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st1llnox
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Have you been affected by suicide?
#19314024 - 12/22/13 10:40 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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If you're open to talking about it, please share who it was (to you), why/what happened, and how it's affected things.
EDIT: I'd like to emphasize that rather than get details on what they did/how it happened, I'm curious what the fallout was like for you and their other friends/family.
So I guess how long has it been too.
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19314034 - 12/22/13 10:42 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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It was sadly pretty common for people to commit suicide in my last town luckily I was never close to any of them
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st1llnox
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: volcomstoner]
#19314040 - 12/22/13 10:43 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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That's weird and sorry to hear that; I have read a lot about how the media in various countries approaches suicide because of the potential for copycat suicides.
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19314048 - 12/22/13 10:44 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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My older brother got all fucked up on drugs and shot and killed himself.
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st1llnox
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
#19314055 - 12/22/13 10:47 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Man, I'm so sorry, Chris
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
#19314058 - 12/22/13 10:48 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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All of my siblings have attempted suicide. My mum has too, only a few months ago. I find myself constantly wondering when it's my turn...
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
#19314061 - 12/22/13 10:49 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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yes, it was a friend, almost a year ago. and i have never ever witnessed that sort of grief amongst so many people before. everyone's lives just fucking collapsed after it all. and we're all still rebuilding.
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st1llnox
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: pirate-blues]
#19314097 - 12/22/13 10:59 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sorry PB 
Anybody who was affected less-recently: is it the case that some simply never fully heal?
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox] 1
#19314107 - 12/22/13 11:02 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I think human beings have an amazing capacity for healing as long as the proper conditions exist for healing to take place. I don't feel like I was as affected by my brother's death as people seemed to think I should have been. I don't think it was any kind of denial of emotions on my part, I think it's just that my way of looking at things is a little different from most people.
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st1llnox
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
#19314132 - 12/22/13 11:12 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I could definitely see you having a different perspective than most.
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: nicechrisman]
#19314136 - 12/22/13 11:13 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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This one kid killed himself when he was a freshman at my highschool. I didn't know him all that much, but in a school of less than 300 people, you feel a strong connection with everybody. In my small town, everyone at that school had basically known each-other for since pre-k. When I first heard what happened, I was kind of in shock. Not knowing how to feel, what to say, etc. I found out during lunch time at the school. (the young boy shot himself in the head with a shot gun at his house a few hours prior) I went to my next class after that, and eventually went left to go to the library where everyone else was. While I didn't know him the best, some of my closest friends were very close with him, so what I felt most was their pain. Man.. It was tough for a while. A suicide isn't like a regular death. I've had another friend who I've known better, die in a car crash his junior year, and while that was devastating as well - it was nowhere near as devastating as this case. For about a week, I would find myself just break down and cry. Everyone in the whole town was effected. Kids, parents, townsfolk - everyone. It was a really tough time for everyone I think, but it really showed how well our community came together as a whole and supported each other in our grieving process.
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st1llnox
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: MrHill]
#19314152 - 12/22/13 11:19 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thanks for sharing Parrott.
Why do you think it's so much worse than random death?
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19314164 - 12/22/13 11:25 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I honestly have no idea. But I think because it's not some random action of the universe. It's the person taking their own life. Something was so wrong with their environment that they felt like killing themselves was the only way out. I think this imply a bit of guilt on everyone, as you say "what could I have done to prevent this?" so not only does it hurt you in the sense of you losing someone, it also hurts you in the sense that there was always something you, or someone else could have done to prevent this. While that last part may not always be true, that feeling really gets you during the aftermath.
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: MrHill]
#19314172 - 12/22/13 11:27 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I could imagine about the aftermath.
Don't many people's suicide notes try to emphasize either for the survivors not to blame themselves or sometimes actually praise survivors for making their life as good as it could've been?
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19314178 - 12/22/13 11:29 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Do OD's count? Besides that yeah, a few personally. Left a lot of shocked sad people in the end all missing them. It adds up over the years. I have a few friends that had a parent go early. I know it wasn't easy for them. My friend and I at work talked about this the other day. Its a lot of people and a lot of grief. Not just my friends, but friends friends ya know. It spiderwebs out, and when we get together we think of them and remember.
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st1llnox
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That's a curious consideration regarding ODs. I feel like many people use drugs as a way to flirt with suicide but without actually doing it, though one could also see excessive drugs as necessarily being a form of slow-motion suicide.
Hopefully more people are willing to share too.
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Considering the animus you seem to have for your parents, I hope this isn't your attempt to suss out whether killing yourself would cause enough harm to make it worth while.
Or alternatively, if I'm not being overtly cynical, a way to suss out what damage you may do.
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st1llnox
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: koods]
#19314229 - 12/22/13 11:47 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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koods said: Considering the animus you seem to have for your parents, I hope this isn't your attempt to suss out whether killing yourself would cause enough harm to make it worth while.
Hurting my parents is literally more valuable to me than my own life. 
 
Edit: I missed the latter, "suss" clause so I take back my smbfacepalm which was too rude a response in this case. I want to hear from people it's affected because nobody I've known has killed themselves, or if they tried they simply found out they're not very good at it.
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: st1llnox]
#19314308 - 12/23/13 12:27 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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st1llnox said: I could imagine about the aftermath.
Don't many people's suicide notes try to emphasize either for the survivors not to blame themselves or sometimes actually praise survivors for making their life as good as it could've been?
yeah i'm sure that happens. In this case though, he specifically blamed his ex/girlfriend for what happened. He was chatting with her on facebook, and she went into the shower. When she was in the shower, he messages her "Ok. im going to kill myself now" and then fucking does it before she gets out. She called the cops immediately, but it was too late..
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Re: Have you been affected by suicide? [Re: MrHill]
#19314457 - 12/23/13 02:01 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Father gassed himself in the driveway of our house drunk, was pretty fucked waking up for school for the car to still be idling with him in it. 
Don't usually tell this story, but fuck.
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