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The Doobie Dude


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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: nicechrisman]
#19325219 - 12/25/13 11:16 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I am getting a decent paying job soon so I will save up that money as I am quitting drugs come the new year and I have a good amount of money saved up by myself. After this year I am applying to a 4 year school and leaving and if that plan does not work out how I hope I am going upstate and leaving this horrible place for good and not looking back
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Envix
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The Doobie Dude said: Well this is going to be a long post but I really need to vent. It all began 5 years ago currently 19 going to community college to get a cheap associates, when Christmas morning my abusive father who cheated along with my mother by his asshole side announced before we opened our presents they were getting a divorce. Now everyone will say oh thats a long time ago get over it but here is the part where it gets so detailed I cant remember everything. My dad leaves ransacks the house and takes all the money out of my college funds and spends it on his mistress. At this time and legitimately up to this day is suing trying to take the house away from his family he walked out on. Ever day for my family has become a constant struggle while not being short of fighting and constant emotional pain of not knowing what will happen the next day because the divorce as been as emotional draining as it can possibly get.
Fast forward to yesterday, my grandma my moms mom died 2 months back and christmas eve is her birthday so half of my family goes to the cemetery and cries and all that jazz so there was no enjoyment yesterday. I walk downstairs last night to find our presents on the table. I would have wanted to wait because i like surprises and my mom hands me my gifts not wrapped. I had told her a month before please dont get me anything i want my 8 year old sister to have all the money spent on her because she is everything to me. My mom did not listen and instead bought expensive stuff that I have 0 need for and will honestly never use. Kindly I tell her I am happy you thought of me but please return it and keep the money. I rather not take it and let it just collect dust. She begins to yell and say how ungrateful I am. Sorry I rather see enjoyment in my sisters face then my own. I wake up this morning to the normal bull shit of having my bipolar sister (my other one) screaming and starting fights with my mom. I had just gotten my grades back from Fall semester and I got a 3.0 which is my best yet and I tell my mom overjoyed and her response... Wow its not that hard to get a 3.0 when you only take 13 credits, that's fantastic that it will take 2.5 years instead of 2 to get your associates (where i go you need 68 credits for an AA crazy I know) I am like mom I know myself i cant do 18 credits a semester. We start arguing and now I am just in my rooms typing this out.
I am so done feeling like the victim and being treated like shit when I think I am a half decent person I am seriously at the end of my rope I need freedom I want this to end. Sorry if I put a damper on any of your festivity's I am just so alone and every day is the same I cant even enjoy 1 day out of the year.
hey doobie dude. i was gonna quit the shroomery but i came back to respond to this post.
all this stuff you're fussing over is just fuss. i know it doesn't seem like just fuss to you, it may seem like much more than that. but really, all it is is fuss. fuss from you, fuss from your family, just fuss all over, and that's what i see from this post.
if you want to be free, death is not the only passage to freedom. there are other ways to be free while still being alive. it may seem difficult, challenging, or even impossible. but you know in your heart that it's as easy as flipping a switch.
free yourself from the fear, the desires, the hatred, and the "could have been's". free yourself from the fuss. you know you can do this, and the only thing stopping you is yourself.
if you want to be free, live like a free person. live as if you have no attachment to any circumstances in your life.
by living this way, you will live in a completely compassionate, open state of consciousness. you will understand the wishes and woes of others, and have compassion for them.
you can understand what it is like to not feel free, and that is exactly how everyone around you is feeling. the only way you can help set a person free is if you yourself are free. ultimately, the keys to freedom are in the hands of the beholder, and no one else. however, by living as an example, you can teach others how to awaken into this freedom.
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The_Ghost
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: Envix]
#19325250 - 12/25/13 11:29 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Envix said:
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The Doobie Dude said: Well this is going to be a long post but I really need to vent. It all began 5 years ago currently 19 going to community college to get a cheap associates, when Christmas morning my abusive father who cheated along with my mother by his asshole side announced before we opened our presents they were getting a divorce. Now everyone will say oh thats a long time ago get over it but here is the part where it gets so detailed I cant remember everything. My dad leaves ransacks the house and takes all the money out of my college funds and spends it on his mistress. At this time and legitimately up to this day is suing trying to take the house away from his family he walked out on. Ever day for my family has become a constant struggle while not being short of fighting and constant emotional pain of not knowing what will happen the next day because the divorce as been as emotional draining as it can possibly get.
Fast forward to yesterday, my grandma my moms mom died 2 months back and christmas eve is her birthday so half of my family goes to the cemetery and cries and all that jazz so there was no enjoyment yesterday. I walk downstairs last night to find our presents on the table. I would have wanted to wait because i like surprises and my mom hands me my gifts not wrapped. I had told her a month before please dont get me anything i want my 8 year old sister to have all the money spent on her because she is everything to me. My mom did not listen and instead bought expensive stuff that I have 0 need for and will honestly never use. Kindly I tell her I am happy you thought of me but please return it and keep the money. I rather not take it and let it just collect dust. She begins to yell and say how ungrateful I am. Sorry I rather see enjoyment in my sisters face then my own. I wake up this morning to the normal bull shit of having my bipolar sister (my other one) screaming and starting fights with my mom. I had just gotten my grades back from Fall semester and I got a 3.0 which is my best yet and I tell my mom overjoyed and her response... Wow its not that hard to get a 3.0 when you only take 13 credits, that's fantastic that it will take 2.5 years instead of 2 to get your associates (where i go you need 68 credits for an AA crazy I know) I am like mom I know myself i cant do 18 credits a semester. We start arguing and now I am just in my rooms typing this out.
I am so done feeling like the victim and being treated like shit when I think I am a half decent person I am seriously at the end of my rope I need freedom I want this to end. Sorry if I put a damper on any of your festivity's I am just so alone and every day is the same I cant even enjoy 1 day out of the year.
hey doobie dude. i was gonna quit the shroomery but i came back to respond to this post.
all this stuff you're fussing over is just fuss. i know it doesn't seem like just fuss to you, it may seem like much more than that. but really, all it is is fuss. fuss from you, fuss from your family, just fuss all over, and that's what i see from this post.
if you want to be free, death is not the only passage to freedom. there are other ways to be free while still being alive. it may seem difficult, challenging, or even impossible. but you know in your heart that it's as easy as flipping a switch.
free yourself from the fear, the desires, the hatred, and the "could have been's". free yourself from the fuss. you know you can do this, and the only thing stopping you is yourself.
if you want to be free, live like a free person. live as if you have no attachment to any circumstances in your life.
by living this way, you will live in a completely compassionate, open state of consciousness. you will understand the wishes and woes of others, and have compassion for them.
you can understand what it is like to not feel free, and that is exactly how everyone around you is feeling. the only way you can set a person free is if you yourself are free. ultimately, freedom is in the hands of the beholder, and no one else. however, by living as an example, you can teach others how to awaken into this freedom.
Envix, you're the shit, dont leave.
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The Doobie Dude


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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: Envix]
#19325263 - 12/25/13 11:32 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thank you for that post. It is actually quite funny I recently had taken my 1st 5 gram mushroom trip in a while and what I had learned was all I have to do is do well in school and wake up and force myself to smile and continue to do so through out the day and eventually I will feel better. Starting tomorrow I will have taken what I have learned from the mushrooms and from my fellow members here and I will feel better thanks everyone
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"There are a million reasons to drink and one just popped into my head. If a man can't drink when he's living how the Hell can he drink when he's dead?" - Irish Limerick I PLURed once because it was PLUR or die. - D.M.T.
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nicechrisman
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: Envix]
#19325264 - 12/25/13 11:32 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Envix- this community needs people like you. It's easy for us to be overwhelmed by the seeming masses of people who won't even try to understand. So much that we begin to lose the urge to share the message. Keep it up brother!
-------------------- "Cosmic Love is absolutelely ruthless and highly indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not." John C. Lily
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koods
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The Doobie Dude said: Despair, misery, pain and thoughts of suicide.
Re-gift that shit.
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The Doobie Dude


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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: koods]
#19325272 - 12/25/13 11:36 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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koods said:
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The Doobie Dude said: Despair, misery, pain and thoughts of suicide.
Re-gift that shit.
LO FUCKING L that was mad funny
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Envix
Avoidant Disorder



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The Doobie Dude said: Thank you for that post. It is actually quite funny I recently had taken my 1st 5 gram mushroom trip in a while and what I had learned was all I have to do is do well in school and wake up and force myself to smile and continue to do so through out the day and eventually I will feel better. Starting tomorrow I will have taken what I have learned from the mushrooms and from my fellow members here and I will feel better thanks everyone
wow, i've yet to take a heroic dose, maybe some day. i'm glad you took some positive vibes and know-how from your trip. i wouldn't wait until tomorrow. i wouldn't wait at all. I would start now.
and i'm not really gonna quit the shroomery forever, i can't bring myself to do that. i'm just quitting the things i'm most attached to for a week or so.
see ya in 2014, guys!
-------------------- smack a hoe out this dimension continue my ascension -bhad bhabie rip. todcasil, acid sloth, st1llnox, zappaisgod, big worm (sketch), tim b
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r00tuuu123
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: Moonshoe]
#19325333 - 12/25/13 11:59 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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How about you? What gifts did you recieve this year?
Merry Christmas!
I got the flue! I feel like crap.
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: r00tuuu123]
#19325758 - 12/25/13 02:22 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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r00tuuu123 said:
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Moonshoe said:
How about you? What gifts did you recieve this year?
Merry Christmas!
I got the flue! I feel like crap.
Pwnt.
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r00tuuu123
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: koods]
#19326326 - 12/25/13 05:37 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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koods said:
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The Doobie Dude said: Despair, misery, pain and thoughts of suicide.
Re-gift that shit.
Maybe I can re-gift this flu.
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Enjoywho
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: r00tuuu123]
#19326401 - 12/25/13 06:12 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I got a guitar which I'm pretty stoked on.
That's about it did go down to the ocean today in western washington and picked up about 75 sand dollars. Got a grocery bag full =D
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koods
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: r00tuuu123]
#19326412 - 12/25/13 06:16 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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r00tuuu123 said:
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koods said:
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The Doobie Dude said: Despair, misery, pain and thoughts of suicide.
Re-gift that shit.
Maybe I can re-gift this flu. 
I'm sure you already have. It truly is the gift that keeps on giving.
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: koods]
#19326422 - 12/25/13 06:20 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I thought that was herpes.
-------------------- "I don't give nothin' to nobody, I just pay the cost to do business." - Riley "Young Reezy"-Boondocks "The road to hell is paved with good intentions." "In the days of kings and queens I was a jester." "And then the great lord created bears... too many bears... shoulda really dialed back on the bears." Squidbillies "Can you start speaking words instead of your damn filthy lies!"- Louise "Bobs Burgers"
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: koods]
#19326427 - 12/25/13 06:21 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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flow hood, a bunch of stuff for agar work, G. lucidum culture, huge mushroom identification book, and a few sweaters. can't wait to fire this baby up
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Re: What did you get for Christmas ? [Re: koods]
#19326431 - 12/25/13 06:22 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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12 rack of coors light
in another month a car
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