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999
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Why can't I enjoy things?
#19300384 - 12/19/13 10:32 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Ever since I was a kid, I've sortof been alienating myself from people. Nothing too severe, I mean, I have friends, family, etc... But it's all sooo dull. I hate playing ball, I find it hard to relax enough to go for walks, and I can't stand social events without something like alcohol to loosen myself up. I was in sports teams, and didn't really enjoy it, it just felt like one long workout, which I was fine with. Until I started partying, my life was really bleak. I hate sports, team stuff, I can't draw, write, or play an instrument because I lack the motivation to learn, and just have the envy of people who can. I just wish I knew what was up, if there was some change I could make, or something I could do to sortof.. cut my inhibitions, and live life a little fuller. Example: On alcohol, I can concisely discuss relevant things with perfect strangers, with confidence, in perfect synch with the given mood. Like, I can ride those social vibrations so perfectly well... Oh, also, when I started on Kratom, I could do the same thing. Then it became less of a novelty, and I became quiet again. I just really envy people who can be extroverted and fit in and enjoy themselves, you know? It's not that I have a low self esteem, I don't think, so much as I lack that... vibe, sometimes. I want to change that about myself.
If anyone has any thoughts, I'd love to read them.
Edited by 999 (12/19/13 10:34 PM)
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999
Number Nine?



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Re: Why can't I enjoy things? [Re: 999]
#19300393 - 12/19/13 10:35 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Oh, also, I become obsessed about things like drugs, and spend my time lurking on websites for hours a day for days on end, simply researching them. That can't be healthy, but I keep getting drawn to it.
Instead of.. living life to the fullest, because I can't seem to enjoy it. It's like a chore, even trying.
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Re: Why can't I enjoy things? [Re: 999] 1
#19300578 - 12/19/13 11:33 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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So... Is this where I meet my twin. Can relate to everything.. Literally. You're not alone.
It's so difficult for me to enjoy things that most others enjoy. I'll start a hobby, get obsessed, get bored and never do said hobby ever again.
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This might seem extreme, but it will definitely help. Try not to use Internet at all (only for paying bills, school etc.). Also don't use phone at all, just turn it off and leave it. Try this for a week and you will see how life will change to positive side for you. It's because you will start wondering what to do and without your phone and Internet you will just have to start doing something else (don't use drugs, even not weed). Hope it helps
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jimboob
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Quote:
Anonymous said: This might seem extreme, but it will definitely help. Try not to use Internet at all (only for paying bills, school etc.). Also don't use phone at all, just turn it off and leave it. Try this for a week and you will see how life will change to positive side for you. It's because you will start wondering what to do and without your phone and Internet you will just have to start doing something else (don't use drugs, even not weed). Hope it helps 
This guy has the right idea.
I feel you OP, but the drugs/alcohol aren't going to help you. You need to cut all that shit out (including the internet, maybe even sugar or video-games if that's a problem) and find happiness in the seemingly mundane. Every moment is completely different and novel from previous ones. Start by understanding that.
P.S. I feel like I've been on an anti-drug crusade here on the shroomery, I'm not anti-drug I'm against using drugs to cope with your problems. Sometimes a good trip can open doors or knock you into place, but even with psychedelics I've tripped way more than I should "looking for the answers."
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Re: Why can't I enjoy things? [Re: jimboob]
#19302658 - 12/20/13 12:16 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Oh and when you cut all that shit out you will feel like shit, prepare for that.
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