|
Seriously_trippin
Cosmic Guru Ganesh



Registered: 07/12/13
Posts: 14,471
Last seen: 16 hours, 11 minutes
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19314519 - 12/23/13 02:39 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
I'm going to make this short and quick just like he did, however after my step brother, served his country as a top class Marine and a great Big bro to my step siblings. He came back respectful and a role model. Flash forward many many months after that he moved to Vegas to reconnect with his biological father. He meets a girl there & things are starting to do well he has 3 jobs. However he was a broken man on the inside from his upbringing and had a deeply rooted alcohol and cocaine addiction.
His last days pretty much went down like this. He shows up to work and all the places are firing him for substance abuse, finds out he's flat broke. The conversation that changed everything was in a HUGE fight between him and his girl he loved, they thought there were to married. Hopped up on coke, several horrible things happened and THAT last fight made him go in the next room and blew his brains out with his service revolver. He was 24
The biggest effect that I have seen on my family is of course heartbreak but a lot of questions and other things are still lingering. For example I bet you a 1,000$ that Matt (my bro) would have expected 50 people to show but there was well over a few HUNDRED that he had touched at one point in life.
Hardest part is comforting my step siblings. My Sister broke down weeping at the threshold of the door while he was wheeled out the door.
I didn't think my step-bro had that side of him and I cried about it at his funeral because I realized I knew almost NOTHING about him.
Sadly I have more suicide stories to tell but maybe for a different time
Much love to all those with lost loved one's fallin victim to suicides
-------------------- R.I.P Zombi3, Blue Helix Modest Mouse Zappa Slothie That Kid With The face ShLong Le Canard split_by_nine & Big Worm Forever Etched in the sands of time in the shroomery and ever so beloved and deeply missed by many
Edited by Seriously_trippin (12/23/13 02:41 AM)
|
thelanzii

Registered: 11/13/12
Posts: 5,434
|
|
I live near an ivy league university and multiple students killed have killed themselves from the stresses of academics. Pretty unsettling to think about. A well liked musician kid in my highschool killed himself like a year ago. I dint know him but people were fucked up by it. Suicide is rough.
|
Middleman

Registered: 07/11/99
Posts: 8,399
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: koods]
#19314682 - 12/23/13 04:22 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
My kid brother hung himself in January 2010. The strange thing was, I had a crazy "mystical experience" around the same time. He was super high on MDMA in Manhattan on 9/11/2001. He was never the same since. He was on some weird anti-psychotic med when he killed himself. My mom found him. I've always felt so sorry for her. I warned them both about those meds.
|
st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



Registered: 11/27/12
Posts: 7,312
Loc: 913 KANSAS CITY 816
Last seen: 5 years, 1 month
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Middleman]
#19314833 - 12/23/13 05:48 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
Thanks for all of your input and stories guys. Sad topic I hope I didn't get anyone too down from evoking recollections of it.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
|
vinsue
Grand Old Fart



Registered: 02/17/04
Posts: 17,953
Loc: The Garden State(NJ)
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19315195 - 12/23/13 08:25 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
My older sister did a intentional barbiturate OD when I was 17. She was 21 and had issues dealing with being gay. Sis ...
My first wifes' Mother decided to hang up. She couldn't deal with H any more. The Wife(Ex) and I were there when they took her out of her house. That was over 20 years ago. Pat. I was a Pallbearer for that one.
2 friends in HS , couple of OD's (possibly intentionally)... These events have kept me from ever thinking about suicide. Seems easy for those checkin' out, not so easy on the survivors...
--------------------
"All mushrooms are edible; but some only once." Croatian proverb. BTW ... Have You Rated Ythans Mom Yet ?? ... ... HERE'S HOW ... (be nice) . ...
|
st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



Registered: 11/27/12
Posts: 7,312
Loc: 913 KANSAS CITY 816
Last seen: 5 years, 1 month
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: vinsue]
#19315310 - 12/23/13 09:02 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
Jesus Christ, Vins... I'm so sorry to hear that. It sounds like doing it to anyone once devastates them, but such a battery of tragedies. I'm so sorry dude. Thanks for sharing.
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
|
larry.fisherman
shoulda died already



Registered: 11/03/12
Posts: 36,294
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? *DELETED* [Re: st1llnox]
#19315312 - 12/23/13 09:04 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
Post deleted by XLCapsReason for deletion: Serious but innappropriate
|
st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



Registered: 11/27/12
Posts: 7,312
Loc: 913 KANSAS CITY 816
Last seen: 5 years, 1 month
|
|
XL, I'm all for fun and games but there's a lot of sadness in this thread it seems (just if you're trolling; if not, my apologies although I maintain that this might not be the optimal avenue to express this).
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
|
Grigore
Young Lunatic


Registered: 06/15/13
Posts: 432
Loc: Romania
Last seen: 9 years, 17 days
|
|
Last year,one of my best friends commited suicide with my help,as a birthday present,I bought him a knife with which he stabbed himself to death after I introduced him to the merciless world of datura overdose. ...Good times.
Joking,I actually feel very bad for him,I promised to him that I'll commit suicide with him,he actually believed me,but,well,I ate 500 datura seeds and he ate about 900-1000. At least I ended up in the hospital and not in the morgue. Can't wait to see his face on the other side,I think he would spit me,only if he could...
|
nicechrisman
Interdimensional space wizard



Registered: 11/07/03
Posts: 33,241
Last seen: 4 years, 6 months
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Grigore]
#19315347 - 12/23/13 09:15 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
That's pretty messed up
-------------------- "Cosmic Love is absolutelely ruthless and highly indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not." John C. Lily
|
trekie
Metal man



Registered: 05/11/09
Posts: 11,085
Loc: Larger cities
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19315368 - 12/23/13 09:24 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
I've had several friends opt out over the years. It's almost always so sad and seems so pointless.
One just couldn't take life any more was a huge drunk and lost touch with him.
One was going through a break up was hammered showed up to his ex with a gun. Got a long prison term and jumped from the highest point of the cell block. Many more OD mostly on the H and booze combo.
Had a few vet buddy's who got home took ssri's no note just heat of the moment thing
My step grandpa who was in tons of pain did it but he sorta told people he would. Did it on vets day in his w.w2 dress uniform. He was dying slowly and didn't want to burden his family any more Suicide is never the answer op. With the exception of terminal illness. And even then I wouldnt opt out.
Despite whatever anyone is going through there are people who love and care about you. The amount of pain people go through even your friends is gonna be bad. They will almost always blame themselves. Life is hard and we all have our burdens to bear.
-------------------- I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
|
Shortknight



Registered: 02/25/13
Posts: 2,164
Last seen: 6 years, 5 months
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: ChasingBliss]
#19315409 - 12/23/13 09:39 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
Its not. Ever
Bright days!
Shorty
-------------------- Did I say it too loud? Big heart? Or a little misleading!
|
Patlal
You ask too many questions



Registered: 10/09/10
Posts: 44,797
Loc: Ottawa
Last seen: 2 hours, 24 minutes
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Shortknight]
#19315421 - 12/23/13 09:41 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
I lost one of my childhood friend due to suicide. It sucks, but it's been more than 10 years.
--------------------
|
st1llnox
dx'd PTSD/ADHD--please don't ask



Registered: 11/27/12
Posts: 7,312
Loc: 913 KANSAS CITY 816
Last seen: 5 years, 1 month
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: Patlal]
#19315610 - 12/23/13 10:35 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
This is not rhetorical and is not meant as an insult or to downplay, Patlal, but you're still not over it? (See why I needed to qualify that question so much?)
-------------------- Back, bitches. st1lln0x: so i'm on weed, temazepam, adderall, dexedrine, dxm, dph, alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, tryptophan, GABA, and kratom Cavemen_savemen: st1lln0x, do you feel like a robot yet? st1lln0x: I feel like a fucking Gundam Click to friend me on Steam for Counter-Strike
IS LIFE SKULLFUCKING YOU!? HAVE SOME FREE MORALE! Click if you want to feel you alone can do it! Click if you want to feel confident and beastly! Click if you want courage to let go and move on! And click the message if you need someone to talk to -- I'll understand, even if we "hate" each other on here
  
|
Patlal
You ask too many questions



Registered: 10/09/10
Posts: 44,797
Loc: Ottawa
Last seen: 2 hours, 24 minutes
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19315721 - 12/23/13 11:12 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
Quote:
st1llnox said: This is not rhetorical and is not meant as an insult or to downplay, Patlal, but you're still not over it? (See why I needed to qualify that question so much?)
Yeah I'm over it.
--------------------
|
Jack yo Self foo
The Artful Dodger



Registered: 06/28/08
Posts: 3,096
Loc: Where the red fern grows....
|
Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19315748 - 12/23/13 11:20 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
|
|
Quote:
st1llnox said: If you're open to talking about it, please share who it was (to you), why/what happened, and how it's affected things.
I'm curious what the fallout was like for you and their other friends/family.
So I guess how long has it been too.
Lost my mom in April...had been fighting depression for 40 years...had tried once before and played it off like an accident...we believed it...
She had a stockpile of medication that she had been hiding and took it all...hundreds of pills...tens of different kinds...it was unbelievable but I guess she wanted to make sure...
The fallout appears to be ongoing perhaps forever...the holidays have been awful to say the least...been going to a group once a month for survivors of suicide like myself...the stories there are unbelievable...
its like living in a movie or book...
-------------------- You learn something new everyday, so be sure you learn something from it.
|
nicechrisman
Interdimensional space wizard



Registered: 11/07/03
Posts: 33,241
Last seen: 4 years, 6 months
|
|
Stay strong. At least she isn't suffering any more.
-------------------- "Cosmic Love is absolutelely ruthless and highly indifferent: it teaches its lessons whether you like/dislike them or not." John C. Lily
|
|