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Alexestalex
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god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit
#19282428 - 12/16/13 04:39 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I am a stone cold numb fuck
My parents could die tomorrow and I wouldn't break a sweat. I wouldn't give two shits. It wouldn't ruin my day in the slightest. I don't feel sadness or joy just numbness. Its kinda boring tbh. I can't make myself care about shit especially other people.
Life must be so much more meaningful when you care about someone. Even if its an illusion it beats my perspective and ignorance is bliss. People who actually give a shit about other people, tv shows, nik naks, whatever.
You people are lucky?
Does anyone think I should get checked for a potential dopamine deficiency?
I'm not suicidal
Edited by Alexestalex (12/16/13 04:42 AM)
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Alexestalex]
#19282434 - 12/16/13 04:42 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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hardcore
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Alexestalex
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Crystal G]
#19282436 - 12/16/13 04:44 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
Crystal G said: hardcore 
Definitely not going for that man I'm being dead serios.
On a scale of 1-10 1 being sane 10 being charles manson, how fucked up am I considered for not caring about my parents dying?
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Edited by Alexestalex (12/16/13 04:47 AM)
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Asante
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Crystal G] 1
#19282440 - 12/16/13 04:47 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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What you have too little, I have too much. I care very much about just about every little thing. You and I should have a lil "give a fuck" swap where you take a bit of my intensity in exchange for giving me some of your inertia.
I guess where I say ITS IMPORTANT!!!111! you say ah well it doesnt matter anyway.
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Alexestalex
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Asante]
#19282445 - 12/16/13 04:49 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Wiccan_Seeker said: What you have too little, I have too much. I care very much about just about every little thing. You and I should have a lil "give a fuck" swap where you take a bit of my intensity in exchange for giving me some of your inertia.
Oh boy I would fucking love to man
I always hear people saying be thankful bla blah. If there was some starving kid in africa who appreciated life more than me and we could swap bodies I'd let him in a second
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Alexestalex]
#19282451 - 12/16/13 04:52 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Alex I takew pills to give less of a damn, so it'd be a Godsent for me too.
youch the way you say that makes it sound like either you are depressed or you conceptually painted yourself into a corner with nihilist rationalism.
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Alexestalex]
#19282460 - 12/16/13 04:58 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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You remind me of the film Adaptation....
Maryl Streep plays this jaded new yorker author that wants to know what it's like to truly be passionate about something...
Then ends up snorting this fictitious drug extracted from a rare orchid that helps people feel 'fascinated'.
In this scene she's high trying to create a dial tone by humming one note and getting the guy on the end of the line to hum another to make a dial tone... 

Brilliant film, maybe you should watch it. I don't know if it will help you make sense of anything. Probably not, but maybe a good distraction.
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Alexestalex] 1
#19282468 - 12/16/13 05:02 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Eat some mushrooms.
I'm not kidding.
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Soulidarity
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Alexestalex]
#19282474 - 12/16/13 05:10 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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It's one thing to say you don't care, it's another entirely to see two of the most loyal and genuine people your likely to ever know in your life die in front of you...
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CosmicJoke
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Soulidarity]
#19282477 - 12/16/13 05:13 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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and it's another thing to add an ellipsis to the end of your sentence to express some disapproval to somebody who is acknowledging their legitimate problems
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Alexestalex]
#19282480 - 12/16/13 05:16 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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don't be so negative op I don't know what you need go find it be patient we all find are own way
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CosmicJoke
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: watermelon mon]
#19282526 - 12/16/13 05:38 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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why, because it makes you feel uncomfortable? i don't think keeping your problems bottled up because you're being a debbie downer is great advice...
we all do have to figure out what works for ourselves though, i'll agree with you on that...
if you're emotionally stunted, you need to find a release. don't ignore this problem, don't conceal it... find people who you can be honest and sincere with everything that's going as you possibly can... if you're lucky, you might have some breakthrough... that's my 2c.
-------------------- Everything is better than it was the last time. I'm good. If we could look into each others hearts, and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care. It takes a lot of courage to go out there and radiate your essence. I know you scared, you should ask us if we scared too. If you was there, and we just knew you cared too.
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: CosmicJoke]
#19282593 - 12/16/13 06:26 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I doubt this is the case, but do you think you could potentially be an extremely functional individual with aspergers syndrome? Since going to college, I've met a number of people who have aspergers and they are extremely intelligent and very functional individuals. The only difference is, the majority of them seem quite numb and emotionless. They just don't seem to show much emotion, they are extremely hard and logical, and they never seem to exhibit any sadness, anger, or overwhelming happiness. Really strange, I think it contributes to their intelligence, although I'm sorta happy I'm an emotional dude, makes me feel alive
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: OliverJames]
#19282715 - 12/16/13 07:56 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I agree with the above posters. Its time for a high dose of psyches in low light with nothing but music. I hope you find whatever it is inside you that makes you spark. It makes all the difference.
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psychodelia
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: TheGreenArrow]
#19282751 - 12/16/13 08:13 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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OP do you smoke a lot of weed? Sometimes when I feel depressed I smoke a lot of weed, which makes me think that I don't care about things as much as I really do. Basically, weed doesn't help my depression, it just numbs it and when I'm sober I just give no fucks about anything whatsoever. If you do smoke a lot, my advice is to take a long break and get in touch with what's really important to you.
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: psychodelia]
#19282758 - 12/16/13 08:15 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yet i'm just about to smoke a bowl... knowing full well it won't benefit me in any way at all. You're not alone OP, lots of people go through the 'not caring about anything, everything is meaningless' phase, i assume.
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: CosmicJoke]
#19282771 - 12/16/13 08:22 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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CosmicJoke said:
In this scene she's high trying to create a dial tone by humming one note and getting the guy on the end of the line to hum another to make a dial tone... 
I got goosebumps during that scene. it was dope as fuck when they made it
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Alexestalex]
#19282869 - 12/16/13 09:01 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Alexestalex said: I am a stone cold numb fuck
My parents could die tomorrow and I wouldn't break a sweat. I wouldn't give two shits. It wouldn't ruin my day in the slightest. I don't feel sadness or joy just numbness. Its kinda boring tbh. I can't make myself care about shit especially other people.
Life must be so much more meaningful when you care about someone. Even if its an illusion it beats my perspective and ignorance is bliss. People who actually give a shit about other people, tv shows, nik naks, whatever.
You people are lucky?
Does anyone think I should get checked for a potential dopamine deficiency?
I'm not suicidal
Stop doing drugs and start on an anti-depressor.
Your life will change completely.
*By drugs I mean the illegal, non-productive ones, I can already predict a shitstorm from idiots concerning the anti-depressors*
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Alexestalex]
#19282910 - 12/16/13 09:14 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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What do you do for a a living? I agree with above in that you should stop whatever illegal drugs you are currently taking. Force yourself to start exercising every day for at least 30 minutes. Look at your diet and start making healthier choices.
If you are having problems getting the motivation to do the above things, consider seeing a doc and getting some antidepressants to help get you started on the right road.
I've been where you are now before and it sucked. I tried to help it with drugs/alcohol/sex and if anything it just made stuff worse. Doing the above helped me a lot, and coming back into the faith I was raised in helped a ton too.
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Re: god I am so jealous of you people who care about shit [Re: Patlal]
#19282916 - 12/16/13 09:16 AM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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