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MrNeonJesus
Fates Victim

Registered: 12/10/13
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Level 5 intense trip
#19279301 - 12/15/13 12:55 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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It was 5:45. I had just consumed over five grams of psychedelic mushrooms. I had not eaten 24 hours prior. For the exception of an apple before hand. When I consumed them I washed them down with O.J. The last time I took less then an eighth and ate 2 hours prior.
This is how it went.
I was standing. I then proceeded towards my door. I turned the lock. "Click". An echo inside my head. I turned around and saw my bed. I layed myself down and got my phone. Through Google music I played Pink Floyd - Money.
Visuals started to kick in. But not like they had before ....it approached me much faster. So fast the comparison I would use is me standing on a train track with a train less then 10 feet away. The walls started to come to life. They started breathing. In...out...in..out...I thought to myself... "I am so ready for this". The colors on the wall turned into lines. Lines of what looked like ants marching. In my very own bedroom. It did not freak me out at all. The lights in my room started moving around.Flashing. Twisting and turning. But everything was twisting and turning....everything. This was by 6:15. After that I lost ahold of time...
I turned on Learning to Fly. Then I made my first mistake without even realizing it. I had not prepared myself..
I turned off the lights.
It was nice at first. Visuals to the max. Light waves. They lagged and twisted and also turned.
The music started to slow down....but got louder then quiter. Repeated this for what felt like an hour but had to be only less then the length of the song.
It stopped. Why? It grabbed my attention not instantly. But when I looked at the phone...I could see no time. I could see the music was still playing. How was this possible? I heard nothing.I swear to it and always will.
Then this feeling of anxiousness creeper over my body like the feeling of going numb does when you stay still a certain way to long. But I wanted it to go away.
I pressed pause. I thought I did. IT felt like I did it two times...five times...maybe times I cant even tell you. Reality started to feel like a dream/nightmare. I wanted it to end. I closed my eyes.
This is where it began.
All noises came to a stop. The television upstairs. The dogs walking around. Then they came on again. But in the same noise patter. "Dog walking on hardwood floor" "Andy Griffin theme song whistle"....Then over and over until stopped again. It worried me. I closed my eyes and curled up in a ball. It felt safe and comfortable....maybe I could sleep it off.
I opened my eyes again. This time I took of my glasses. I thought they were broke....I felt like a monster. I felt an evil presence.
I started to panick. Why? Because it was only the begging of the trip and I wanted it to end already. or so I thought..... I was going in and out of reality until i lost control of it.
I was in what felt like a different world. Eyes closed. But they were open. Body was laying down. But I was moving. Now any thought within the last week affected it. Why?
Two weeks ago i thought about suicide...and talked to a friend ...she told me no matter what there is people that care for you.
I got up to use the bathroom. Nothing felt real. I felt a pin in my lower right abdomen. I pulled up the shirt I was wearing and I saw a black hole. Had I been shot? The blood appeared everywhere. It was dripping from the ceiling...I wanted it stop...I started to cry. I closed my eyes again... For some reason I repeated all the information I knew about myself..but because I thought someone was asking me. Trying to wake me up. Like I was losing my memory. Then the girl I talked to....her name. I repeated it at least a hundred times. I felt cold. I was in the back of an ambulance. I had been shot....by a police officer. They thought I was crazy because i tried ripping the mushrooms from my stomach. I tried. I thought I did. Then I saw the lights...red...white blue...flashing on and off. She said "It'll be ok you will be awake soon. just two more hours." Me : " her name, I just want it to end ...WHEN WILL IT END?" and she did everything she could to comfort me. Then I died....The last words I said to her was I love her....
Then all the people...family and friends I have ever had and have appeared in my head...I heard their screams....the crys.... Someone said "The boy who thought he knew it all" ."He needed help". "Hes crazy" "He had no one".....I had no one though....
I screamed it.I shouted it. I needed someone. I wanted someone....
I gripped back into reality without realizing it... I grabbed my shorts. All i could feel was my hands and those shorts.
I opened my eyes and saw my door. Had I died? I could see with no glasses. Im almost blind and I could see....
She appeared in my head again. I relived the last five minutes of my death.
Me :"Lily....I can see the door..." Her :"Go the door...open it..."
But I was to scared. I curled in a ball. It felt like my clothes were going in a circle. Off my head into my legs back on to my back.
I heard the police questioning me. Telling me I was arrested..
This repeated "Anything you ....Anything you say....Anything you say can and will.....Anything you say can and will be used against you." "Against you" Against you"....
I decided I wanted it to end. I opened my eyes.I saw the door. I heard the voices..."Open it". "Conquer your fears". I begged life for another chance. I cried my eyes and heart out. I apologized to everyone and everything.
I opened it. Now I did not know it was reality...
Someone found me on my front porch....in under 30 weather in just my boxers. Reaching at they sky....saying
"Grandpa.....Mom....I need you...Mom...I love you..."
They knew something was wrong. But I thought they knew. I thought they knew everything. Everyone knew everything but they didnt.
They called an ambulance for me to spend the night at a hospital... It happened in segments...
Now keep in mind this was reality. I was on a stretcher in the back of an ambulance....they closed the doors and behind them everything got black. The next thing I knew I was on a hospital bed. Was I going to die? Everything started to white. All I wanted to do was pee. but I couldn't....life made me reflect on everything....everything....good and bad....i cried...i laughed...i got mad...I was a madman .Nuts . Then everything got white....I peed myself for what felt like five minutes....everything was at a stand still...the doctors...the wall....everything stopped moving....then got whiter....
Then I woke up the next morning...Head felt heavy.I felt sad. Upset.
Then went home later that day.....
I have never experienced anything like it. One other thing...I will never take my life. And cost others the feelings they will feel....
Thats my story.
-------------------- Shrooms changed the way I look at everything and everyone.
Edited by MrNeonJesus (12/15/13 07:06 PM)
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blackmilk
Stranger

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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: MrNeonJesus]
#19279421 - 12/15/13 01:33 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Holy shit thats scary! What kind of mushrooms did you eat? Do you think your previous thoughts of suicide contributed to the bad trip or did you just not prepare well enough? Either way im glad your alright.
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LiquidGlass
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Registered: 07/08/12
Posts: 5,288
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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: MrNeonJesus]
#19279443 - 12/15/13 01:38 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Fucking intense!
How long ago was this?
Is that your normal mushroom dosage?
-------------------- Some art I've made Glass Art Gallery
  I was raised a christian and was a stone-faced acid head - Ken Kesey
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MrNeonJesus
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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: blackmilk]
#19279452 - 12/15/13 01:40 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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I believe they did. And it showed me the cost. And thank you. And the amount of intensity surprised me....they were justnshrooms. I had them before and never felt anything near this
-------------------- Shrooms changed the way I look at everything and everyone.
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MrNeonJesus
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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: LiquidGlass]
#19279460 - 12/15/13 01:42 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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No. It was almost doubled from the first time. And it felt like forever but it was only two hours for the most intense part.. Then until 3a.m. it was pure visuals....but it felt like days....
-------------------- Shrooms changed the way I look at everything and everyone.
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LiquidGlass
Glass Blower


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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: MrNeonJesus]
#19279466 - 12/15/13 01:44 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yeah you should only up your doses in 1 gram increments. 1 gram can make a lot of difference
-------------------- Some art I've made Glass Art Gallery
  I was raised a christian and was a stone-faced acid head - Ken Kesey
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MrNeonJesus
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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: LiquidGlass]
#19279499 - 12/15/13 01:50 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yea...I did not realize it until now. But I most certainly learned my lesson. In both ways.
-------------------- Shrooms changed the way I look at everything and everyone.
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Shortknight



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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: MrNeonJesus]
#19280385 - 12/15/13 05:32 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Interesting read. Trip to the hospital would suck, but im really happy you gathered so much appriciation out of your trip. That really rocks!
Keep the good vibes up! Shorty
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MrNeonJesus
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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: Shortknight]
#19347982 - 12/30/13 07:05 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Just got the bill. FML lmao
-------------------- Shrooms changed the way I look at everything and everyone.
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Icyus
KavitārkikasiṃHa



Registered: 11/07/13
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Re: My worst Nightmare. Trip #2 [Re: MrNeonJesus]
#19348019 - 12/30/13 07:13 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Now I just got to have a lv 5... Good vibes to you
-------------------- And thus begins the reverse-fusing of our one-dimentional understanding, and adds ever-expanding perspectives, in depth and number; splitting our perception, and in so doing, seemingly irrationally, creates yet more one-ness, with all that ever was, is and will ever be, streching across the infinite, inunderstood concept of everything, percievable and not.
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