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st1llnox
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Moving into my new apartment... 1
#19377444 - 01/06/14 02:16 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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TODAY!!!
Got out of the nut hut (hopefully for the last time) on the 4th and my parents said I unconditionally can't live with them anymore/right now (but that they're glad I'm still around, if you catch my drift; they do love me and did).
I'll post pictures when I get to see my apartment later today. I'll be sharing 2 bedrooms, one bathroom plus a living room and kitchen with a really chill guy I met (chill to the point of being sedated, lol, but this is why I tell people to fire doctors that want them on Zyprexa).
I'm getting off topic. But yeah, I AM FINALLY GETTING TO MAKE THE MOVE I NEEDED TO SO LONG AND I WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH ALL 4 OF YOU THAT STILL LIKE ME lololol
Also, I'm going to rehab (uuuuhgain) but that won't be for a few days.
The best part of all of this meltdown with my family? Apparently my parents just literally do not want me living with them and that's 90% or more of the issue. They still want to support me if I will pull my end: they're paying my phone bill while I cant afford it myself, they're letting me keep stuff there, and get this.... IF I ACTUALLY FINISH REHAB THIS TIME, THEY'RE PAYING FOR COPAY AND ANY OTHER COSTS. There was even hint of them helping me finish college still, which just astounds me. I get so much more than I deserve but I'm going to try to earn it.
And I can't fucking afford it but I ordered myself an Xbox One last night (this is why I don't like Xanax... all the surprises you get when you're done beng blacked out) but I think I'm going to keep it if I make it through rehab too as a gift to myself and for something to do plus that'll keep me off here for you guys 
Ramble ramble ramble but damn I'm happy. I feel like most of the stress of my life is gone already.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
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seadragon
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19377499 - 01/06/14 02:27 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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so u were living at home or where?
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i like cow poo
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19377538 - 01/06/14 02:37 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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goddamn xbox one? don't take xannies bruh I hope you get better stay strong
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: seadragon]
#19377547 - 01/06/14 02:38 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Long way to go bro. Good luck!
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st1llnox
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i like cow poo said: goddamn xbox one? don't take xannies bruh I hope you get better stay strong
I took bars. I literally had a doctor who trusted me to script (within reason) anything I asked him for if I told him why I needed it, and there's a reason I've only ever asked for 0.5's lol.
Still... I haven't sold my gaming projector yet so this is going to be fucking sweet while I play the one good game on it. Lemme go see what else I ordered... BRB
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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st1llnox
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: seadragon]
#19377842 - 01/06/14 03:41 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Ryse, Battlefield 4, CoD: Ghosts, spare controller, Xbox One system itself, and 12 months of xbox live gold.
(Thank you XanaxStillnox )
I also bought a Dance game on a separate order an hour later but that makes sense since I've had this theory I could get in great shape playing video games.
I also bought some of those TV glasses... not the kind you use on a 3D TV but the kind that have screens in each lens.
Think google glass with an HDMI port and headphones I guess.
I'm never allowed to bitch about my debt on here or take xanax bars again now though  Quote:
seadragon said: so u were living at home or where?
At home with my parents. You missed a TON of my drama with all that shit while you were gone but suffice it to say this is a GREAT life change for me.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19377875 - 01/06/14 03:48 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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glad you're alright(and back as the stillNox I know...) but you should have just bought battleturd and forza
fucking that's great about the zanies, my parents guarded my shit and it was like some generic drug like why the fuck would I take this shit for fun? lol
not only that I'm afraid to take drugs because I'm afraid they'll fuck up my sleep
i was driving in a car one day and I felt like a fucking cat, I would talk to people mad slow, I don't picture myself as a conversationalist but people know I'm a smart person, it's just like I was ignoring everything around me, like absent mindedly it was like having aspergers and sleeping all day
fucking they give you a place to live with disabled people though?
I don't follow up on shit like that but I figured it'd be kind of strict or something, I get along with people but it'd just be weird because I wouldn't be asking for support obviously
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19377885 - 01/06/14 03:51 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I moved into an apartment of my own around two months ago and it feels very nice to be out on my own once again. Congrats sir.
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: Snotfish] 2
#19377927 - 01/06/14 04:03 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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are you just buying all that shit on your parents dollar? get a job man
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: thelanzii] 6
#19377979 - 01/06/14 04:19 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Nemmies said: are you just buying all that shit on your parents dollar? get a job man
His parents have him out of the house, I don't think they care how much it costs them.
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st1llnox
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: Konyap]
#19378699 - 01/06/14 06:47 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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qman said:
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Nemmies said: are you just buying all that shit on your parents dollar? get a job man
His parents have him out of the house, I don't think they care how much it costs them. 
Both you two but mainly nemmies need to shove it lol. I'm paying for it out of my latest McDonald's paycheck.
My parents already told me that after rehab they'll pay all of my college still though 
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Illyabo said: glad you're alright(and back as the stillNox I know...) but you should have just bought battleturd and forza
fucking that's great about the zanies, my parents guarded my shit and it was like some generic drug like why the fuck would I take this shit for fun? lol
not only that I'm afraid to take drugs because I'm afraid they'll fuck up my sleep
i was driving in a car one day and I felt like a fucking cat, I would talk to people mad slow, I don't picture myself as a conversationalist but people know I'm a smart person, it's just like I was ignoring everything around me, like absent mindedly it was like having aspergers and sleeping all day
fucking they give you a place to live with disabled people though?
I don't follow up on shit like that but I figured it'd be kind of strict or something, I get along with people but it'd just be weird because I wouldn't be asking for sup port obviously
Who's they? Nobody's 'giving' me anything; I'm paying my share in a 2 bedroom apartment with a friend of mine who happens to take Zyprexa. Were my last roommates living with a disabled person because I take Adderall?
IM JUST SO EXCITED
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19378818 - 01/06/14 07:09 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I am very happy for you, sti11nox. Please keep this up. A life of independence is a nice one.
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qman
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19378831 - 01/06/14 07:11 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Tell your parents to pay for your apartment, if it wasn't for their poor parenting you would never have ended up in a "nut hut" or a rehabilitation facility for substance abuse.
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: qman]
#19378875 - 01/06/14 07:20 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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The beauty of being a human is having free will. That's all I will say to your joke.
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19378887 - 01/06/14 07:23 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Scrolled through your post- Didn't catch an apology for both worrying a lot of people by what you said and may have done, and for bashing people who were legitimately trying to help you and were being really caring. Not me, I was pretty blunt, but Kronik0 comes to mind.
Sounds like nothings changed.. Anway, congrats on moving out. Good luck living on McDonalds wages; hopefully you have an idea on how to budget and cook for yourself.
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: pcplease]
#19380696 - 01/07/14 02:20 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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your could afford a room with mcDonalds money?
oohhhhhhhh I see what's going on here....
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st1llnox
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: pcplease]
#19382251 - 01/07/14 12:34 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Illyabo said: your could afford a room with mcDonalds money?
oohhhhhhhh I see what's going on here....
Google "Belton, Missouri" and you'll see how yes, in fact, I'm affording it with McDonalds money.
although $20, me love you long time 
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pcplease said: Scrolled through your post- Didn't catch an apology for both worrying a lot of people by what you said and may have done, and for bashing people who were legitimately trying to help you and were being really caring. Not me, I was pretty blunt, but Kronik0 comes to mind.
Sounds like nothings changed.. Anway, congrats on moving out. Good luck living on McDonalds wages; hopefully you have an idea on how to budget and cook for yourself.
I read though those and didn't remember most of that and I feel like a piece of shit already. I called Kronoko when I saw how I was treating him there. I want badly to make a thread explaining myself, apologizing to each person individually (which I've done partially by PM's, and possibly even post a couple papers from the ER or hospital since half of you don't believe me.
My thing is all that would do is get me more haters potentially. I mean look: I made the best change I've made in the last 2 years if my life--and on my own, no less--and even that seems to be met with cynicism.
Thanks for the encouragement, the rest of you. If I'm missing anyone's sarcasm, that's my bad.
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IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19382441 - 01/07/14 01:25 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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now I don't feel so bad for helping push you off the edge two weeks ago.
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st1llnox
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: koods]
#19382506 - 01/07/14 01:37 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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It's already been two weeks? Not quite sure I'd this is fleeting glance of approval from a well-intentioned antagonist or just silliness... But thanks and none of you had much of anything to do with that. If I said you did, well... Now you see how much hate and spite has built up in me.
I love my new place but I think most of it would fit in my old bedroom at my parents house.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
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Re: Moving into my new apartment... [Re: st1llnox]
#19382523 - 01/07/14 01:42 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sup Still. Nice new avatar 
I for one am glad your OK. Enjoy your new found freedom away from your parents, at your age it's the right thing to do. Remember that your parents love you though, and only want you to succeed.
Edited by Magicman69 (01/07/14 01:42 PM)
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