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Offlineblackmill
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Psychotic break on acid
    #19353336 - 01/01/14 12:24 AM (10 years, 30 days ago)

This is the story of where I lost my mind entirely on acid. Enjoy

Intros are boring, so I'll make this quick. I'd never done any drug besides weed prior to this trip. I got a chance to do acid one evening with three other friends, so I took up that opportunity. We were sitting in a car in a parking lot when we all dropped one tab, waited 40 minutes, drop another tab. Then we stepped out into the cold winter and began walking around.

About an hour and a half in, I'm just about peaking on the first tab and still coming up on the second one. Trees were fractaling, tracers galore, I saw words and constellations in the pavement, etc etc. Everything you'd expect from acid. Something else that I didn't expect but enjoyed immensely was the connection I had with people too. Everyone seems to be on the same level on acid.

But then some weird shit started happening

I noticed auditory hallucinations. My voice and other sounds were echoing in my ears, and each echo would distort in some strange way in speed and/or pitch. There was always a constant chattering in my ears from my breathing. It wasn't necessarily unpleasant, but I wasn't expecting it and it got exhausting.

Then I stopping being able to make decisions. Everything felt necessarily right and wrong at the same time. I felt everything at once. I felt hungry and satiated. Cold and hot. I wanted to sit, but also stand. I wanted to pace, but not move. My entire being was in conflict with itself. I had to sit down for a while because I literally felt my sanity slipping away. I told my friends I felt like I was losing my mind, but they didn't think it was a bad thing. Maybe it wasn't. I dunno.

(By the way, I still have no idea if that's a normal effect of LSD or not. Let me know in the replies please.)

Anyway, at this point I began scrutinizing every choice I made. I asked myself what difference my choices made in the grand scheme of things, and I ultimately concluded that my choices amount to precisely dick. At this point I was overcome by a massive wave of emotion. Stronger emotions than I'd ever felt in my life. I began laughing from pure euphoria that nothing mattered, and I screamed in a church parking lot "NOTHING FUCKING MATTERS!" Then, immediately after, I fell to my knees and broke down crying so hard snot was dripping out of my nose. I kept saying over and over "Nothing fucking matters." Switching between utter depression, anger, and pure happiness, rapidly.

Then I started puking. As soon as this happened, I slipped out of reality. I was living about five different realities at once, and I lost track of which one was real. At one point I came back to the true reality, and my friends were dragging me by my arms trying to get me to the car, saying "DUDE, YOU HAVE LOST SO MUCH FUCKING BLOOD." (Nope, that wasn't a hallucination. They actually said that) When I realized I was being dragged, I jumped to my feet. As soon as I did, I slipped out of reality again and took off running.

This is basically where I left earth. I had a few different visions here, but I have no memory of what my physical body was doing at this point.

I got back to what I thought was my car, but who really knows. I hallucinated that my friends took off running away from the car into a field, and I thought that I had to jump into the car to save them. As soon as I opened the car door, my brain got caught in a loop, and I thought that I was actually exiting the car rather than entering it. Every time I exited the car, I thought that a day had gone by. When I began questioning why I couldn't remember those days that I thought had gone by, I concluded that LSD is a sentient thing, and that it had caught me in a time loop to defeat me.

Somehow, I reasoned that if I wrote down a number of years, then every time I would open the car door I would live out that many years. So I wrote down some large arbitrary number in the snow, opened the door, and closed it, and I thought that I'd lived that many years. I then wrote an infinity sign, and when I opened the door, my vision went black.

Then all I saw was a massive expanse of sand. There was one man, naked, walking in circles in the sand. I heard someone narrating "This is a mad man. He has walked in circles for eternity, and will continue to walk in circles. The universe is conceived in the mind of this mad man. This mad man is god."

That vision disappeared and I was now sitting in the parking lot missing my coats and hat. I began asking myself how to "win reality" (Get to heaven or become god, I suppose) I had a vision that, in order to get to do so, you have to live through every single possible horrific death that can be conceived. I hallucinated that I got hit by several different cars, dying each time. The blood was so vivid, but thankfully not real. There was no pain.

Suddenly I was looking into hell, and I saw people being speared and burned. Keep in mind I was still feeling everything at once, so I was scared and happy and indifferent about these visions and every previous vision. I thought that I had to live an eternity in this hell in order to live an eternity in heaven. But just before diving into hell, I somehow reasoned that I could skip this step by drawing a reverse infinity sign, which, now that I'm sober, is obviously just an infinity sign. When I drew the sign, I laid back on the pavement, and I heard my friends voices saying "He figured it out!"

I sat up and saw my three buddies I was tripping with. I thought they were real, but I was completely hallucinating this. They walked towards me and said "It's time to go. We'll explain everything on the way. You don't belong on this plane anymore. You have to lay down and accept your death. It's okay." Naturally I freaked the fuck out and told them no. They got pissed, shook their heads and walked away.

I heard whispering all around me, and I knew that I had to accept death in order to become god. So I laid down, and just as I was on the brink of death, I couldn't actually do it. It wasn't happening. I stood up (Shirt now somehow missing) and the entire left half of my body was numb. In the parking lot I suddenly saw a car my parents owned when I was like 4 years old. I opened the door and I saw my father in the driver's seat. I told him I couldn't become god, and that I was trapped as a mad man just on the brink of being god. My father got pissed off and said "I know, it's been this way for eternity. Jesus. I've been fucking waiting for you to figure this out." I stepped away from the vehicle and looked behind me, and my friends were back (still hallucinations) and they looked disgusted. They said "Why did it take you so fucking long to figure this out?" and walked away, vanishing somewhere.

I became suddenly very aware of how alone I was in the parking lot. I chased after the direction my hallucinatory friends went, screaming "GUYS IM SORRY, COME BACK!" before I got to the main road. I continued to think that I was a mad man and as close to god as I could become, and I thought this until I heard a whispering laughter all around me. When this happened, I looked down and realized I was wearing nothing but underwear. For some reason half of my body was still completely numb, and I was having problems walking.

I tried running and I ran like an idiot because the numbness. That combined with the laughter in my head, I concluded that I was actually fooled into believing I was enlightened, and in fact, I was the idiot of the universe. The joke. I thought for a moment that I was the only person on earth, and that the entire universe was laughing at me. I fell on the ground and rolled around screaming for the universe to give me another chance.


Suddenly I sat up completely silent. I instantly sobered up and the madness was gone. I was now entirely naked in the middle of the road, and I had no clue where the hell my shit was or what the fuck happened. So I stood on the side of the road leaning against a sign post until the cops picked me up. I was sober and functional enough to never admit to any drugs.

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So!...

I walked away with a misdemeanor, 2nd degree frostbite on both of my feet, and banged up knees. The doctor said my feet will be fine, it'll just take forever to heal (They're still healing as I write this). Also, when my friends earlier said "YOU'VE LOST SO MUCH BLOOD", it turns out they were tripping and hallucinating that I was bleeding. Turns out I was actually fine! I called my friends when I got to prison, and they picked me up. Turns out they found my wallet, phone, and coats. Shirt, pants, underwear, and boots are gone, but fuck it.

I haven't quit acid after this experience. It was shitty, yes, but I feel like I learned a lot from it. I know exactly what my psyche was telling me. It was telling me to come to terms with my mortality, and to be at peace with myself and my limitations. Me and my subconscious are bros after that trip. I've dropped acid once more since then, and that time was far more normal and tame.


Part of me wonders if I actually dropped nbome instead of acid. Personally I believe that would account for the madness. nbome is basically just psychosis on a blotter, lets be honest


Edited by blackmill (01/01/14 12:34 AM)


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: blackmill]
    #19353351 - 01/01/14 12:37 AM (10 years, 30 days ago)

This is why people should be careful how they dose until they know what they're dealing with, because this shit is illegal and can get you in serious trouble. But it does appear that the vast majority of people who have nightmarish experiences like this somehow find positivity in them, that is if they don't end up in a mental institution or in prison.


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: happygolucky]
    #19353363 - 01/01/14 12:50 AM (10 years, 30 days ago)

Honestly I should've known better. I'm super sensitive to drugs (I get visuals from weed) and should've stuck to one blotter. Lesson learned. I can take one tab without losing my shit. I guess I just have a fragile psyche?


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: blackmill]
    #19353377 - 01/01/14 12:56 AM (10 years, 30 days ago)

Everyone is different, and each person should find the dose that works for THEM. Who cares if the other guy drops 4 or 5 hits, or eats a quarter of strong shrooms, good for him. Stick with what works for you and puts you in a good place.


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: happygolucky]
    #19359196 - 01/02/14 03:41 PM (10 years, 28 days ago)

Its relative to dose I guess but really LSD and nBOME's have the potential to cause this kind of stuff. Also if there was no sober sitter with you and your friends to tell you what happened its possible some of the stuff you thought was a hallucination wasn't. When your tripping hard it can be difficult to distinguish between whats really happening and what isn't and watching your body move around it can feel like a dream. Slipping in and out of reality and being caught in loops, it sounds like you were experiencing ego loss, the negative aspects of your trip may be down to you trying to hold onto your ego, which isn't uncommon when facing it for the first time, if you do some research and prepare yourself for it, you could be in for one good ride next time! This nothing wrong with loosing your grip on reality, its just something you should build up to so this doesn't happen with it does haha. :smile:


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: DylanOM]
    #19374513 - 01/05/14 07:43 PM (10 years, 25 days ago)

my trip was very similar on 3 hits


u shoulda stuck with 1 hit


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: Deathcore]
    #19376102 - 01/06/14 07:22 AM (10 years, 25 days ago)

Damn dude, I'm glad you're nice and sane now but it musta sucked for your friends at the time. Sounds like you completely lost touch with reality. But it's bound to happen to almost any of us so don't feel bad. What do you think caused that to happen? Are you relatively okay on your other trips?


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: Aopocetx]
    #19377430 - 01/06/14 02:13 PM (10 years, 24 days ago)

religion


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: Deathcore]
    #19381857 - 01/07/14 11:04 AM (10 years, 24 days ago)

Yikes!
I've been meaning to read this for days, and I'm glad I finally did.
What a scary and intense experience! Thanks for sharing.
I'm glad you didn't die of hypothermia, or have to lose any toes
What have you gained from this trip?


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: blackmill]
    #19391076 - 01/08/14 10:53 PM (10 years, 22 days ago)

Now THAT is a bad trip.
Glad i've never hit this point, and i'm sorry you did.


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: FrozenHappiness]
    #19399364 - 01/10/14 02:11 PM (10 years, 20 days ago)

Oh I gained a few things from my trip. I learned to accept my mortality. I'm pretty sure basically the entire thing was my subconscious telling me not to be afraid of death, and that everything will be okay.

I haven't dropped two tabs since then, but every time I drop one I always feel myself ebbing on the edge of insanity again. I'm pretty sure if I drop two I'll lose my shit again. Feeling suicidal while loving life is the weirdest thing. Maybe my brain just isn't wired for psychedelics?


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: blackmill]
    #19400007 - 01/10/14 04:24 PM (10 years, 20 days ago)

Its religion bro.


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: Deathcore]
    #19400644 - 01/10/14 06:52 PM (10 years, 20 days ago)

Whats religion?


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: blackmill]
    #19400679 - 01/10/14 07:02 PM (10 years, 20 days ago)

the reason for psychosis...


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: Deathcore]
    #19401545 - 01/10/14 10:54 PM (10 years, 20 days ago)

I don't believe in god in the traditional sense. I believe the universe as a whole--all of the collective energy within it--is one massive sentient being we call god. I think it knows everything but feels nothing, because emotion can be a weakness, and infinity cannot be flawed. It *understands* emotion, happiness, hurt, etc. but doesn't *feel* it. That's what I think.

So, perhaps you're right. I'm not sure. I'll certainly meditate on this. Anything in particular you suggest?


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Re: Psychotic break on acid [Re: blackmill]
    #19428115 - 01/16/14 01:35 PM (10 years, 14 days ago)

Intense man. Reminds me of the first time I took shrooms and this one time at a party when I took 2 tabs of acid.

I understand how you took something positive away from it. I have always done that after bad trips. I can honestly say that after years of tripping I've come to the conclusion that I am satisfied with what I've learned and don't feel the need to do it again.

I've taken shrooms, acid, mesculine, 2c-i, and 2c-e (most intense trip of my life BY FAR)

One question, you say you waited for the cops to come. How did they find you and how did you know they were coming?


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