Hey guys, i just wanted to know if any other people go or are going through anything like this. This is quite complex and hard to explain, so please bare with me. I don't do many drugs. I do alcohol and caffeine frequently, have done shrooms tobacco (not at the same time) a few times and cannabis a fare few times, and once peyote, but it had no effect.
Last time i did shrooms, i unfortunately mixed it with green dragon and had my first bad trip. I also induced ego death. I think it was ego death at least. I read about how many people talk about how ego death is enlightening and something amazing, but that wouldn't describe my experience at all. I forgot who/what i was and everything else too. I became only a long moment in time, except the problem was, the moment was on replay like it was showing my entire life in super fast forward up until i dye and then it would start over from the start and keep showing everything, including me dieing. Nothing enlightening about it; it was terrifying. I would describe the situation as temporary psychosis. (having never experienced psychosis before though i could be wrong).
So here's where i was getting too. In the state of mind, just before i die i hear a conversation take place, and then i am murdered. I can't remember precisely, but i either die by being shot, or i die to a one punch KO. Anyways, so once i sobered up, i thought about it a little and then dismissed it as trippy imaginations. I have done cannabis since then and have experienced the exact same state of mind three times since then though from cannabis exclusively. One time was so intense, it was worse than the first time with shrooms, and it even left me with occasional anxiety attacks afterwards for about two weeks. So the conversation that took place before i died, while trpping the first time; i have heard again on the three times while high on cannabis that have gone bad. It's starting to intrigue me. I can't help but wonder what if it was all real. I've tried to write it down while i'm terrified and high, but i can never remember the words exactly, i can only remember the sound of the sentences. I can still remember what it sounds like when sober. I'm obsessing over it, i can't stop thinking about it. It's like i could predict the future if only i could work out what the conversation was about.
I don't usually do drugs with other people. Some of my closest friends don't even know i experiment with shrooms and weed. No one i know would be worth talking with about this with, so i thought i'd share my experience here. Does anyone else have some psychotic/imaginary(maybe) memories they're not sure about? I'm very interested to hear advice too.
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Well to me, it seems like you had a pretty profound experience with the shroom trip the night before and the memories and emotions were still potent even the day after. And something ive always noticed with pot with me is, when i smoke shortly after i just get brainstorms of things i wouldnt normally think about sober and make connections etc. So you were probably still in the recovering phase of the night before and the pot just amplified your memories and emotions and probably got stressed/anxious over those feelings again
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