Okay, so I've done shrooms several times before this.
But it was either SUPER mild, nothing happened, or around awkward friends on a low dose.
This time I did 2.8+ of dried shrooms ground up on a peanut butter sandwich & washed it down with some orange juice.
Started watching Coraline, with drum n bass playing in the background.
After about 15-20 minutes I'd say, I started to feel kind of uneasy, another 10 minutes and I started to feel overwhelmed, as if it were coming on too strong too quickly ( boy was i wrong ).
Anyways, I wasn't feeling the vibe that Coraline was giving off, so I changed it immediately. Went to Netflix and put on Mickey Mouse Christmas Story or something similar. Watched that for a bit, I wasn't feeling feeling the drum n bass as it was too much for me. So I quickly changed it to Meditation and Sleeping music. I couldn't get comfortable at first so I was transitioning a lot to ground myself if that makes sense.
So I laid on the bed, closed my eyes and took deep breaths and let the shrooms take over. I started having visuals and a strange euphoria so I laid there and let it happen. It was peaceful, very enjoyable.
I eventually opened my eyes during a scene in the movies that was really visually blending and it tripped me out so I laughed a little bit. It felt good. I was in my bedroom with my girlfriend. All lights off except the TV. I had a black light on above our bed.
When it REALLY took off and started to hit me was when my pillow was scrunched up and the black light was hitting it just right to where it looked like stripes. I said "my pillow looks like cheshire cat!" and busted out laughing, uncontrollably. It was awesome, I couldn't stop.
Finally after getting over-excited rolling around in my bed and blankets over how awesomely funny that was, I got up and walked over to the couch to grab my jacket; ready to venture out-doors ( mind you its like 10 degrees outside ), my siamese cat was laying on it, I got super happy and went to touch her, she was like a cloud ( super soft fur ) I couldn't stop laughing at this point, she got scared and ran away.
Went outside into my backyard, I started to hear really weird sounds. Stared at the trees & the powerlines for a while. I felt as if I could hear or sense a magnetic wave or I had a sense of awareness of radiation and how clouded this world really is.
I walked around, drank some water. My chest was really congested feeling and I kept having to clear my throat(?) I believe my nose was too, I'm not sure.
But I remember questioning whether it was the mushrooms that made me congested or if it was the mushrooms cleansing all of the government toxins from my body which in turn put me in this state of awareness.
Everything was so surreal.
I changed the movie to Jimmy Neutron glanced at it for a few, drank some water and sat on the couch. I kept thinking to myself it was in the music. Everything I experienced, throughout my trip I kept going back to the music. Then I started thinking about how I hear and feel hidden sounds when I'm on shrooms as opposed to being sober. Then it hit me, all of this illuminati, I felt as if I were to listen to any kind of mainstream hip hop on shrooms that it would unravel a very demonic story. a story about them selling their soul for money, they traded their happiness for a fake materialistic lifestyle.
There was more to it, it was a breakthrough for me. It's just far too complicated to even put in words.
So I focued my attention back onto jimmy neutron started drinking more water and felt super care-free as water poured all down my face and I burst into laughter for the thousandth time fell on the ground I was laughing so hard, tears rolling down my face I kept saying I was like drowning in my tears. Looked back at the TV and shit got nuts. Unfathomable about of visualizations, I had no idea what was going on and I couldn't stop laughing. ( highly recommend this show ).
I then direct my attention somewhere else ( I have ADHD so I was literally all over the place ). My girlfriend handed me playdo and I have a black light on mind you, so it was neon and super vibrant and felt fucking awesome between my fingers. I continued to laugh until I thought as if I were going to lose my voice.
The trip seemed like it was on-going. It was like a roller-coaster. Just when you think its coming down or you have peaked, it goes higher up and down.
I felt some sort of guilt as if I was being selfish during my trip experience. I knew my girlfriend didn't have a good trip. She kind've focused on my trip and hers was blah.
There was negativity present from time-to-time and I REALLY disliked that energy so I would push it away and move on. Almost disgusted by it.
I feel like I know what a bad trip is without having experienced it during this trip because I felt the motion of the rollercoaster feeling. Like, to me a bad trip is tripping with someone while they have a fucking blast and you're sitting there like "wtf wheres mine? im not seeing any of this" idk, just thoughts.
This is seriously a small percentage of what I've experienced. It's far too much to even put in words and quite frankly this was the best experience I've had so far in anything. All my failed prior attempts were far worth the wait for this.
I'm too lazy to finish typing the rest and I'm now ready for some food. x]
Also, I was FREEZING cold when I was tripping whether I was under covers or not, I didn't know why.
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