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sanchothestoner
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Rehab......
#19328711 - 12/26/13 12:47 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Well, my parents have had enough of my bullshit since I got alcohol poisoning on Christmas Eve and they say I have to go to rehab. I don't really care, in fact I know I need it. I wasn't able to control myself anymore... Only thing that sucks is I start school again soon, so I'm hopefully gonna do this outpatient thing in the same town as school. I went into my moms room today and, out in the open, I saw this bag she had with everything she has stolen from me..... She must have been going through my shit and stealing stuff from me! I am fucked..... There's like 3 bags of MDMA, some mushrooms, tooters, and a bunch of herbal smoke shit. Oh there was also a joint in there, so I took it, rolled another with the herbal stuff, and smoked the joint it was mine originally 
Have any of you done an outpatient program before? How was it? I'm honestly looking forward to it. I'll get to spill everything to someone who can help me get better. I really hate that it's come to this, but that's what I get for being a piece of shit.
My girlfriend told me last night that she can't stay with me if I'm going to keep have near death experiences cause of drugs/booze..... I don't blame her at all, but damn that hurts. I love her more than anything, and I've already ruined so many relationships because of drugs.... I lost my first love cause of my use, she fucking shattered my heart, and I went fucking crazy after that. I also don't want my parents, sister, and girlfriend to have to go through what I've put them through..... they don't even know about 3 of my ODs, or how much I've truly done. Ranging from binging on Xanax for 4 days and being blacked out the entire time to eating 25 hits of L in 10 days.
Don't know when I'm gonna start, expecting a call from a counselor soon. Wish me luck, Shroomery
-------------------- I fucking hate you... God damn, I love you... But we both know if we stick together, we'll just tear ourselves apart You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are grey You are my heroin, but there's an abscess... God damn, I miss the vein!
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deCypher



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Good luck.
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Mrdbrewer
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best of luck man i know what its like to rely on booze constantly.
I hope you get clean
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gzuf
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Gotta do whatcha gotta do Good luck.
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nksfo5
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dude how old are you? your parents are putting you in rehab because of alcohol...
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Magicman69
All About the Benjamins



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Re: Rehab...... [Re: gzuf]
#19328801 - 12/26/13 01:02 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I've been to all sorts of rehabs. Inpatients, outpatients, expensive places, free places. It comes down to the will to change. If you don't want to change your lifestyle, you wont.
My last rehab was a 6 month inpatient at the Salvation Army rehab. That was a year and a half ago and I'm still doing awesome. My life is completely manageable now, I just got my grades for fall quarter Straight A's.
Good luck
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nksfo5
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Re: Rehab...... [Re: nksfo5]
#19328832 - 12/26/13 01:09 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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i got in some trouble with the law and had to go through an outpatient program. needless to say they arent that terrible, and there is actually quite a bit of helpful and useful information that you learn while your in the classes. use it to your advantage my friend, there is no reason not too, and in personal opinion there is a very large difference between using, and abusing git your head on straight, over dosing isnt cool
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Patlal
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Re: Rehab...... [Re: nksfo5]
#19328882 - 12/26/13 01:28 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Its the best decision someone has ever made for you OP.
Best of luck!
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ManianFH
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Good luck man. Sounds like u could really use the help. Drugs/alcohol are complete bullshit when weighed next to family and friends. Hopefully u find whatever it is ure looking for and give that shit up.
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rackem



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rehab doesnt do shit unless you really want to change.
been to many of places... inpatient/outpatient/places where they take your shoes and make ya hike through the damn dessert for a month pushing a fucking cart.
all that didnt help until i finally came to terms with it.
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occollegeboi
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Re: Rehab...... [Re: rackem]
#19328998 - 12/26/13 01:54 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Wow, I must say, I'm really proud that you can actually ADMIT that you have a problem. It takes a lot of people a LOOOONG time or even never at all to admit they have a problem.
I don't want to sound cliche, but, you know, that's the first step to getting help.
The only thing that sucks about these therapy things is that it takes time out of your day twice a week or however often it is. But it shouldn't be so bad considering you actually WANT the help.
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mpd
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Good luck. You'll be a new you with the same old addictions, you just have to choose which addiction to feed - the good ones or the bad ones.
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Magicman69
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Re: Rehab...... [Re: mpd]
#19329038 - 12/26/13 02:05 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Whatever you do, don't find a new girlfriend in rehab. "Don't shop for a new car in the junkyard"
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sanchothestoner
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nksfo5 said: dude how old are you? your parents are putting you in rehab because of alcohol...
I'm 20, and they're not putting me in for alcohol. It was just the alcohol poisoning event that made them make the decision. I am a poly drug abuser. Pretty much anything will make me happy.
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Magicman69 said: Whatever you do, don't find a new girlfriend in rehab. "Don't shop for a new car in the junkyard"
Well, I still have my girl so I definitely won't be looking for someone..... especially in an outpatient program 
Thanks for the vibes. I guess I'm going in tomorrow for some orientation. And the journey begins.......
-------------------- I fucking hate you... God damn, I love you... But we both know if we stick together, we'll just tear ourselves apart You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are grey You are my heroin, but there's an abscess... God damn, I miss the vein!
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nksfo5
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Magicman69 said: Whatever you do, don't find a new girlfriend in rehab. "Don't shop for a new car in the junkyard"
yeah definately dont do that 
during my program, for me i came to terms with the fact that i was completely over doing my intoxications eating mushrooms or acid atleast 2 or 3 times a week as well as a small handful of other tihngs everyday, now when i find myself in the right place at the right time or plan a trip i enjoy myself much much more than i did when it was becoming a part of life
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sanchothestoner
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Re: Rehab...... [Re: nksfo5]
#19329231 - 12/26/13 03:00 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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nksfo5 said:
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Magicman69 said: Whatever you do, don't find a new girlfriend in rehab. "Don't shop for a new car in the junkyard"
yeah definately dont do that 
during my program, for me i came to terms with the fact that i was completely over doing my intoxications eating mushrooms or acid atleast 2 or 3 times a week as well as a small handful of other tihngs everyday, now when i find myself in the right place at the right time or plan a trip i enjoy myself much much more than i did when it was becoming a part of life
You sound like me, but with MDMA instead of mushrooms. The lady I talked to was surprised to hear that LSD was my drug of choice. She was like "Wow.... LSD, you don't hear that often.
-------------------- I fucking hate you... God damn, I love you... But we both know if we stick together, we'll just tear ourselves apart You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are grey You are my heroin, but there's an abscess... God damn, I miss the vein!
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Good vibes brother, life has it's ups and downs but there's plenty of goodness to go around. Things will be well in good time
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nksfo5
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Re: Rehab...... [Re: Sheekle]
#19329330 - 12/26/13 03:27 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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life is much better sober most the time and high sometimes, than it is the other way around
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nksfo5
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Re: Rehab...... [Re: nksfo5]
#19329342 - 12/26/13 03:29 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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but its a personal choice i suppose best wishes i hope you realize whats important for your life
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volcomstoner
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sanchothestoner said: Well, my parents have had enough of my bullshit since I got alcohol poisoning on Christmas Eve and they say I have to go to rehab. I don't really care, in fact I know I need it. I wasn't able to control myself anymore... Only thing that sucks is I start school again soon, so I'm hopefully gonna do this outpatient thing in the same town as school. I went into my moms room today and, out in the open, I saw this bag she had with everything she has stolen from me..... She must have been going through my shit and stealing stuff from me! I am fucked..... There's like 3 bags of MDMA, some mushrooms, tooters, and a bunch of herbal smoke shit. Oh there was also a joint in there, so I took it, rolled another with the herbal stuff, and smoked the joint it was mine originally 
Have any of you done an outpatient program before? How was it? I'm honestly looking forward to it. I'll get to spill everything to someone who can help me get better. I really hate that it's come to this, but that's what I get for being a piece of shit.
My girlfriend told me last night that she can't stay with me if I'm going to keep have near death experiences cause of drugs/booze..... I don't blame her at all, but damn that hurts. I love her more than anything, and I've already ruined so many relationships because of drugs.... I lost my first love cause of my use, she fucking shattered my heart, and I went fucking crazy after that. I also don't want my parents, sister, and girlfriend to have to go through what I've put them through..... they don't even know about 3 of my ODs, or how much I've truly done. Ranging from binging on Xanax for 4 days and being blacked out the entire time to eating 25 hits of L in 10 days.
Don't know when I'm gonna start, expecting a call from a counselor soon. Wish me luck, Shroomery 
Dude your situation sounds IDENTICAL to what mine was, and I believe we are both the same age or close. Honestly outpatient isn't that helpful, you should rally consider inpatient for a while. If you want man shoot me a PM, I also know of an AMAZING inpatient in florida that most health insurances will completely cover the cost. I really only went to rehab to get out of jail time, but honestly it was the best decision I've ever made. I really needd a break from the drugs for a while.
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