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Have you been affected by suicide?
    #19314024 - 12/22/13 10:40 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

If you're open to talking about it, please share who it was (to you), why/what happened, and how it's affected things.

EDIT: I'd like to emphasize that rather than get details on what they did/how it happened, I'm curious what the fallout was like for you and their other friends/family.

So I guess how long has it been too.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19314034 - 12/22/13 10:42 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

It was sadly pretty common for people to commit suicide in my last town
luckily I was never close to any of them


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: volcomstoner]
    #19314040 - 12/22/13 10:43 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

That's weird and sorry to hear that; I have read a lot about how the media in various countries approaches suicide because of the potential for copycat suicides.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19314048 - 12/22/13 10:44 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

My older brother got all fucked up on drugs and shot and killed himself.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
    #19314055 - 12/22/13 10:47 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Man, I'm so sorry, Chris :frown:


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
    #19314058 - 12/22/13 10:48 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

All of my siblings have attempted suicide. My mum has too, only a few months ago. I find myself constantly wondering when it's my turn...


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
    #19314061 - 12/22/13 10:49 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

yes, it was a friend, almost a year ago. and i have never ever witnessed that sort of grief amongst so many people before. everyone's lives just fucking collapsed after it all. and we're all still rebuilding.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: pirate-blues]
    #19314097 - 12/22/13 10:59 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Sorry PB :sad:



Anybody who was affected less-recently: is it the case that some simply never fully heal?


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox] * 1
    #19314107 - 12/22/13 11:02 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

I think human beings have an amazing capacity for healing as long as the proper conditions exist for healing to take place. I don't feel like I was as affected by my brother's death as people seemed to think I should have been. I don't think it was any kind of denial of emotions on my part, I think it's just that my way of looking at things is a little different from most people.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
    #19314132 - 12/22/13 11:12 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

I could definitely see you having a different perspective than most.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
    #19314136 - 12/22/13 11:13 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

This one kid killed himself when he was a freshman at my highschool. I didn't know him all that much, but in a school of less than 300 people, you feel a strong connection with everybody. In my small town, everyone at that school had basically known each-other for since pre-k.
When I first heard what happened, I was kind of in shock. Not knowing how to feel, what to say, etc. I found out during lunch time at the school. (the young boy shot himself in the head with a shot gun at his house a few hours prior)
I went to my next class after that, and eventually went left to go to the library where everyone else was.
While I didn't know him the best, some of my closest friends were very close with him, so what I felt most was their pain. Man.. It was tough for a while.
A suicide isn't like a regular death. I've had another friend who I've known better, die in a car crash his junior year, and while that was devastating as well - it was nowhere near as devastating as this case.
For about a week, I would find myself just break down and cry. Everyone in the whole town was effected. Kids, parents, townsfolk - everyone. It was a really tough time for everyone I think, but it really showed how well our community came together as a whole and supported each other in our grieving process.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: MrHill]
    #19314152 - 12/22/13 11:19 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Thanks for sharing Parrott.

Why do you think it's so much worse than random death?


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19314164 - 12/22/13 11:25 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

I honestly have no idea. But I think because it's not some random action of the universe. It's the person taking their own life.
Something was so wrong with their environment that they felt like killing themselves was the only way out. I think this imply a bit of guilt on everyone, as you say "what could I have done to prevent this?" so not only does it hurt you in the sense of you losing someone, it also hurts you in the sense that there was always something you, or someone else could have done to prevent this.
While that last part may not always be true, that feeling really gets you during the aftermath.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: MrHill]
    #19314172 - 12/22/13 11:27 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

I could imagine about the aftermath.


Don't many people's suicide notes try to emphasize either for the survivors not to blame themselves or sometimes actually praise survivors for making their life as good as it could've been?


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19314178 - 12/22/13 11:29 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Do OD's count? Besides that yeah, a few personally.  Left a lot of shocked sad people in the end all missing them.  It adds up over the years.  I have a few friends that had a parent go early.  I know it wasn't easy for them.  My friend and I at work talked about this the other day.  Its a lot of people and a lot of grief.  Not just my friends, but friends friends ya know.  It spiderwebs out, and when we get together we think of them and remember.





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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Corporal Kielbasa]
    #19314212 - 12/22/13 11:42 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

That's a curious consideration regarding ODs. I feel like many people use drugs as a way to flirt with suicide but without actually doing it, though one could also see excessive drugs as necessarily being a form of slow-motion suicide.

Hopefully more people are willing to share too.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Corporal Kielbasa]
    #19314221 - 12/22/13 11:44 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Considering the animus you seem to have for your parents, I hope this isn't your attempt to suss out whether killing yourself would cause enough harm to make it worth while.

Or alternatively, if I'm not being overtly cynical, a way to suss out what damage you may do.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: koods]
    #19314229 - 12/22/13 11:47 PM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Quote:

koods said:
Considering the animus you seem to have for your parents, I hope this isn't your attempt to suss out whether killing yourself would cause enough harm to make it worth while.




Hurting my parents is literally more valuable to me than my own life. :shrug:

:smbfacepalm::lol:

Edit: I missed the latter, "suss" clause so I take back my smbfacepalm which was too rude a response in this case. I want to hear from people it's affected because nobody I've known has killed themselves, or if they tried they simply found out they're not very good at it.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19314308 - 12/23/13 12:27 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Quote:

st1llnox said:
I could imagine about the aftermath.


Don't many people's suicide notes try to emphasize either for the survivors not to blame themselves or sometimes actually praise survivors for making their life as good as it could've been?




yeah i'm sure that happens. In this case though, he specifically blamed his ex/girlfriend for what happened. He was chatting with her on facebook, and she went into the shower. When she was in the shower, he messages her "Ok. im going to kill myself now" and then fucking does it before she gets out. She called the cops immediately, but it was too late..
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: MrHill]
    #19314457 - 12/23/13 02:01 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Father gassed himself in the driveway of our house drunk, was pretty fucked waking up for school for the car to still be idling with him in it. :frown:

Don't usually tell this story, but fuck.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19314519 - 12/23/13 02:39 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

I'm going to make this short and quick just like he did, however after my step brother, served his country as a top class Marine and a great Big bro to my step siblings. He came back respectful and a role model. Flash forward many many months after that he moved to Vegas to reconnect with his biological father. He meets a girl there & things are starting to do well he has 3 jobs. However he was a broken man on the inside from his upbringing and had a deeply rooted alcohol and cocaine addiction.

His last days pretty much went down like this. He shows up to work and all the places are firing him for substance abuse, finds out he's flat broke. The  conversation that changed everything was in a HUGE fight between him and his girl he loved, they thought there were to married. Hopped up on coke, several horrible things happened and THAT last fight made him go in the next room and blew his brains out with his service revolver. He was 24


The biggest effect that I have seen on my family is of course heartbreak but a lot of questions and other things are still lingering. For example I bet you a 1,000$ that Matt (my bro) would have expected 50 people to show but there was well over a few HUNDRED that he had touched at one point in life.

Hardest part is comforting my step siblings. My Sister broke down weeping at the threshold of the door while he was wheeled out the door.

I didn't think my step-bro had that side of him and I cried about it at his funeral because I realized I knew almost NOTHING about him.

Sadly I have more suicide stories to tell but maybe for a different time

Much love to all those with lost loved one's fallin victim to suicides  :hug:


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Seriously_trippin]
    #19314608 - 12/23/13 03:23 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

I live near an ivy league university and multiple students killed have killed themselves from the stresses of academics. 
Pretty unsettling to think about.
A well liked musician kid in my highschool killed himself like a year ago.  I dint know him but people were fucked up by it. 
Suicide is rough.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: koods]
    #19314682 - 12/23/13 04:22 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

My kid brother hung himself in January 2010. The strange thing was, I had a crazy "mystical experience" around the same time. He was super high on MDMA in Manhattan on 9/11/2001. He was never the same since. He was on some weird anti-psychotic med when he killed himself. My mom found him. I've always felt so sorry for her. I warned them both about those meds.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Middleman]
    #19314833 - 12/23/13 05:48 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Thanks for all of your input and stories guys. Sad topic :sad:  I hope I didn't get anyone too down from evoking recollections of it.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19315195 - 12/23/13 08:25 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

My older sister did a intentional barbiturate OD when I was 17. She was 21 and had issues dealing with being gay.:hug: Sis:heart:...

  My first wifes' Mother decided to hang up. She couldn't deal with :syringe:H any more. The  Wife(Ex) and I were there when they took her out of her house. That was over 20 years ago.:tombstone: Pat. :heart: I was a Pallbearer for that one.

  2 friends in HS :suicide:, couple of OD's (possibly intentionally)...
 
  These events have kept me from ever thinking about suicide. Seems easy for those checkin' out, not so easy on the survivors... :sadyes:


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: vinsue]
    #19315310 - 12/23/13 09:02 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Jesus Christ, Vins... I'm so sorry to hear that. It sounds like doing it to anyone once devastates them, but such a battery of tragedies. :hug: I'm so sorry dude. Thanks for sharing.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? *DELETED* [Re: st1llnox]
    #19315312 - 12/23/13 09:04 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: larry.fisherman]
    #19315317 - 12/23/13 09:05 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

XL, I'm all for fun and games but there's a lot of sadness in this thread it seems (just if you're trolling; if not, my apologies although I maintain that this might not be the optimal avenue to express this).


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: larry.fisherman]
    #19315339 - 12/23/13 09:12 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Last year,one of my best friends commited suicide with my help,as a birthday present,I bought him a knife with which he stabbed himself to death after I introduced him to the merciless world of datura overdose.
...Good times.

Joking,I actually feel very bad for him,I promised to him that I'll commit suicide with him,he actually believed me,but,well,I ate 500 datura seeds and he ate about 900-1000.
At least I ended up in the hospital and not in the morgue.
Can't wait to see his face on the other side,I think he would spit me,only if he could...


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Grigore]
    #19315347 - 12/23/13 09:15 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

That's pretty messed up


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19315368 - 12/23/13 09:24 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

I've had several friends opt out over the years. It's almost always so sad and seems so pointless.

One just couldn't take life any more was a huge drunk and lost touch with him.

One was going through a break up was hammered showed up to his ex with a gun.
Got a long prison term and jumped from the highest point of the cell block.

Many more OD mostly on the H and booze combo.

Had a few vet buddy's who got home took ssri's no note just heat of the moment thing

My step grandpa who was in tons of pain did it but he sorta told people he would.
Did it on vets day in his w.w2 dress uniform. He was dying slowly and didn't want to burden his family any more

 
Suicide is never the answer op. With the exception of terminal illness. And even then I wouldnt opt out.

Despite whatever anyone is going through there are people who love and care about you.
The amount of pain people go through even your friends is gonna be bad.
They will almost always blame themselves. Life is hard and we all have our burdens to bear.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: ChasingBliss]
    #19315409 - 12/23/13 09:39 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Its not. Ever:heart:

Bright days!
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Shortknight]
    #19315421 - 12/23/13 09:41 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

I lost one of my childhood friend due to suicide. It sucks, but it's been more than 10 years.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Patlal]
    #19315610 - 12/23/13 10:35 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

This is not rhetorical and is not meant as an insult or to downplay, Patlal, but you're still not over it? (See why I needed to qualify that question so much?)


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19315721 - 12/23/13 11:12 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Quote:

st1llnox said:
This is not rhetorical and is not meant as an insult or to downplay, Patlal, but you're still not over it? (See why I needed to qualify that question so much?)




Yeah I'm over it.


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
    #19315748 - 12/23/13 11:20 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

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If you're open to talking about it, please share who it was (to you), why/what happened, and how it's affected things.

I'm curious what the fallout was like for you and their other friends/family.

So I guess how long has it been too.




Lost my mom in April...had been fighting depression for 40 years...had tried once before and played it off like an accident...we believed it...

She had a stockpile of medication that she had been hiding and took it all...hundreds of pills...tens of different kinds...it was unbelievable but I guess she wanted to make sure...

The fallout appears to be ongoing perhaps forever...the holidays have been awful to say the least...been going to a group once a month for survivors of suicide like myself...the stories there are unbelievable...

its like living in a movie or book...


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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Jack yo Self foo]
    #19315753 - 12/23/13 11:22 AM (10 years, 1 month ago)

Stay strong. At least she isn't suffering any more.


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