trip, today I guess im a sort of trip hippi...psychadelics are the only drugs I do...except weed..and herion...and sometimes hydrocodone, okay so scratch the only drugs I do part...but seriously, taking shrooms or any psychadelic should always be a deeply personal decission. Make up your own mind about it. Follow your "instinct" (for lack of a better word)
As a side note, if you do decide to trip shrooms, you should probably not take 5 grams on your first trip. That is a lot. I intentionally took a large dose and in retrospect the large dose is what saved me from freaking out completly, I was litterally takin out of this world. My earthly concerns simply ceased to exist. You should not assume it will work out the same for you.
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Re: Are you worried about taking your first mushroom "trip"? [Re: tripmob]
#19386438 - 01/08/14 03:21 AM (10 years, 23 days ago) |
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I really hope this story can help someone who was in your same situation. 5 's for you my friend
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zoom_zoom_shroom
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Re: Are you worried about taking your first mushroom "trip"? [Re: Immortal Jellyfish]
#19386544 - 01/08/14 04:57 AM (10 years, 23 days ago) |
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Heh that's great OP! Really happy for you My story is almost, the opposite, but has a happy ending same as yours.
I pretty much had an awesome life (not at all trying to gloat, just being as objective as I can when comparing to alot of others that have so little). Great girlfriend, awesome friends and family and doing really well in my studies at university.
I pretty much fell in love with the idea of shrooms as soon as I read the effects it causes and was really keen to try them. So I went hunting and picked some and my first 2 trips were fantastic. Pure candyland bliss with a real "I fucking love everything, everything is so darn AMAZING and BEAUTIFUL" type vibe.
3rd trip I took a higher dose that I was not ready for and got my ass handed to me. Got pulled waaayy out of my comfort zone and freaked out bigtime, reality was being wrenched away from me and I was not willing to let go. I had my first panic attack during this trip at the age of 21. Before this I could not even fathom how an anxiety attack would actually feel, it is a truly terrible feeling.
The aftermath of this bad trip was quite intense for me, I felt like the very fabric of my reality had been permanently torn, and I entered an existential crisis which lasted over a month, in which I became very neurotic, not at all like myself, with panic attacks occurring about once a week and Limited Symptom attacks pretty much daily, and even between attacks my background anxiety levels were far above normal, which beforehand was pretty much zero.
Shrooms took me out of my comfort zone but it felt like they only put me halfway back in when the trip finished. After almost 2 months of living this way in a state of moderate Neurosis I decided enough was enough, and forced myself to make peace with every issue that was causing me grief and anxiety. After much soul-searching and many bouts of willpower I gained a new intense appreciation of everything I had in life and how lucky I really was and with that in hand managed to first ignore and then "crush" my anxiety problems.
I realized that an existential crisis is at it's core one of the most ego-centric phenomena a person can experience, a desperate attempt by the ego-threatened mind to build an ultimate sense-of-self to attempt to oppose the enigma of near-but-not-quite ego-obliteration that is the bad trip. This was evident because at the height of my almost 2 month long neurosis, notions such as the Egocentric predicament (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Egocentric_predicament) really bothered me, especially regarding solipsism, but now it is now clear as day to me that the mere entertainment of these idea's as tangible worries were the result of the minds ego-defense fortification induced by the bad trip, and as such a rejected them, and rejected them spectacularly, along with all their accompanying anxiety and unease, as confidently as one might reject the idea that a giant flying spaghetti monster is menacingly lurking behind them when no one else is around, and why not, both ideas are just as baseless and unprovable as each other.
I pretty much did a complete 180 and now see that we are all in this together, connected in this fellowship experiencing the amazing journey that is life.
Shrooms brought me to a dark place, but forced me to first confront my demons and be humbled by them before giving me the opportunity to vanquish them spectacularly. The whole episode has left me feeling enlightened and I'm happier and more carefree than ever nowadays plus my mild-moderate OCD which I've had since my early teens is now almost completely gone; I realised it tied in with the other problems I was experiencing and resolved it needed to go as well, and I can thank the mushrooms for all of that.   
Anyways, just another story about how psychedelics can profoundly affect someone's life, and I'm Glad I've finally told it. I've tripped again since all of this happened and it was fantastic - Only Good vibes, peace and joy.
Edited by zoom_zoom_shroom (01/08/14 05:01 AM)
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Re: Are you worried about taking your first mushroom "trip"? [Re: zoom_zoom_shroom]
#19386636 - 01/08/14 06:23 AM (10 years, 23 days ago) |
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Zoom zoom and OP, thank you both for sharing. It was very insightful.
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HarryL
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Re: Are you worried about taking your first mushroom "trip"? [Re: Aopocetx]
#19387066 - 01/08/14 09:32 AM (10 years, 23 days ago) |
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Good read... Not everyone with anxiety disorders are ready for mushrooms But glad it was a good experience for you .... Thanks for sharing
Modern medicine is just now scratching the surface of the potential use of psychedelics in the healing arts. Very possible in 20 years, they will play an important role is treatment of various disorders.
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Re: Are you worried about taking your first mushroom "trip"? [Re: HarryL]
#19387149 - 01/08/14 09:56 AM (10 years, 23 days ago) |
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I've read that larger doses can be easier to handle because you are so inhibited. Glad you found relief. Hopefully you're not going to the hospital all the time now.
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Webster10
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Re: Are you worried about taking your first mushroom "trip"? [Re: tripmob]
#19387199 - 01/08/14 10:12 AM (10 years, 23 days ago) |
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I really don't understand why mushrooms and other psychedelics are illegal for medicinal use. Isn't it true that LSD was 40% more affective than ANY other substance in treating addiction such as alcoholism? If I'm wrong please correct me I don't want to spread false information.
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Re: Are you worried about taking your first mushroom "trip"? [Re: Webster10]
#19387304 - 01/08/14 10:33 AM (10 years, 23 days ago) |
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Quote:
Webster10 said: I really don't understand why mushrooms and other psychedelics are illegal for medicinal use. Isn't it true that LSD was 40% more affective than ANY other substance in treating addiction such as alcoholism? If I'm wrong please correct me I don't want to spread false information.
Ibogaine has a reported 7% relapse rate for heroin addicts. You're right but I'm not sure where that statistic came from exactly.
Just look at JFK's mother, she went through LSD trials for alcoholism.
Everyone has the potential for healing with psyches its just the fact so many people treat them like a recreation with these small doses that people slip into mental illness; therapeutic settings rule. (mountains,rivers,clear skies) Set/Setting.
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