While I had tried cubes about 3 times and LSD in the past, I was on Xanax at the time and didn't know it would kill the trip, so they didn't work and I was quite confused about that at the time. I just got a super high anxiety buzz which was not pleasant.
Anyways this was the first successful trip and I want to try and report a few things for my own recollection and out of curiosity about the feedback others might have about it.
I had about 2g's of GT ground and in '00' Gel caps (4 all together, about .5g each approx, I didn't weigh them but really jammed as much as I could into each gel capsule). Nothing to eat about 12 hours before. But I took them a few hours after I got up in the afternoon, I took them at 7pm.
Just before I took them I said a few words to myself about my intention and what I hoped to achieve by taking them. My primary intentions are for healing - specifically chronic pain - and more generally for insight and guidance into my own life, past and future, for the present moment, and for whatever may be.
30 min to onset, I put on this music choir of angels and was swept away for the next hour or so. The effect was more powerful than anything I had ever taken, which was basically just weed.
After 1.5 hours I had a little vegetarian Indian food, aloo dum, when I opened the container it looked hyper-clear and like alien innards or something which grossed me out a bit, anyways, after I ate a bit the effect of the mushrooms intensified, which was quite pleasant. Up until then I was feeling a little agitated, writhing around on my bed, unsettled, but I also find this when I use medical canna-oil. I can take canna-oil with or without food and virtually nothing will happen for several hours until I eat! And then it comes on very fast and will last usually for a solid 6 hours with a 2-3 hour peak, something to do with ingestion through the liver?
When I walked (more stumbled really) around my body felt very light and empty which was a great feeling. This would be freedom from chronic pain I suppose! Giggles and spontaneous laughter now and then.
I felt at about 3 hours into the trip that if I had smoked some weed that probably would have made it very intense like an OOB (out of body) perhaps? But it was so intense already that I didn't want to mess with it on the first trip (although very tempting).
At one point the trip became quite emotional, thinking about my mother, my own life situation, I was sitting on the toilet (appropriately), there were a massive pack of dogs howling in the distance, some music was playing in my room, and all at once they both stopped at the same time and I said to myself "my life is not bound by my [job]". It seemed like a great revelation, and I felt like the mushroom shows you things in ways that you don't expect. It seemed like an oddly profound moment in the trip, even if it seems totally banal in retrospect.
No visuals, just everything was very clear, and lights outside seemed very bright and clear.
During the come down I began over-layering utube music, combined with some of my own piano music, and I had at that very moment a sort of 'satori' - I was instantly in a new space and totally absorbed by its beauty and odd pathos. I was having a great laugh reading peoples comments to some flaky 'zen' new age music - bamboo flutes, synth pads, oh the works, really nicely done schlock - people would say the funniest things, like it was the greatest music they had ever heard, etc...and then one lady's comment about it really struck me as very authentic and true, it didn't make me laugh, so I went to her profile and started watching her home videos with an over lay of the 'zen' lounge music, then turned on my own music, and voila! Transported, put on my recorder and found a whole new world there. I've heard lots of stuff like this which is great, but anyways this was new for my own work.
After I felt the trip was finished, there was still an afterglow for about another 6 hours until I went to bed, I didn't sleep well, still a bit roused from the trip I suppose.
That's all I can recall at the moment from 3 days ago. I have 3g's more that I may try this weekend.
Thanks for reading!
Edited by greenery1 (12/18/13 02:14 PM)
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