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Channeling_Spirit



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Little Venting - Fuck Foot Neuromas
#19374155 - 01/05/14 06:08 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Holy shit! Got a god damn psuedoneuroma or regular neuroma (no way to know unless they cut my foot open). Basically I can't fucking walk and my job requires I stand the entire time.
I got a cortisone shot, got fit for orthotics.... The shot did nothing, in fact it made my problem much more unbearable.
I've looked into surgery options and it seems like a shitty choice... The vast majority of people with this condition never have it healed and the surgery either makes it worse, or helps for about a year.
I don't have this kind of money I make $10 an hour!
It's getting more and more unbearable to stand at my job and I spend a lot of my time upset/sad/sometimes crying.
I'm broke, and feel so lost with my life. I have no idea what direction to move in, as this dead-end job won't pay my bills.
Feeling pretty shitty since I'm 23 years old and I have a foot problem common in much older women.
There is no cure, and nothing helps so far. Running out of options, money, and faith.
Figure I'll get ridiculed by some, maybe some will show love who knows. This is the pub after all.
I'm nearly incapable of working and if this continues I won't be able to work without a cane. I'm too prideful to use a cane at my age, but my hob-wobbling around isn't helping anything.
Anyone here have any ideas what I do here?
Edited by Channeling_Spirit (01/05/14 06:08 PM)
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ComputerTekGuy
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Fix your diet and balance out your body. Be healthy, things can get better....
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Channeling_Spirit



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Think eating healthy can fix all this?
Can a body rid itself of inner scar tissue? The problem here is that I am on my feet 8 hours a day, and this is scar tissue surrounding the nerve so stretching can help nothing, massaging is just going to make it worse (doctor's orders, I still massage away).
Really though, this is an answer I didn't expect yet this is perfectly synchronous. Thank you for your time. How does one learn to eat healthy?
Not to sound like a jag but there are no local farmers out here for me to get good food. Maybe I don't know where to look, not sure.
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psi
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Well that sounds shitty. Any chance of finding a job where you wouldn't have to be standing so much of the time?
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Channeling_Spirit



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Re: Little Venting - Fuck Foot Neuromas [Re: psi]
#19374488 - 01/05/14 07:39 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I've been looking. Craigslist, monster, nearby jobs. It's so depressing that I can't even walk though. I want to work out again, to run again, to pretty much walk normally more than anything.
I want to find a job where I can sit a lot more, but at what cost? I'm struggling to pay for all the visits at the moment, and now it seems I have to find ANOTHER doctor because it seems I have a bulging disc.
I'm running out of time left on my foot as the pain steadily increases and I can't not work due to bills. To settle for a desk job at even $9.00 hour won't cut it. I said 10 because AFTER taxes that's what it comes out to.
I have no real skills, other than parading on spiritual knowledge. I wouldn't mind opening up to a more spiritual lifestyle but as a means of financing myself? Idk. Guess I'm waiting for more signs to say this is the path for me.
I'm gonna keep looking though. Just so depressed. Feel like dying. Keep having dreams about killing myself and how it feels to be even MORE alone on the other side... no one you can communicate with but you know you know you're there. No one else does.
I owe debt back to school. That's why I can't just quit my job and look elsewhere. I would have finished school but I was going for biochemistry. After learning of all the bullshit associated with schools/medical industry I have had it with pharmaceuticals and western medicine for the most part. Synchronicity would have me back at it again lol, learning AGAIN it's useless to use these shots/surgery/pills bullshit.
I'm scared of myself. I'm very frightened. I've severely suicidally depressed. Not just because of this, but the whole of my life at hte moment. My best friend told me he won't talk to me anymore as it is part of his journey to be alone right now. My girlfriend is very distant (same story) and I'm alone and looking where to turn for help/guidance/a fucking friend.
Sorry I turn to you so desperately.
My health is bad, my finances are shit, my happiness is always low and it doesn't seem likely I can find a $13.00 paying job like I have now, one that doens't require much walking/heavy lifting. I'm stil looking though.
Thanks for anyone who read this far. If you don't know what to say but wanna say something, PLEASE PM me.
I'm on my last cat life here. I almost killed myself twice before I really don't want to keep feeling like this anymore.
If anyone feels the need to PM, please do so. I can't stop crying.
I'm a big ol fucking baby oh well. I'm in a lot of pain and I don't know what to do. I'm very scared of this, shroomery. Anyone got a hug? Good vibes?
My limp is so bad... I was told it depresses other people. What the fuck do you want me to do?
In Lak'ech you wonderful people. No need to give me sympathy. No need for anything. I just ask you to be kind. I'm very worn out and tired and very depressed.
Edited by Channeling_Spirit (01/05/14 07:44 PM)
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psi
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That's some heavy stuff man, I hope things start to improve for you somehow.
Were you doing well in school before you quit? Perhaps the careers you looked into are not your only options with the degree you were pursuing. Maybe something in academia for example.
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OldHam


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Life is suffering.
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I can't really imagine. The closest I came to what you're going through is foot drop. (nerve damage from alcohol, or sitting wrong, who knows I never went to a doctor so..) But it damn near dropped me. Horrible.
Four noble truths. I'm telling you, it sounds pompous but it's the truth.
-------------------- The Shallows, Chapter 7, Nicholas Carr
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Micawber
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you seem to have a terrible mistrust in mondern medicine but you know there are quite a few cronic pain patients able to keep their jobs and day to day lives because of it
if youre that depressed and desperate for relief then maybe you shoundnt be so quick to shoot down ideas that have woked for others good luck
-------------------- (mik-kaw'-bur) n. one who is poor but lives in optimistic expectation of better fortune
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