Hello everyone,im pretty new to shroomery,just joined yesterday, so i thought id introduce myself by telling you an experience i recently had with the penis envy strain of Psychedelic boomers.Before i begin, i think it is important to mention i have a good amount of experience with psychedelics, lsd being my first and ever. Ive had pretty rough trips prior to this experience but nothing i couldnt handle. things have gotten out of hand before, but ive always found the good in it and pushed through it. ive never experienced long lasting side effects from any substances, despite how frequent i took them and ive always had a positive outlook towards hallucinogens.
Anyways, sorry for the ranty intro, lets get to the report
-A lil while back, i began to get the craving for a psychedelic which i normally tend to do at random times through out the year. i tend to follow these inhibitions as its almost like an itch that i feel must be scratched. - My friend who had no experience at all in psychedelics, or rather anything past marijuana really, told me that he was totally comfortable and ready to try shrooms with me.I found this as a perfect opportunity to satisfy my psychedelic craving and to provide my friend with an enlightening and beautiful experience. At the time, i believed that my friend was mentally prepared for this journey as he knew the extremity of hallucinogens and was willing to accept whatever was thrown at him. - So, me and him decided that On the Wednesday when school got out early for the week,we would voyage into the amazing world that psilocybin provides for the mind
- Upon receiving word from my connection i proceeded to acquire the substance. When i arrived, the guy told me that they were going to be a little more expensive this time, 20 more dollars an 8th to be exact, but he also told me that these mushrooms were a special type of strain and that they were 4-5X the potency of his last batch.foolishly, i did not believe him as i truly thought he was just trying to get more bang for his buck by saying the shrooms were more potent and selling them for higher prices. Despite this, me and my buddy each purchased an 8th. On each bag the words " Penis Envy" were written and i assumed that this was the so called special strain.
- My friend was house sitting for a week so we had a chill place to go for the entire night with no interruptions and a full house to ourselves. Upon arriving we began taking the necessary psychedelic precautionary's. Are the lights off outside?, Do we have alot of water?, Are all the important conversations we must have with people out of the way? Etc. Etc. Overall, it was gearing up to look like a wonderful trip
- My friend had never tripped before, as previously stated, so i told him that we should eat half of the 8th to start, as my normal dose is to eat a whole 8th at once of some regular cubensis. I took no heed to the warning my dealer gave me, which was a really bad call, but i assumed they could potentially be only a little stronger.
Allllllllright. So here we are. 30 minutes after ingesting the shrooms my friend and i are sitting outside smoking a few bowls. I began to notice some slight visual effects as well as feeling surges of energy jolt through out my body. The surges were so powerful and orgasmic that i felt as if i had to move otherwise i would be overwhelmed by this sensation. My friend was feeling the same thing he stated, surges so overwhelming he couldnt stand still. All of this was going really well and i was extremely excited to see what this trip had in store.
About 50 minutes into the voyage i was actually tripping pretty hard. (lol)My friend started to become a little anxious, but not scared, and i knew this was normal as he was simply taking in the effects of a new, strange, and completely unknown substance. At one point he asked me to put on my hoodie or change my shirt because the Ganesh design on it was wiggin him out. I proceeded to do so and i did not mind as i realized before hand that this trip might be geared a little bit more towards him considering its his first time.
1 hour 30 minutes after ingestion
My buddy really kinda starts wiggin out on me. The shrooms are growing strongly in intensity and i am completely calm, but he seems a bit overwhelmed by the effects. He began doing things such as taking off his shirt and spinning around on the ground on his stomach. or, he would often talk to me for a few minutes straight without stopping and then would ask me, " Dude am i talking right now?". I began to become a little nervous because the intesnity of this shroom trip was really blowing my mind, but i was confused because i only had eaten half of an 8th! This was truly phenomenal to me, but also a little horrifying because i realized that my friend who had literally zero experience in hallucinogens, was most likely on the same level i was and to be honest, it really was a bit much.
2 Hours in
O my god,my friends strange behavior soon turned into utter insanity. He began asking me more frequently if either i was talking or he was, and i would assure him that he has literally talking to me nonstop for the past like 20 minutes. This would cause him to yell with confusion and excitement saying things like " Wait what? for real?". He began to do very strange things such as sit awkwardly close to me, or he would leave his hand on my chest and not even realize it. At one point, he was laughing at something on his computer and he ended up putting his gaping mouth over my knee. I was so wigged out by the way he was acting, it was very strange to a see a perfectly logical, intelligent, handsome and functional human being turn into a completely insane and incoherent person. He must have asked me about 30 times or so by now if he was talking or not, but the answer remained the same. However, something very strange happened the next time he asked me the question. I didn't really know the answer! Before, i could respond instantly to his question and clarify that it was just him talking, but this time he asked me and i became so utterly confused. i asked him to repeat the question and i finally noticed that the ability to process a logical or coherent thought as well as the ability to communicate, was beyond perished.Every word that came out of his mouth began to sound like incoherent rambling and none of it made any sense to me. The last coherent question i can remember him asking and me answering was if i had ever felt like this before. i assured him that what we were feeling were simply the effects of the drug, nothing to be worried about. Everything past this point can only be described by one word, Insanity.
As i lost complete communication with my friend, he began nervously pacing around the house with his shirt off, rambling things that made no sense to me but seemed to have so much meaning in his eyes. i remember catching glimpses of him saying things like, " Im an animal, i need to be an animal!" and he would growl and vigorously rub his shortly cut brown hair on the back of the couch while holding it with both hands. He was completely overwhelmed by the feelings and was experiencing a lot of contradicting emotions at the same time. I was tripping harder than i really ever had visually. Even on lsd, i have never seen patterns or morphed figures to this extent. When i would look at the wall, there would be no space between me or the wall but only eccentric and overwhelming and patterns. When i would close my eyes, the colors and psychedelic figures would be moving quite fast and would endlessly shift into different colors and patterns. My motor skills were fucked to an extent ive never really felt before,i was uncontrollably rolling on the ground and even a simple task of grabbing a water cup out of the cabinet was an obstacle that seemed almost impossible to face. I would reach for the cup and miss completely, grabbing all assorted things in the cabinet besides the cup. In the process i would knock over many things and i paced back and forth in the kitchen trying to figure out what the hell was going on. To me, it appeared as pure insanity. My friend and i are walking back and forth past each other in the kitchen rambling and moaning strange things to ourselves almost completely ignoring one another's existence. We would run downstairs and get confused and run back upstairs. My friend would give random suggestions of things to do to make himself feel "safe" which is why we went to the basement so many times.
I was getting pretty scared. The intensity of these shrooms was just so overwhelming, i truly had never tripped this hard off of shrooms before and this experience was definitely surpassing the things ive seen visually on lsd. Normally, i could most likely handle myself with some time and proper mental management to get myself back to a good head space, but the psychotic and random behavior of my friend kept bringing me back to bad head spaces. I was nervous because i thought my friend was nervous, he looked completely out of control and seemed to be experiencing opposing emotions at the same time. As he would talk to me, he would often uncontrollably change the pitch and volume of his voice as well as the way he expressed his statement. For an example, he would try to tell me something like, he has the option to yell right now but he wont and this amazes him. While telling me this statement, he would do something like say " i could yell right now!" but he would say it in a very angry tone and then apoligize after to me for expressing it that way. Or, he would express a statement of joy towards me in a nervous and sad tone that conflicted with the purpose of the statement. He would talk to himself, rambling and confused as i would try to use the bathroom and he would follow me, then realize what he was doing and would get embaressed and walk away.
Often, there was a pause to the chaos and he would say, " Okay, we need to establish a couple things" and i would agree with him and we would sit down and try to communicate. However, the conversation could not stem any further past that statement as we would either burst out in fits of laughter or confusion and were unable to convey our thoughts.
I began to work myself back into a proper head space, however it wasnt really proper but rather a " Oh shit look what youve got yourself into, now you have to deal with it, 4 more hours to go" kinda attitude. I accepted these bad vibes for what they were but calmly told myself i was safe, in no danger, and would be nice and sober in a few hours.
I really dont remember much else. its all really a confused and blurry haze of insanity. Two young males pursuing the voyage of a psychedelic journey who did not heed caution to Mr.Fantasy's warning. "3-4x the potency? pffft, ya whatever." Because of this, me and my friend had breached the level of psychedelics being "Fun" or "Enlightening"and we had simply lost control of all basic thought, movement and logic. Pure insanity, yet pure bliss. I do not regret the experience, i learned a lot from it. However, in retrospective i wish i would have taken control of the situation better by really helping my friend snap back to reality for a little so he could get a grasp on his mentality. i think that this trip could have gone a lot smoother despite the mushrooms extreme and overwhelming intensity.
I will never consume the penis envy strain again. 1 week after this experience i consumed the rest of my 8th and voyaged into psychedelic hell for 6 hours. i wasnt even tripping that hard visually, but it was rather just a complete and total fear driven experience that left me frightened and mentally damaged for a little bit of time. i had developed an extreme fear of hallucinogens, and have only recently come to terms with what happened and feel comfortable with myself mentally and physically. i now finally feel confident again to take psychedelics, this is something i am very proud of. my last experience with penis envy truly was hell, 6 hours of me sitting in my empty house on the couch suffering, staring, and waiting hour after hour for the experience to end. the visuals were not intense, and what scared me most was that i could not figure out what i was scared of. i felt physically sick, i was sweating profusely, i was flush in the face, and i could feel no emotion besides fear. i was extremely confused along with the fear which made it worse, causing for simple things to give me extreme anxiety such as not being able to find my keys or zip up my jacket. i could not figure out what i was scared of nor what i could do to stop it, so i sat and suffered through out the whole experience.
Anyways, sorry if this one was kinda long, i was just writing as a stream of consciousness and i really feel i have to get these strange experiences off of my chest. What have i learned? 1) Listen to your dealer if he says his shits more potent this time 2) Dont underestimate the intensity of shrooms 3) Be careful with the Penis Envy strain if i ever take it again 4) Make sure you have a plan for if things go wrong.
Thanks for reading my experience, be safe out there and happy trippin'!
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