I noticed someone else posting about their bad acid trip, so I thought I'd share, too. It was the worst, and most revealing experience of my life. I took 8 hits, though, and put myself in a really awful setitng.. the feeling was akin to my emotions, feelings, soul... being rubbed down to a nub by a big eraser. I could smell gasoline and burnt rubber, and feel the dissolution of my emotions. I couldn't convey how awful it was to my friends, I could hardly form words, and nothing I said had that.... vibration... the vibration that governs what we say when we don't really think about what we say, the energy that goes along with your feelings, expressions, etc. My words were meaningless and hollow, full of apathy, even though inside, I wanted to cry out for help. It's sortof like crying for a very long time, and then trying to cry again, without sufficient reason to, but you still feel awful. That's the best way I can explain it to someone who's never experienced it. I was hollow. Thanks for sharing your story, and convincing me to tell a tiny bit of mine. Bad trips can be scarring experiences, but, at least for me, it gave me a peak into what I now understand as the very formation of our egos, created over time by the accumulation of our positive and negative energies, which stem from our thoughts, actions, emotions, etc. Be mindful of your thoughts and actions. It took awhile for feeling to come back, but now, 11 months afterwards, I feel much better than ever before.
I guess I got what I deserved, given the circumstances, how I was living my life, how blind I was... I'd still love to maybe candy/hippy flip this christmas- but I doubt I'll find anything. I don't have any expectations, you don't find lucy, lucy finds you.
If you've experienced something similar, please share
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Thanks for sharing. What do you think caused it? In particular, was there a specific thought you had that sent it downhill?
It's always interesting for me to hear about things like that because typically I find that bad trips are caused by a certain feeling or realizaton. This realization is then focused on and becomes the main idea of the trip. What I've found though is that sometimes if you can catch it early, you can stop a bad trip from happening. You get a bad thought, REALIZE it's not where you want the trip to head, tell yourself that your emotions are in a heightened state and that it's counterproductive to focus on this thing. Sometimes that's hard to do though. Typically when someone has a bad trip like that, they get stuck in sort of a thought loop where everything comes back to that original idea. Does this make sense from your perspective?
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