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Bahaudeen
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What is this I can experience?
#19271108 - 12/13/13 02:42 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Will be a long post.
Here is a bit of background to why I decided to write this now. Today I decided to do some meditation after a few days of reading up about what it is all about. I was concentrating on a my breathing and a clock in my bedroom when after a while of trying to shut down my thoughts I decided to close my eyes. After about 15 seconds my eyes lids half shut and flickering and everything in this state was brighter. After a min or so I opened my eyes and my room was yellower and slightly brighter. The flickering eyelid stage reminded me of what I could do much better in my early teen years...
When I was about 13 I was going to bed whilst thinking about a song. The song became louder and louder until it was literally played out loud in my head as if I was wearing headphones. At the same time (room was pitch black) my closed eye sight would appear a white color with a fluid look like a river flowing upwards. At the same time the music was taking me to another place. When experiencing this I had a constant energy feeling that flowed around my legs and lower back. A similar sensation to an orgasm. From any given moment of the day I can induce this energy feeling on demand with little effort. Also when experiencing this, my eyes were pretty much spazing out as if blinking with closed eyes many times a second.
Another time before I went to bed I attempted to induce this consciousness. I replicated the energy feeling I can make on demand as well as mimicking the eye blinking with closed eyes. And lo and behold I induced this consciousness. I recall the black color you see when you close your eyes in a dark room swirling with greens and blues in the blackness. The blackness turned to a whiteness.
Then the bodily sensations started... With the energy constantly flowing in the background, I felt my body shrinking - in pulses while with my eyes blinking when closed - and then rapidly expanding to unknown size. It was exiting. I didn't feel frightened as I had perfect control of the experience. I remember having an image of an ant (that I squashed that day) in my head and then I would become the size of the ant and become it; feeling the pain it felt with the language of this energy that flows through me. It felt like ultimate empathy only realized when writing this very sentence.
I had several more experiences of the like. I recall seeing the Buddha, round, fat and smiling a great grin. It appeared with a strobe like effect and would shrink to a point then expand. Colors are different in this state of mind. Whites have an almost brownish appearance as they blend in with the brown/reddish color of closed eyes. I've had maintained this state of mind for around half an hour at the most; it is mentally exhausting as it requires a lot of concentration.
Now the strongest effect I've ever had with this state of mind. I was having the same similar effects of the previous paragraphs with the always present energy sensation, but with half opened eyes. I slowly opened my eyes (I still held onto the energy coursing through me strongly) until they were wide open. I then decided to channel as much of this orgasm-feeling-like-energy as I could...
A vortex -like a tornado- opened from chest. Of complete swirling blackness, the vortex stretched out into the room in front of me. My room wasn't distorted. I tried to hold onto the energy and the experience (and tried to go further) when I snapped out of it. I thought, "enough for today". It was certainly exhausting. I remember getting up from the bed to the toilet, buzzing and twitching from the experience with excitement.
I have no religious affiliation. After many years of trying to find out what the flip I can do, I decided to write this post.
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Re: What is this I can experience? [Re: Bahaudeen]
#19271153 - 12/13/13 02:55 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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These are simply experiences of altered states of consciousness that can occur in meditation. its cool that you have this ability but its nothing to get super excited about. If i were you, i would study a great deal more about meditation. What you want to do is find out how to effortless meditation, so you dont have to expend yourself concentrating.
There is also the potential that you could attain self-realization, or even God-realization.
This is a website that will tell you a little bit about self-realization and it also offers a few meditation techniques. I hope you enjoy it. http://lovebliss.eu/Selfrealization.htm
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Bahaudeen
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Re: What is this I can experience? [Re: Deviate]
#19271237 - 12/13/13 03:18 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Unfortunately it is kind of a lost ability I haven't been able to sustain anything as powerful as I used to anymore.
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Re: What is this I can experience? [Re: Bahaudeen]
#19271647 - 12/13/13 04:59 PM (10 years, 1 month ago) |
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Lots of visual activity occurs for alot of reasons and I can't go into them all. The sensations one feels seem like they are coming from without but they have alot to do with blood pressure changes. The flowing and rocking sensations are really blood pressure fluctuations.
The meditation occurs in a place where the respiration is very calm and subtle and soft. On the way to that alot occurs to allow one to settle down.
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